Hey I've never had friends in my life lol. But it's all good I guess
If you're an introvert it doesn't affect you at all, but obviously we need to socialize sometimes , It's another SI haha
Yup. Live in a super rural area with zero local friends. I moved back home when the pandemic hit and there's not even like a movie theater for 50 miles or so...
I see, I live in a town the friends that I had they moved abroad almost all of them.
Yes. Even with friends, I don't feel fully connected to any of them. No matter where I go or who I'm with I always feel like there's just some bit of nuance or contrarianism setting me apart from them which makes me feel fundamentally lonely. It's like I'm always at a party where I don't know anyone and the people I do know don't fully know me enough, not even my closest friends and family.
Yep. In fact this year I've been met a lot of people but despite that they don't really know me.
yes and tbh i saw a flyer for AA meetings and even though i don't drink that much anymore I'm thinking of going just to have some social contact before i forget how to speak lol
If you're feeling that you need it, do it.
Sometimes we need some social contact
Sounds good so far. Haven't been to a movie in many years. Being able to be outdoors has been a real bonus these years, and rural is at least away from the riots in the US.
I don't know why I prefer to live in big cities instead of rural areas or towns
It must be due to the fact that I was born in a small town.
That's fair. I found it relaxing for the first....maybe 4 months? After that it was just boring. Doesn't help that the houses that ARE around me are just snoopy family members who are total rednecks so I can't even go for a walk in the woods with Billy Bob calling my mom (which, wtf, I'm like 30 lol). I miss the convenience of city living, being able to walk on sidewalks, stuff like that. I'm not built for rural living
Being here during the big riots last year though, that was definitely a hidden benefit... can't imagine me still being in Portland when that was going on. Scary stuff.
I totally understand you these places makes you feel more isolated and with less freedom
Rural living without privacy would be hard.
Living in a few hundred square foot big city apartment during lockdown would be the worst.
All the big cities seem bad today.
I'd rather live in a big city than in a rural area.
I need to see people and environment.
Although the cities are chaotic.
People can be isolated and tormented by overpopulation at the same time if they live alone in an apartment in a densely populated city.
I met a girl that almost kill herself just in that situation during lockdown
me.
I'm a hugely sociable introvert. yeah, I mean that. cuz socializing for me still means being in my own head. I think about what they say/express instead of being distracted by them. it's just getting to know people.
but that feeling when I get out and know that 9 out of 10 people are fucking racist ableists, 9 out of 10 others are gonna insist on misgendering me, and 9 out of 10 in the rest will despise a junkie… okay, I know how to do elementary school maths. 10% cube is 0.1%. now tell me how I "just go out and meet people". I go out and meet fascism.
it's definitely not "all in my head" (to all you normies out there! shit, they're not on SS.) cuz it reflects my experience irl. and the only places I make friends offline are on the streets, in activism groups, and psych wards. safe spaces.
normies even laugh at "safe spaces". they can go fuck themselves.
if you're a bi/straight woman (or body is afab) you better be careful with this… there's enough peeps there who'd just use that connection for sex… that's not addicts behavior. that's "I'm entitled to women's body at any time" behavior.
but maybe you already know that. maybe you're looking for a hook up. who knows.
Getting a little feedback sometimes it makes me feel better even though I barely talked during the meeting. It's weird.
