- Aug 18, 2020
Do you ever feel like your waiting or needing permission or confirmation from some one or some thing? Like real life permission (from a loved one or a guide) or just some sort of sign to CTB or to wait?
I think we are simply here to learn. It's a very hard and very scary thing. We are so cruel to each other here. Not everyone but most people. We are here to learn the lessons from good and from bad and there is no right or wrong way to learn them. Its nice that you have someone worth staying for. Many people dont even have that.Oh yes!!! I wish so hard that someone gives me the permission to cbt. I don't feel I have the right to do it. If everyone agree, I would be so in peace to do it. I don't see the purpose of life. Why we are here? Why some people die by "accident" like my brother and why other survive? A permission is more than what I dream
My SHTF a little rough lately as well. I'm sure many people have with all the added events this year. I dont stay for anybody either. If they dont bury you the state will do it. Plus once your gone what good would it do. You can't turn the clock back on that one. Pain is a hard one. I dont have that one right now but I have had reacuring injuries. I can only imagine how much worse it makes the simplest things. I hope it will get better also.No, I'm mostly held back by issues of physical pain, and to a much smaller extent, hope that things will improve. In an ideal world, I would own some N at all times, for if my circumstances worsened as I expect they soon will. And if that happened, I wouldn't hesitate to take it. But no one could ever tell me that I'm not entitled to decide whether I live or die.
Surviving your troubles took strength though. Don't be to quick to forget that. My PTSD has made me feel like ive been living decades without any juice in my battery so I can relate. Mine came from abusive family and fucked up people in a very poor school system. Not the same as other types but I think I gave up when I was a young adult. Just living and waiting to die now. Why do you feel that you need permission from PTSD? You dont have to answer....Yeah but I think it’s due to ptsd. It’s made me weak
Well crap. I mixed up your post with another farther down lol. Its nice to have someone to love and be loved. Most people dont even have that. Its also tough feeling you have to wait if your really waiting to leave. It's a hard thing.My mother's passing or permanent incapacitation would be my green light to CTB. I promised her I would not CTB during her lifetime, but if she were to die or enter a permanent vegetative state, I would consider myself freed from that oath.
Well i have nobody in fact. My brother is dead because of my mother hurt him when she was pregnant of him. And she did the same for me but i am not dead. I just would like to get the permission from an institute of euthanasia.Its nice that you have someone worth staying for.
I actually had your text mixed with another one up at the top. I see that now. I'm sorry you arehaving such a hard time. My life is not going very well at all. I think I may be going sooner than I would like but I'm trying to stay strong and have some hope. To get permission you would need allthe paper work and a chronic condition that wont heal is this correct? We dont have any of that here state side.Well i have nobody in fact. My brother is dead because of my mother hurt him when she was pregnant of him. And she did the same for me but i am not dead. I just would like to get the permission from an institute of euthanasia.
Wow i could’ve written that myself. In that’s what I was pretty much about to write.. so yeah ditto!Yeah, the timing has to be perfect. I'm waiting until after Christmas at least, just to give my family one last holiday with me & to get everything prepared. Once Christmas is over and done with, it's just a matter of booking the hotel room.