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spiders.in.my.head

spiders.in.my.head

chronically stupid
Dec 21, 2025
86
yup. realized it when i had a massive breakdown and before i attempted, i realized i had no one i could call or reach out to, really. sucks, but ive mostly grown used to it again by now.
 
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pinapellicer

Member
Mar 15, 2026
26
I don't have anyone and its all my fault. My social skills are nonexistent cause I sat alone in my room for most of my childhood. I want to meet new people but don't know where to start. I told myself that it would get easier after I started college but my social life has gotten even worse since then.
Is it dumb that i feel so triggered when i feel excluded by my mates at college? It gets me thinking that the time of college will have passed and i will have wasted the biggest opportunity to make friends. How into adulthood i will have less chance to make friends, and will probably stay friendless for the rest of my life.
 
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chloeburbank

chloeburbank

hug me
Jan 30, 2026
76
Is it dumb that i feel so triggered when i feel excluded by my mates at college? It gets me thinking that the time of college will have passed and i will have wasted the biggest opportunity to make friends. How into adulthood i will have less chance to make friends, and will probably stay friendless for the rest of my life.
honestly it isn't dumb that u get triggered by that. i also get triggered because i know im nobody's first choice when it comes to friends. like i know i should be going out and trying to meet new people but its JUST SO HARD. why is socializing so difficult!!!
 
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iamveryoriginal

Member
Aug 27, 2025
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I don't have anyone and its all my fault. My social skills are nonexistent cause I sat alone in my room for most of my childhood. I want to meet new people but don't know where to start. I told myself that it would get easier after I started college but my social life has gotten even worse since then.
Hey, I'm in the same boat, would be open to getting to know you better if you're down
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,296
no I don't need any relationship with another "human" or anything except a good suicide method and the will to escape this hell
 
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