Do you get scared of going outside?

[ForbiddenSiren]

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

 

[MountainMonkey]

Humans and artificial noise give me anxiety, being alone in nature relaxed me.

 

[Life_and_Death]

some days are better then others. very rarely but sometimes i go in stores. typically im having panic attacks and crying around people.

everyone is judging me

this is how i feel irl and online. the fact that im half ignored in the only discord server ive had enough guts to actually talk in, isnt helping

 

[avaruus]

Yes, thats why i only leave once a week for grocery store, i always get startled in the store when someone comes around the corner

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly wouldn't want to go anywhere where there is a lot of people. It would make me want to die so much more. To me there is no peace and relief from suffering in this life.

 

[Thequietone]

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

Yeah every time. I needed to go outside the last 3 days and man it was hard. 1. Getting up in the morning (nearly impossible) 2. Seeing all this people that can enjoy life 3. The crowds, sooo many people out there 4. Trying to get what I have to do like today I bought a new phone and man it was exhausting and I didn't even enjoy having a new phone.

Food I only order online and let it be delivered, I can't take it to be in a store for a longer time.

 

[7b48hl]

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

I barely leave the house at all

 

[Sick of it all]

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

I have dealt with agoraphobia for many years. It helps when I have someone I trust with me. It keeps me grounded in a way. Helps with the paranoia. I avoid leaving my house as much as possible though.

 

[lionetta12]

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

I'm a little scared right now but that's because I'm being threatened daily and I've been kidnapped before so it's triggering flashbacks from that. I still do go out every day, but I'm more anxious and wary than usual.

 

[raskol1980]

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

I feel you. I work 2 days a week at the moment and the rest of the time I stay indoors. I don't go to the shops for food so end up spending the little money I make on fast-food deliveries.

The days immediately before work are the hardest as I know I'll have to go out. It's always as bad as I imagine it to be lol wtf?!

I'm a little scared right now but that's because I'm being threatened daily and I've been kidnapped before so it's triggering flashbacks from that. I still do go out every day, but I'm more anxious and wary than usual.

That sounds awful for you :( I hope your situation improves.

 

[Coal54321]

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

Yes, I have anxiety and haven't socialised with anyone (outside of being at work or in class) in close to a decade. I find that when I have to go somewhere, I can just plug in my headphones and be fine most of the time.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Yes I never leave my house except to go buy food and sometimes even if I'm hungry I don't want to leave… People are strange when you're a stranger… They seem normal walking their dogs and talking on the phone… I wonder if they can tell that I am totally shut down… When I open my voice and talk sometimes barely any sound comes out… I used to be very different… I used to have hope and purpose…. Now I'm just a phantom…

 

[Blondie]

Yes!! In fact I don't actually go out alone at all

 

[SadVegan]

Yeah, my heart beat starts pumping like crazy, there are so many heart breaking memories embedded in the places where i usually walk. I wish i could erase them all. I'd like to go to new places too, live somewhere else, a new brand start, but it's already too late for me.

 

[VKVK]

Yes, absolutely, I have the same feeling. And no matter how I look in the mirror, it stays. I think I know deep inside I'm too different (suicidal and depressive) from others and they can tell with a blink of an eye. It is one of the reason I hate interacting with people, but then again I always expect them to be the absolute worst due to trauma so. I just avoid them in general.. which isn't good...

 

[Lullaby]

Yeah, ever since I was a kid, I've had anxiety about going out. It's gotten worse the last couple of months for some reason, and I usually get horrible panic attacks when I'm out. I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of breaking down and crying.

 

[emgrl]

Yes I never leave my house except to go buy food and sometimes even if I'm hungry I don't want to leave… People are strange when you're a stranger… They seem normal walking their dogs and talking on the phone… I wonder if they can tell that I am totally shut down… When I open my voice and talk sometimes barely any sound comes out… I used to be very different… I used to have hope and purpose…. Now I'm just a phantom…

This! I feel this…

 

[NeverEndingPain]

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

Yes :(
I've been dealing with this for 1 year. I don't even go outside because I don't want to see or talk to anyone. It's so bad and one big reason that I want to CTB.
It all started with covid and the lockdowns. I stopped going out and found ways to not have to go out. Everyone else seems back to living normal and I don't know how to go back to before

Yes, absolutely, I have the same feeling. And no matter how I look in the mirror, it stays. I think I know deep inside I'm too different (suicidal and depressive) from others and they can tell with a blink of an eye. It is one of the reason I hate interacting with people, but then again I always expect them to be the absolute worst due to trauma so. I just avoid them in general.. which isn't good...

