Do you feel like you’ve suffered for such a long time in this existence?

[FuneralCry]

I feel like I have, I've been trapped here for such a long time. The option to die in peace in a guaranteed way really needs to be there, I find it extreme cruelty how people cannot just have the option to easily die in a peaceful way. To have the ability to exist truly is just an punishment imposed by those who were selfish enough to procreate into this hellish world, in my case more than anything I wish I never existed at all, only never existing is perfection to me.

It's just so tragic how there's all this unnecessary suffering as a result of the abomination that is existence, I find it tragic how life even exists at all, being conscious and aware is a curse to me. I really wish there's the option to just peacefully fall into an eternal sleep. It'd solve everything and bring peace from the futile and torturous burden that is having the ability to exist, I'm tired of suffering in this cruel, meaningless existence, it terrifies me how this could potentially continue for decades.
Only the eternal absence of existence is desirable to me, I see no value in existing as a conscious being who is capable of suffering so extremely, I don't see any point to suffering so unnecessarily when there are no disadvantages to being permanently unaware.

 

[sserafim]

Being born is a tragedy

 

[iloverachel]

I suffered for around 8 years
And it's more than enough tbh
I'm so ready to leave this hell

 

[Mirrory Me]

Wait is long time. It can sometimes be that you don't know what to expect from life.

 

[Darkover]

leaving school with no GCSEs
getting dumped at 18 after a 2 and half year relationship broke my heart I never recovered not had a relationship for 20 years
going to jail for something I didn't do for 2 months when I was 18 had my 19th birthday in prison
getting diagnosed with schizophrenia at age 18
dislocated my shoulder when I was 18 never did go to the hospital it's dislocated 10 times so far
my teeth started to decay at 19 my parents never took me to the dentist, and I found out in jail that I had 22 cavities in my teeth
taking a paracetamol overdose in my early 20s led to a damaged stomach lining, i have to drink milk all the time to settle my stomach
at age 30 I got tinnitus and a brain injury from prolonged headphone use
8 long years with a debilitating brain injury

 

[divinemistress87]

leaving school with no GCSEs
getting dumped at 18 after a 2 and half year relationship broke my heart I never recovered not had a relationship for 20 years
going to jail for something I didn't do for 2 months when I was 18 had my 19th birthday in prison
getting diagnosed with schizophrenia at age 18
dislocated my shoulder when I was 18 never did go to the hospital it's dislocated 10 times so far
my teeth started to decay at 19 my parents never took me to the dentist, and I found out in jail that I had 22 cavities in my teeth
taking a paracetamol overdose in my early 20s led to a damaged stomach lining, i have to drink milk all the time to settle my stomach
at age 30 I got tinnitus and a brain injury from prolonged headphone use
8 long years with a debilitating brain injury

Brain injuries are hell

 

[sserafim]

Wait is long time. It can sometimes be that you don't know what to expect from life.

Wdym

 

[Mirrory Me]

Wdym

Sometimes things can change a lot, and you kind of realize that this is how it was supposed to be.

 

[deadbody]

Sometimes it seems to me that I have not suffered enough and must earn the right to leave this world.

 

[sserafim]

Sometimes it seems to me that I have not suffered enough and must earn the right to leave this world.

Wdym? Life itself is suffering. You've already suffered by being alive

 

[deadbody]

Wdym? Life itself is suffering. You've already suffered by being alive

Yeah, you're right. I mean that while I have had traumatic events in my life, they are nothing compared to what many here have gone through.

 

[Dark Moon]

Yes, I have been here too long and I should have done it a long time ago. I think I have already died on the inside.

 

[sserafim]

Yes, I have been here too long and I should have done it a long time ago. I think I have already died on the inside.

"Most people die at 25 and aren't buried until 75."

Yeah, you're right. I mean that while I have had traumatic events in my life, they are nothing compared to what many here have gone through.

Just because other people have suffered "more" doesn't mean that your suffering is invalid. Your suffering is valid too

 

[Malaria]

I feel like I suffered even before I was born because of the kind of parents that conceived me. I was an accident and born to a father that never wanted me in the first place. So I feel like my existence in the first place is nothing but a burden and a nuisance to others.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Yes I've suffered for a long time, I'm sorry for your suffering.

 

[Forveleth]

Depression for 25+ years and counting. I'm so done.

 

[iloveduster]

I think, in a way, I've suffered my whole life