Discussion Do you feel bad about being on this site?

[Ardesevent]

It doesn't matter how. Maybe you feel like you ended up here due to your own shortcomings, or you feel bad about giving advice, or maybe just plain bad.
I honestly don't know how to feel about SS as a whole. This community is extremely nice and supportive, and I definitely don't regret joining. But at the same time, something just feels off about being here. I can't tell if this is just a lack of sleep getting to me or some sort of crisis.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

It doesn't matter how. Maybe you feel like you ended up here due to your own shortcomings, or you feel bad about giving advice, or maybe just plain bad.
I honestly don't know how to feel about SS as a whole. This community is extremely nice and supportive, and I definitely don't regret joining. But at the same time, something just feels off about being here. I can't tell if this is just a lack of sleep getting to me or some sort of crisis.

In a way, I think it is unhealthy to spend as much time as I am spending on this site.

 

[Life_and_Death]

In a way, I think it is unhealthy to spend as much time as I am spending on this site.

Same, but anxiety and lack of friends what can I do lol

 

[Soul]

I don't feel bad about spending time here. I know there are superior forms of compassion than the "virtual comfort" we dispense here, but I don't think there's anything wrong with practicing compassion however we can.

 

[Soulless Angel]

Simply put NO,
Long winded, why would I feel bad about being here, when so many spend hours scrolling social media with no care, if it's because of the context of this site, when again, No, like social media, this site has a certain genre of people that feel like they need to be here, for whatever reason, ctb, advice, recovery etc. if if helps someone then let it be, and don't feel bad.
I don't spend as much time here as I once did, but that's due to lockdown, and making it harder,
I know I talk a lot of shit when here, but again, no one's complaining as we are all here for a reason, so no no one should feel bad being here.

 

[Mr2005]

I think if people are here they feel bad enough already and if they don't then what are they doing here?

 

[Railiah P]

It doesn't matter how. Maybe you feel like you ended up here due to your own shortcomings, or you feel bad about giving advice, or maybe just plain bad.
I honestly don't know how to feel about SS as a whole. This community is extremely nice and supportive, and I definitely don't regret joining. But at the same time, something just feels off about being here. I can't tell if this is just a lack of sleep getting to me or some sort of crisis.

I don't feel bad for being on this site. It's the only thing that feels right in my life these days.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I think if people are here they feel bad enough already and if they don't then what are they doing here?

again feel bad as in feeling down bad, or bad as in guilty for being here, I took it as the latter in the question not the former.

 

[maybepossiblyithink]

It doesn't matter how. Maybe you feel like you ended up here due to your own shortcomings, or you feel bad about giving advice, or maybe just plain bad.
I honestly don't know how to feel about SS as a whole. This community is extremely nice and supportive, and I definitely don't regret joining. But at the same time, something just feels off about being here. I can't tell if this is just a lack of sleep getting to me or some sort of crisis.

I feel bad because I'm still grasping to anything I can use as hope + can't ctb because of me being a coward. I feel like I don't deserve a spot on this site. But It's the only place I feel safe lately.
No one texts me. No one likes my posts. No one acknowledges me irl. My parents mock me and when I open my mouth it's their cue to pick up their own conversation. I know no one actually cares about me on this site but it feels so god damn nice to actually be responded to. Genuinely responded to. Genuinely listened to. People read my words. People are at least somewhat aware I exist. No one calls me creepy because I don't talk. People don't tell me to speak up here. There's no speaking no noise. Just reading and people seeing my thoughts.
It feels so good.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I feel bad because I'm still grasping to anything I can use as hope + can't ctb because of me being a coward. I feel like I don't deserve a spot on this site. But It's the only place I feel safe lately.
No one texts me. No one likes my posts. No one acknowledges me irl. My parents mock me and when I open my mouth it's their cue to pick up their own conversation. I know no one actually cares about me on this site but it feels so god damn nice to actually be responded to. Genuinely responded to. Genuinely listened to. People read my words. People are at least somewhat aware I exist. No one calls me creepy because I don't talk. People don't tell me to speak up here. There's no speaking no noise. Just reading and people seeing my thoughts.
It feels so good.

No one cares, is a too lose a statement, everyone here is guarded, everyone is protective of their own self, many do get to know others via PMs, even some social media, and people then grow to know and care, but it takes time, so many are here for such a short time too which means they don't have time to care for anyone but themselves.
But every damn one of us (bar the trolls) will do their best to support, guide and help others in the best way they can, given we are all here for what equals a negative reason.

 

[grungeCat]

I like this place very much too. However due to all that pro-life attacks, petitions and accusations I feel like a criminal when I visit this forum lol.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I like this place very much too. However due to all that pro-life attacks, petitions and accusations I feel like a criminal when I visit this forum lol.

Damn it, feel like a rebel instead

 

[maybepossiblyithink]

No one cares, is a too loose a statement, everyone here is guarded, everyone is protective of their own self, many do get to know others via PMs, even some social media, and people then grow to know and care, but it takes time, so many are here for such a short time too which means they don't have time to care for anyone but themselves.
But every damn one of us (bar the trolls) will do their best to support, guide and help others in the best way they can, given we are all here for what equals a negative reason.

