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I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
798
Single: yes
Isolated: no
Mental health issues: yes
Physical health issues: no
Substance abuse: no
Prior attempts: yes
Past abuse: no
Non-hispanic white: yes
Male: yes
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Global Mod · Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,543
Single - currently yes
Isolated - yes in that I am trapped home but I do interact here and with the family I live with
Mental health issues - big yes
Physical health issues - no
Substance abuse - nope
Prior attempts - yes, at least 8
Past abuse - maybe? I don't know
Non-hispanic white - yes
Male - no, I am a trans girl
 
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legoshi

legoshi

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Sep 3, 2024
125
Single: yes
Isolated: yes
Mental health issues: yes
Physical health issues: no
Substance abuse: no
Prior attempts: no
Past abuse: yes
Non-hispanic white: yes
Male: yes
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,717
Single and isolated- yes. Problems in childhood although, debatable on whether it could be termed abuse. White and non hispanic but, female. I'm not sure race-wise the proportion of white women who kill themselves.

I'd say overall, I'm pretty non typical though. No substance abuse, no major health issues, no former attempts. An actual attempt would be my first major documented instance of self harm or mental instability- if they want to interpret it that way.
 
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kindalone

kindalone

Student
Mar 1, 2023
198
Not white. But everything else checks. I guess this is my fate.
 
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wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,823
YES I DO
 
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Permanoir

Permanoir

Student
Dec 29, 2024
144
Single: yes
Isolated: no
Mental health issues: I'm not sure, but I'm suicidal for sure
Physical health issues: no
Substance abuse: NO
Prior attempts: yes but no hospitalization.
Past abuse: no
Non-hispanic white: No, I originally come from Africa but live in the west now.
Male: kinda (I'm intersex)

I don't fit the profile and I think I'm the oddest one out lol.
 
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glitterycheese

glitterycheese

something less than to most
Mar 2, 2025
61
-single: yes
-isolated: primarily outside of classes
-mental or physical illness: definitely mental, autistic and diagnosed with GAD
-non-hispanic white male: no
-abuse : caffeine and previous attempts.
 
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hawkshorizon

hawkshorizon

Member
Aug 23, 2023
93
Other than being of Hispanic decent, I fill all the other criteria.

As an older person, I wonder how much age plays a factor. Loneliness is painful at any age, but as I've grown older I've found that the sense of isolation and insignificance has grown steeply in magnitude.

And may I say with all due candor on this point, it sucks.
 
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MrBigSad

MrBigSad

Experienced
Sep 30, 2020
257
There's so many categories we all fill. It's like how psychics work, make the vaguest statement you can think of and I'm sure there's 3/100 that fit the same description. And if 1000 people see it then around 30 are in it .

Got a grandma that died?
Drink a lot ?
Feel like a failure?

It's pretty easy to relate to abstractions. Or old references.

Point is it's an odd realisation to have, that despite feeling so alone, worthless . Failurific . There's at least a million people that feel like you
 
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amomentspeace

amomentspeace

Student
Mar 2, 2025
160
The only category I fit is white (maybe mental illness but i've never been diagnosed with anything). By all measurable standards my life good. Better than my peers I would say. Still, they live happily and I want to kms lol. I've always struggled with this because I really feel like I shouldn't be suicidal at all.
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
442
Single since the death of my partner; I've been inadvertently isolating myself recently; mental health issues plenty; no substance abuse issues; one prior attempt; no huge abuse growing up; white male; I'm also gay which I guess ups my odds!
 
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Lo$t95

Lo$t95

Hello Darkness my old Friend
Jul 16, 2024
267
Single since the death of my partner; I've been inadvertently isolating myself recently; mental health issues plenty; no substance abuse issues; one prior attempt; no huge abuse growing up; white male; I'm also gay which I guess ups my odds!
My condolences. Thanks for sharing.
 
dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

Warlock
Oct 8, 2023
722
I wonder how much age plays a factor. Loneliness is painful at any age, but as I've grown older I've found that the sense of isolation and insignificance has grown steeply in magnitude.
Old people tend to commit suicide at a significantly higher rate than young people, especially once you hit your 70s and 80s. I think a big factor is that many of them have so many health problems, dead friends, and know that their time is so near, and don't want to suffer more than they have to.
 
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CravingPeace

CravingPeace

It’s only a matter of time
Feb 19, 2025
344
All of them. It's like I'm meant to die.
 
vitbar

vitbar

Escaped Lunatic
Jun 4, 2023
567
Single, but not without options. Fairly Isolated, but less than before, and never completely.
Mental health issues.
Substance abuse, if you count occasional use.
No prior attempts
Various forms of abuse? Some emotional neglect.
non-hispanic White male.
 
natthebrat

natthebrat

only help i want is with ctb
Jul 9, 2023
189
not single (miraculously, no idea what my gf still sees in me)
very few friends, so isolated ig? seems like that could mean many different things.
do have mental issues (autism, probable bpd, probable dpd, anxiety, depression), no physical issues
no substance abuse
1 prior attempt
first grade teacher was abusive. my mom i wouldnt say was, but did/does overreact to everything.
am non-hispanic and white, but not male
 
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Yume Nikki

Yume Nikki

Experienced
Dec 8, 2024
215
Thanks, but that's when I was 16. Young and dumb. It was 43 years ago. I'd NEVER kms over a breakup, or threaten to, either. I didn't even do it then. I hope I'm a bit wiser for wear now. There aint no girl worth killing yourself over.
Had to tell myself this. It's so hard when that one person you loved dearly wasn't meant for you. After my abusive ex broke up with me, I tried to suffocate myself in the living room while waiting for my brother to leave for work. I failed several times and gave up. I'm in recovery 5 months later and still fighting those dark thoughts daily.
 
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