I sometimes get terrified that people I love who are suicidal are on here. Call it selfish, but I don't want to lose them.
Many of them have amazing opportunities and talents in life that I want to see them take advantage of, to succeed. I tend to feel that deep down that I'll never get there myself, so seeing them get there is important to me.
They're all wonderful people who don't deserve any of the shit they've gotten, and I honestly never processed the first suicide I experienced in my life anyway, so I'm scared.