Discussion Do you gaslight your own depression ?

[RadioRamen]

Gonna try and explain this the best I can . At times when I'm feeling depressed i feel an inner voice attack me , like "how are you depressed? you don't have it as bad as others, your just being pathetic " things like that , and when it comes to CTB , it's kinda the same , just something within saying you can't do it because you don't deserve it . Does anyone else kinda go through things like this?

 

[Vlad Tepes]

Yup, 100%, though only with regard to the ctb part specifically

 

[Greyhawk]

I have a lot of that "You don't have it as bad as others" which is obviously stupid but I just can't get that voice out of my head. This voice in my head tells me that I'm weak and pathetic all the time because others have it worse and here I am complaining...

 

[mabudachi]

I know what you mean. That guy is a fuckin bully.

 

[RadioRamen]

I know what you mean. That guy is a fuckin bully.

He's the god damn worst!

I have a lot of that "You don't have it as bad as others" which is obviously stupid but I just can't get that voice out of my head. This voice in my head tells me that I'm weak and pathetic all the time because others have it worse and here I am complaining...

Yeah it's so weird to not be able to accept your own depression. Just makes you feel less than human even more to not be allowed to to experience your own emotions

 

[rustcohle4life]

Nope, I'm completely aware that we live in an absurd reality. My depression is a natural response to my environment. Honestly, i might question your sanity if you're not depressed.

 

[shiftingtendons]

ive had such a shitty life and even worse past 6 months that i just accepted it's ok for me to feel depressed

 

[Nightfoot]

Depression doesn't always depend on your present life circumstances. Take Chester Bennington, for example. He was an extremely talented singer for an extremely successful band who, sadly, hanged himself. He had often spoken about his depression so, while he was living a life most could only dream of he had also been sexually abused in childhood. Early trauma (and not necessarily as bad as sexual abuse) can have negative and lifelong effects on one's stress response, especially if there is already a genetic predisposition. None of us asked to be depressed and none of us deserve it.

 

[RadioRamen]

Depression doesn't always depend on your present life circumstances. Take Chester Bennington, for example. He was an extremely talented singer for an extremely successful band who, sadly, hanged himself. He had often spoken about his depression so, while he was living a life most could only dream of he had also been sexually abused in childhood. Early trauma (and not necessarily as bad as sexual abuse) can have negative and lifelong effects on one's stress response, especially if there is already a genetic predisposition. None of us asked to be depressed and none of us deserve it.

Well put , yes you are also right no one wants depression , I guess for me I feel guilty about being depressed

 

[littlecutecorpse]

for me it's mostly: "you're just upset you can't have things your way" because that's what everyone would always tell me. perhaps they're right. i was always a little shit when things didn't go in my favor. but oh well.

 

[MissAbyss]

That's why I always say that, at the end of the day, I'm my own worst enemy.