Discussion Do you cry or emotionally breakdown much?

[Lost Magic]

When thinking about the past and my inevitable ctb, I felt really sad. Then I watched some videos about the struggles of the people in the Ukraine and how strong they are at standing up for their country. After that I started to emotionally breakdown and sob. I am a fairly emotional person anyway, but these last few years and months have been trying. I was just curious as to how the pain of life and all the horrors around you affects you guys on an emotional level?

 

[Starryeyes]

I used to get severe mood swings and I lost all my friends and family . I took an overdose and then the doctors took me seriously and put me on mood stabilisers. Iv been depressed since. I don't get the highs that came with the swings. But I started therapy a few months ago and my mood swings are back. I feel so emotional all the time rapid cycling between super happy and suicidal. I can't be arsed with dealing with myself anymore I'm done fighting it.

 

[StarryStarry]

I am embarrassed to say that I cry a lot. I cry at stupid stuff too. Like, the Miss America contest, any shows where one person is kind to another, it's really ridiculous. One of the things I hate about myself .

 

[LastFlowers]

It's basically every single day, has been for years, my eyes are pretty much fucked from the constant inflammation and crying during breakdowns.
It's to the point where it has become physically damaging, and that's the last thing I need added to my unsavory flavor of issues, but I just can't help it, I sob violently especially when I'm angry.
It's actually extremely irritating as it is involuntary and it causes me endless problems when I try to advocate for myself to say, medical professionals, and end up becoming upset, I really wish I could switch the tears off, some crying is fine, but this is just ridiculous.
I don't know anyone else who literally cries every single day for the better part of a decade, I think there was one year where I went numb and hardly cried at all but once it came back, it was worse than ever.
I scream at the top of my lungs quite often too, which is just fantastic for my already ravaged throat.

 

[Famous Last Words]

Only when I'm due on my period. For about two days a month, I'm crying at the slightest provocation and feel extremely suicidal. I'm hoping to use this cyclic drop in mood to help me depart though.

 

[LastFlowers]

I am embarrassed to say that I cry a lot. I cry at stupid stuff too. Like, the Miss America contest, any shows where one person is kind to another, it's really ridiculous. One of the things I hate about myself .

Miss America?
..I'd be crying too..over the travesty which that god awful discriminatory, superficiality-pandering, purveyor of stereotypical womanhood competition is.
I thought it was fucking hilarious when Mr. Moral Barometer himself fudged up the 'Universe' results that one year.
I hope that entire shitshow dies in a ditch.

Nothing wrong with crying over human kindness though, so long as it's genuine without ulterior motives..even basic human decency is rare these days, unless you're one of the privileged few to receive it in spades.

 

[StarryStarry]

Miss America?
..I'd be crying too..over the travesty which that god awful discriminatory, superficiality-pandering, purveyor of stereotypical womanhood competition is.
I thought it was fucking hilarious when Mr. Moral Barometer himself fudged up the 'Universe' results that one year.
I hope that entire shitshow dies in a ditch.

Nothing wrong with crying over human kindness though, so long as it's genuine without ulterior motives..even basic human decency is rare these days, unless you're one of the privileged few to receive it in spades.

Oh trust me my tears are real. There are times I become hysterical. I wouldn't know what an ulterior motive is - I'm such an honest schmuck!

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I feel mostly nothing

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I don't cry as much these days over the little emotional frustrations I face everyday but make no mistake if I stub my toe hard enough I'd probably still cry like a baby. Emotional breakdowns also don't occur as often as they used to but that's only because I'm forcing my life into stagnation precisely to prevent the chances of those occurring. I can't get upset over something happening to me at work if I don't have a job. I can't throw tantrums over how people treat me if I intentionally make myself deserving of ill treatment. I can't get my heart broken again if I don't love anyone. I can't feel guilty for breaking someone's heart if no one would, could, or should love me.

That said if someone disses a video game franchise, movie, or tv show I like it can still be enough to completely ruin my week. I wish I could grow out of caring about those things too but they're all I have right now…

 

[slushy]

I used to often, but noticed I haven't as much lately. I think it's because I've finally accepted that suicide is my best option. I'm not fighting anymore. I'm ready to go. If I do cry, it's usually because I'm thinking about my family. The pain it will cause them is one of my biggest remaining obstacles. I can't believe what I'm going to do to them. I'm so selfish

 

[lifeiscrap]

There should be another option, like if you are currently taking antidepressants because they are extremely numbing of everything. I am an emotional person in general and when I had to take them I felt numb and frustrated because it felt like as if my entire body was bottled up and I knew crying would help me. One of the goods things about crying in my opinion, (especially when extreme anxiety is present) when you cry hard and then you're so tired after that you have a good quality nap.