The fact that ''no one cares'' on this site is very comforting to me, though. I don't know how to explain it. They won't guilt trip me for feeling the way I do because they understand in some way. I just feel listened to.

I like this place very much too. However due to all that pro-life attacks, petitions and accusations I feel like a criminal when I visit this forum lol.

yeah. I feel like cops are watching everything somehow

 

[Meditation guide]

It doesn't matter how. Maybe you feel like you ended up here due to your own shortcomings, or you feel bad about giving advice, or maybe just plain bad.
I honestly don't know how to feel about SS as a whole. This community is extremely nice and supportive, and I definitely don't regret joining. But at the same time, something just feels off about being here. I can't tell if this is just a lack of sleep getting to me or some sort of crisis.

No I feel very relieved to have this site. No more keeping my feelings about ctb bottled up.

I know no one actually cares about me on this site but it feels so god damn nice to actually be responded to. Genuinely responded to. Genuinely listened to. People read my words. People are at least somewhat aware I exist. No one calls me creepy because I don't talk. People don't tell me to speak up here. There's no speaking no noise. Just reading and people seeing my thoughts.

You express yourself very well. I don't know why anyone wouldn't respond to you. It sounds like you have a very sterile or hostile living situation. I can relate to that.

 

[All washed up]

I can't imagine anyone would actually feel good about being on here at first.

But it feels less bad after a while it just becomes a habit, let's check email, Twitter, sports news, SS.

I do know I spend way too much time on here though

 

[Meditation guide]

If you feel bad about don't be here. I don't understand why someone would hang around on a site that makes them feel bad.

 

[sadworld]

I spend way too much time on here but I have met some interesting people and I don't regret joining.

 

[antigone_iris]

Not at all. I like this community.

 

[summers]

What makes me feel bad is when I read someone is considering ctb because of some external factor, like a failed relationship, rejection, job, etc..., and I think that they can so easily overcome that temporary situation. I wish I were more empathetic, and that's something I'm going to work on with the time I have left.

As far as being on here for my own reasons, I feel this is one of the best, most supportive communities on the internet. I feel so lucky I was able to find SS.

 

[PointlessStruggle]

Not in particular

 

[SmellyRat]

Nah, i love this community

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

well i am suicidal and have been for a long time. i don't feel guilty about it or anything. it helps me cope until i can finally ctb

 

[demuic]

What's there to feel bad about?

 

[ecmnesia]

no. in fact, it's quite the opposite. i feel supported, heard and like I belong. even though we do not stablish real life connections i get the sensation that we somehow understand and care to some extent for each other.

it's not only a place where I get to vent when down, but also somewhere I can be when i am relatively ok. somewhere I can distract myself, interact with people who are usually open to discuss socially unacceptable subjects.

SS to me is a refuge where I can be myself, no matter who that is.

 

[Symbiote]

SS is like the therapist that actually takes your suicidal thoughts and cares about them and tries to help you understand them unlike real-world therapy where they throw into the looney bin for expressing such thoughts. I can also see how this website can keep people from CTBing, maybe the community is so nice and chill that it's like having a family online and as long as that family is there, no reason to CTB. The only sad thing is that the family is always changing, members come and go, and the only family where there is a consistent amount of deaths.

 

[ADruinedmylife]

Yeah I do not want to be here it is my mom's dumbass idea to put me on Prozac at 12 before I even knew what sex was that got me here causing PSSD and anhedonia!

 

[Ali]

Al principio (2018) sí, sentí algo de culpa porque no había leído tanta información sobre el metofos ya pesar de estar deprimido era algo fuerte para mí, independiente de ser suicida desde pequeña.
Now I spend more time reading the forum during the afternoons than checking another social network, I no longer communicate with anyone, nobody writes to me, I guess they got bored of me. Reviewing their situations is like reading the newspaper every day, with the difference that here they understand how I feel, I have not established any relationship with someone from here but if I did, I would know that the contract says not to love someone who will leave sooner or later From me, it would be interesting to be able to share experiences.

 

[Abir_london]

No,I'm glad I'm not the only one
I've always been pro-choice
I'm just sad about my life that's all

 

[_Kaira_]

No. Everyone around me is pro-life. I can't talk to them, without getting a lecture on why I should be happy.
Or they say "we can't help, go to your therapist." Well...I can only say so much to her.
I love to be able to talk about relatively anything, talk openly about my thoughts on life and suicide,
without someone always trying to discredit my feelings or 'suggest' a trip to the psych ward.

It's almost as If society and around all of us would change,
we might actually not feel like this site, and suicide is all we have.

 

[CoalmineCanary]

Yes I feel bad using this site because of all the data that's collected.

My search engine history may lead authorities here and I do not wish to bring unnecessary scrutiny if questions remain after death.

I do not wish to implicate this website in any way shape or form for my own decisions and actions.

So I fear the trail of bread crumbs I leave behind...

Sorry, I post a lot of cringe here so there's that too...