do you ever wonder what would happen after you killed yourself

[Claymore7274]

I fantasize about it every day, but in the end it's not like i'll get to know, but i bet mom and dad would be sad. the rest of my family have gone through other family members suicides so ig it wont be that bad for them

 

[Clovurr]

My mom has trauma from her brothers suicide she would hate me forever and probably end up taking her own life too but I can't help but flirt with the idea of dying anyway, I was thinking of ending it when I get a little older and more insufferable to be around

 

[sadman1897]

It'll be an emotionally charged shitshow. I love my family and they love me, but I can't keep suffering like this for much longer. It's so bad…and it'll be horrible for them. I feel like such a terrible person and I'll be remembered as one by some. Rightfully so, in some ways, but they can never understand how torturous my existence is everyday. I have brain damage from medication and I'm stuck on said medication. Been riding this merry go round for a year now and it's only getting worse. I'll be remembered as a selfish mother for hurting my child like this but it hurts so much to stay alive. I truly feel awful!! . I never should have had a kid. if I knew this was going to happen to me ,I never would have. i used to be such a great mom; these poisons have robbed me of everything. I just want to rest in peace, I'm never at peace now, just pumped full of anxiety.

I'm in the same boat . For some reason SSRIs have destroyed my mind. My brain has become mush and it has destroyed me .

 

[UntitledUser]

I know my sister, my dad and my best friends will be ruined. But I expect they eventually forget me. I'm afraid of what they can find about me when I'm gone…but certainly I'll be dead and won't be to see what happens after ctb. But I don't know how other people will react. My coworkers? Old foes from high school? I wish we could decide freely about our destiny and no one else get hurt for my actions.