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spiders.in.my.head

spiders.in.my.head

chronically stupid
Dec 21, 2025
97
yup. realized it when i had a massive breakdown and before i attempted, i realized i had no one i could call or reach out to, really. sucks, but ive mostly grown used to it again by now.
 
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pinapellicer

Member
Mar 15, 2026
30
I don't have anyone and its all my fault. My social skills are nonexistent cause I sat alone in my room for most of my childhood. I want to meet new people but don't know where to start. I told myself that it would get easier after I started college but my social life has gotten even worse since then.
Is it dumb that i feel so triggered when i feel excluded by my mates at college? It gets me thinking that the time of college will have passed and i will have wasted the biggest opportunity to make friends. How into adulthood i will have less chance to make friends, and will probably stay friendless for the rest of my life.
 
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chloeburbank

chloeburbank

hug me
Jan 30, 2026
84
Is it dumb that i feel so triggered when i feel excluded by my mates at college? It gets me thinking that the time of college will have passed and i will have wasted the biggest opportunity to make friends. How into adulthood i will have less chance to make friends, and will probably stay friendless for the rest of my life.
honestly it isn't dumb that u get triggered by that. i also get triggered because i know im nobody's first choice when it comes to friends. like i know i should be going out and trying to meet new people but its JUST SO HARD. why is socializing so difficult!!!
 
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iamveryoriginal

Member
Aug 27, 2025
22
I don't have anyone and its all my fault. My social skills are nonexistent cause I sat alone in my room for most of my childhood. I want to meet new people but don't know where to start. I told myself that it would get easier after I started college but my social life has gotten even worse since then.
Hey, I'm in the same boat, would be open to getting to know you better if you're down
 
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azo

Wizard
Jun 20, 2023
673
no—though i am alone. it's a double-edged sword.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,331
no I don't need any relationship with another "human" or anything except a good suicide method and the will to escape this hell
 
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foreverandever

foreverandever

雪は溶かさずに春はまだまだ遠いのまま
Mar 23, 2026
13
I'm very lonely, yeah. I've got a good group of friends, who I see regularly, so I feel guilty about being lonely. But I don't feel like I can bother any of them with my problems. They've all got super busy lives that I don't want to interrupt. So, it's a bit of a catch 22.

I'm also single. Have been my whole life. Which would be fine, except I can't get over the desire to be a husband and father.

So, yeah. I'm quite lonely...
 
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chloeburbank

chloeburbank

hug me
Jan 30, 2026
84
I may be stupid but clicking on your dm notification just returns a blank screen
click the chat icon next to the search bar then head over to private conversations. i dont think chat history saves so that might be why ur seeing a blank screen
 
Liebestod

Liebestod

I’m going to die in 2026 (2006-2026) 🔜
Mar 15, 2025
680
I am objectively lonely.
 
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JustBe

JustBe

Member
Jan 12, 2026
24
I work in a very crowded place, yet I never felt so lonely in my life.
I come home to silence and I feel ever lonelier than I was in my past ~15 years having no friends and no one at all.
 
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EndingEagle

Member
Nov 27, 2023
28
Yeah its kind of weird i do have people friends and family but i cant really confide its same as therapy you say things that are sort of true to related to truth never anything fully i also have a nagging feeling that even if i did confide they wouldnt really give a shit and couldnt and really wouldnt even help so yeah better slightly inauthenthic than being fully alone
 
sashaisalone

sashaisalone

Shattered Angel
Mar 24, 2026
60
Everyday i wonder what's the point to keep going when I don't have anyone by my side...and the ones I do have straight up ignored me.
Does anyone feel so lonely that they feel like a hole in their chest?
Extraordinarily. I feel like no one sees me nor would they ever love me the way I wish I loved myself and the way I want to love others.
I work in a very crowded place, yet I never felt so lonely in my life.
I come home to silence and I feel ever lonelier than I was in my past ~15 years having no friends and no one at all.
Is your PFP an image from the internet, or is this a pet you own?
 
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Anthropos

Anthropos

Member
Apr 30, 2024
25
Im indeed alonebut dont feel lonely. That's the odd part.
 
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Star67

Member
Mar 12, 2026
51
Lonely as hell. The people I want to care do not one bit.
 
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Bitch With An Apple

"Student"
Jul 10, 2019
264
Randomly missing an online friend I had ~5 years ago. I caught feelings and the bpdemon came out. He was a special person. God I hate myself.
 
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CookedRamen

Don't Look Down
Jun 10, 2024
9
One of the saddest things is realizing that I have this. I have an amazing boyfriend who cares about me deeply and yet I feel the same level of loneliness now that I did before we were together. I thought being in a relationship would cure me of my depression and sadness and desire to ctb. But nope.
I also have a pattern of ghosting friends and then not having friends anymore. So in some ways I am truly alone as well.

Edit: 2 hours after posting this my bf of 2 years broke up with me
 
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charlavail

charlavail

Student
Mar 19, 2026
131
I feel so alone. Especially after this depressive episode I've been going through for the last couple of months it's been really bad, my friends haven't been as supportive and have distanced themselves especially after my mental hospital stay so I'm like feeling very very lonely.
 
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snake_nela

Member
Mar 11, 2026
12
Being alone is cool I like it
 
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InTheAbyss

Student
Jul 30, 2024
143
I'm always lonely and it gets worse each day. I don't really remember a time when I wasn't lonely.
 
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absolute failure

absolute failure

Experienced
Jan 19, 2026
299
Everyday i wonder what's the point to keep going when I don't have anyone by my side...and the ones I do have straight up ignored me.
Does anyone feel so lonely that they feel like a hole in their chest?
I dont feel lonely but i am messed up and hurt others with my self hatred so maybe being alone would be better sometimes
 
Weird username

Weird username

Member
Apr 18, 2022
45
Since I was a child, deep hole of sadness and loneliness that cries for love.
But no love can cure it
 
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anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
177
Yeah. I do. I dont think anybody gets me, has ever gotten me, or will ever get me. The knowledge is sinking in. Im done trying.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,592
Yes, very much so. Even when I'm interacting with people in my life, I tend to feel isolated and "different" than them.

Also, this post made me think about this:
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Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless, Broken Doll
Apr 20, 2023
71
Everyday i wonder what's the point to keep going when I don't have anyone by my side...and the ones I do have straight up ignored me.
Does anyone feel so lonely that they feel like a hole in their chest?
yes. constantly. every day of my life, for my entire life. i wish it would just end. i don't want to be alone anymore.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Student
Jan 11, 2026
195
Don't care. Not feeling anything. Knowing that I will screw everything makes me feel better alone. I just need to CTB when it's time.
And I didn't choose to be born so why would play this imposed upon me game and care about everything or anything at all. I can CTB now if it makes me sick and tired.
 
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Sodium11

New Member
Apr 3, 2026
1
Yes very much. I have two friends, but i only see them abt once a week. The rest of the time, i just feel so alone.

I just feel like if had a partner with whom i could be with day to day, i would feel way less alone in this forsaken world
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,957
Everyday i wonder what's the point to keep going when I don't have anyone by my side...and the ones I do have straight up ignored me.
Does anyone feel so lonely that they feel like a hole in their chest?
Yes
 

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