Same :(
My depression is so bad that I couldn't even fake a smile if I wanted. I'm pale and sick looking from not wanting to eat and get shaky. I can't even find the energy to get dressed or look presentable to be in public. I feel if people see me they will know right away that I am not well. I live in a very small town. I'm so lonely yet I don't want anyone to see me. It makes no sense

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Yes in HS I was scared to go to school some days because of my terrible skin disorder (should be classed as a medical condition). Afterwards when I begun working in retail it was easier to go out and talk to people but then my abusive coercive relationship and I was devastated and went into my shell. And didn't know how to build myself back up. Perhaps saving money and saving for surgeries and joining martial arts but this still didn't take away the fact that I was emotionally devastated over my skin in my teens and had health inept and internet inept parents. It was an all around horrible situation. Your parents lose interest in you because of your face. You only could protect yourself but you're already weakened because of your medical condition setting you up to be preyed upon by bullies in school for your skin. So I was ripe for abuse. Then to escape my solitude I'd slept with random men which didn't fulfill me. Now I have mental health disorder from the trauma of my skin condition, the abuse I received, shyness and social anxiety, isolation, and trust issues and a strong fear of men


But I wasn't even smart enough to attempt to off myself. It's like my emotions are locked. I'm trying shrooms currently to see if this can unlock my emotions
It stems from before age 18.

 

[tser1073]

I've started feeling like this in the last couple years, especially since the pandemic but also due to increasing body dysmorphia. I feel like everyone can see that I'm a broken person and I'm not really human anymore. I just wanted to be safe.

I do manage to go grocery shopping once a week, but there's a festival this weekend near my house and I know I absolutely cannot go because if people see me they will hate me. I mean I know intellectually no one is even noticing me, but I can't help but feel that I'm so unsafe at all times that it comes off of me and makes other people scared. Sorry. I know that doesn't make sense.

 

[Hollowillow]

Hello everyone, I hope you are all coping ok.

Random vent, but do you guys get scared of leaving the house? I always feel like everyone is judging me, like im an alien or something. I know its probably all in my head but its scary.

People are scary.

I made new friends today... A nurse who could have help me physically. Instead she said the poison is just in my head and made a scene immitating fake crying and pain complaints... I never cried. But i was crying inside. I called a social worker, he sent cops. People are assholes. People trying to help just want to control.

I'm judging you... Positively. I like you

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Hate it. Overwhelming.

 

[hellispink]

It's called social anxiety (phobia). I have it since I was little. I cant even go to the store next to the street. I am so exhausted living terrified and afraid.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yes, I don't go out often. It's not a pleasant world out there. At least not where I live.

 

[Hope:-)]

Yes. My problems are now obvious, and I find that embarrassing.

 

[Obliviate]

I live in the US. I am a woman of color and let's just say I am terrified to go out because of all the shootings and hate crimes. Literally we are walking around to be killed and it's scary. Not to mention humans are so rude and annoying, with the bad luck I have I always assume the worst will happen to me and this increases my anxiety to an extreme.

 

[Foresight]

I'm slowly getting comfortable being on my lawn again. The world has kicked my ass over and over again and I simply don't want to engage with people anymore. I like nature though.

 

[Obliviate]

I'm slowly getting comfortable being on my lawn again. The world has kicked my ass over and over again and I simply don't want to engage with people anymore. I like nature though.

Same! It's like I felt so bored at home but whenever I went out bad shit happen and all of a sudden I was like you know what I love being at home. Even neighbors piss me off so it's like technically no peace anywhere

 

[Deleted member 31858]

That definitely happens to me, agoraphobia and social anxiety. I am not able to leave the house or go to the store, I am thankful for the apps where I can order cigarettes because I don't even dare to go out and buy them. I have been locked up for many months, every time I think about trying to get out it gives me a lot of panic and anxiety. that has prevented me from even ctb comfortably because when I left the house to go to the hotel I had to gather a lot of strength to do it and now thinking that I will have to go out again to buy SN and to the place where I decide to take it worries me and makes me anxious.

 

[LetMeGoPlease]

I cramp up everytime I'm outside, I can't even go for a walk into the forest with my dog and relax because of so many people, so I rather risk going for a walk at night even though I'm afraid some animal will attack me and one time I passed some gypsies and I'm glad nothing happened to me. One thing I gave up one is smiling though. All my life I've been listening to how I always look like I'm in a bad mood and I should smile more, I fucking hate it and I recently gave up on it. It's hard because I so want people to like me, especially men, but it feels so much better being relaxed even if I look like the most depressed or meanest person alive or whatever else people want to project on me.