 

[Fairyy]

I used to think that I didn't feel anything at all. Even the news of my grandmother's death or my brother's imprisonment did not affect me in any way. And for the last couple of months, when I think about myself for a moment, I can't hold back my tears. This greatly interferes with my work. It interferes a lot with life. I work - I cry, I stand at the bus stop - I cry, I go to bed and again in tears. It's unbearable.

 

[chorriwuarri]

Yesterday I spent the day crying with panic attacks.

yesterday I received some bad news that I was waiting for, that was decisive for me, I had hopes that it would work out well but I was only fooling myself.

before I was crying when I imagined myself doing CTB, but that didn't last long, I realized that what really hurts me is the damage I am going to do to the ones I love the most.

my mother suffers from idiopathic myocarditis and I am devastated if she gets worse or even dies because of me.
and my cat, she came in the worst moment of my life and she taught me that I could feel good things in a moment of my life when I only felt pain, I don't want her to be left without anyone good to take care of her if something happens to my mother.

I don't want to hurt them

 

[FuneralCry]

I used to cry a lot, but now I cannot. I think I cried so much in the past, that now I am unable to. I do get very sad though, my life is very miserable and depressing. I am easily upset by things. I just want to escape this world, I am tired of having to deal with this life.

 

[Pharmaruined]

I would give anything to cry.. I'm so sad right now over my health , gonna lose another tooth.. thats 6.. face is already changing


I'm just a zombie.. no laughter, no crying , no physical desires .. already dead.. 11 years after my pharma crash and I've done everything, tried everything, spent everything to heal.. pretty safe to say it's over

 

[Ligottian]

I easily have panic attacks. A misplaced wallet would be my favorite example. I think I've lost the ability to cry after years of trying to harden my mental armor. I loved both my parents, but I did not shed a tear when either died. The fact that they were both very old and had been in a dying phase for a while probably "helped".

 

[whywere]

I cry almost each and every day. Sometimes it is the chronic pain that pushes me over the edge, some of the heart-breaking posts here and news in the world.

Walter

 

[Foresight]

My empathy is painfully high. Crying for others/animals is an almost daily event.

For myself? For some reason I can't cry for myself even though I have plenty of reasons to. It's not that I don't feel bad for myself but I think my situation has left me in shock and I have more anxiety than tears. When my anxiety gets high enough I feel like I'm in shock and tears can't come.

 

[Interloper]

Used to be every other day, but recently it's been almost every day. From crying to feeling dead and numb and back to crying, repeat until the day is over.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

It's basically every single day, has been for years, my eyes are pretty much fucked from the constant inflammation and crying during breakdowns.
It's to the point where it has become physically damaging, and that's the last thing I need added to my unsavory flavor of issues, but I just can't help it, I sob violently especially when I'm angry.
It's actually extremely irritating as it is involuntary and it causes me endless problems when I try to advocate for myself to say, medical professionals, and end up becoming upset, I really wish I could switch the tears off, some crying is fine, but this is just ridiculous.
I don't know anyone else who literally cries every single day for the better part of a decade, I think there was one year where I went numb and hardly cried at all but once it came back, it was worse than ever.
I scream at the top of my lungs quite often too, which is just fantastic for my already ravaged throat.

I could have written this post myself. I'm exactly like this, right down to what all the crying has done to my eyes (chronic inflammation). And I really relate to how it affects trying to advocate for myself to doctors or any medical professionals (I, too, have a long, long list of mostly officially undiagnosed symptoms and issues which have now dragged on for many years, and a surprising number of doctors use that long-term aspect to essentially say "[ fill in the blank symptom/issue/etc ] can't be too serious if you're still alive after all this time" and write 'it' off as either me being a hypochondriac, or 'it' being psychosomatic. And their blase attitude makes me feel even more hopeless and frustrated, thus...MORE CRYING.)

I'm very sorry you live this misery daily. I understand and know how awful it is, especially when it's something you simply can't control and will occur involuntarily.

I scream a lot, too. It's hard not to, when you feel so powerless and unheard and desperate for the pain, mental and emotional and physical, to JUST STOP...but it never does.

My heart goes out to you.

 

[Graytaichi]

Im too ascustomed ,i dont cry or breakdown.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I cry almost each and every day. Sometimes it is the chronic pain that pushes me over the edge, some of the heart-breaking posts here and news in the world.

Walter

I just wanted to finally say to you, after reading so many of your posts here on SS for quite some time now, that you seem like one of the kindest, warmest and most compassionate members I've come to 'know' (via your posts and comments). I'm sad you find yourself on SS, as I feel for any and all of us here...but at the same time, I'm thankful for your presence here. Sending you strength and support.

 

[Messgram]

I never cry, also can't stand being around people who cry for anything...

 

[Parnate]

Oh trust me my tears are real. There are times I become hysterical. I wouldn't know what an ulterior motive is - I'm such an honest schmuck!

I too can't really differentiate between true emotions and a pretense

 

[cocainenosejobs]

All the time