Do you crave companionship?

[ForsakenDial]

Whether it is friends or lovers, do you still crave companionship?
Personally, deep down I do. But eventually, at some point someone must understand that these ambitions are unobtainable for some us. Not everyone can achieve their dreams. My only dream was to be accepted. But that all it ever was; A dream.

 

[FuneralCry]

Absolutely not. I've always wished to avoid people as much as possible.

 

[ForsakenDial]

Absolutely not. I've always wished to avoid people as much as possible.

It is the best course of action. Interaction only leads to suffering. It is a curse for some of us to crave the thing that has always wishes to destroy us.

 

[Monkeyman]

I'm more of a social person, in a way. So I do gravitate towards companionship. Not so much lately, though. Talking to people I don't already know well has been more and more exhausting for quite some time and that puts a wrench on meeting new friends or trying to have a relationship. Not that it's going to matter a lot since I'm pretty much on my way out.

 

[Message In A Bottle]

I crave it yet once I have it - I want to hide away from everyone. Very conflicting… I imagine there's a underlying psychological meaning to it.

 

[Rocinante]

Yes, but I will probably never have it.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

definitely
being alone is such an awful feeling for me, it leads to so much pain
but im afraid to have it because once i do i usually destroy it
i usually wind up alone whether i want to or not

in a way, thats a good thing
it means i end up hurting less people
and honestly at this point ive given up trying... only friends i have are the ones ive had since i was a teenager, and even with them, sometimes it falls apart
sometimes i run away because it feels like none of them really care if im around or not
it still feels that way even if we are talking again

thats why i gave up, i cant maintain any of that, i lose more friends than i keep- and i know thats kinda expected but not when its in less than a year a majority of the time
i have too much i have to learn and not much motivation to do it when it comes to my diagnosis (bpd) so

companionship just isnt a possibility for me as much as i do crave it

 

[sunsetting]

I avoid company and enjoy being by myself a lot more. It's not that I hate people but I feel drained whenever I get company and the longer I stay like that the more stressed I get.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

years ago, however I no longer have a desire for relationships.

 

[Rainy_days]

Yes, friendship is one the things I miss most. As far as romantic relationships, I do still crave an idealized version of them, but at this point I am too hopelessly inexperienced and mentally ill. The complex I live in has been a revolving door of abusive couples yelling and screaming at each other... I definitely would choose solitude over that.

 

[Velvet Fortress]

I don't know why, but I have since I've been a kid. Probably due to an abusive upbringing. Always felt alienated and like I was craving nurturing relationships with either friends, a partner or family.

But after all these years, I've kind of given up on that. Too dissociated from others. Too anxious around people. Sometimes the pain and longing just come rushing in like a tsunami though. The cravings are real and send me spiralling.

 

[Exact Change]

Distance and politics have pushed away my friends. I am married but still very much alone. Sometimes I feel so empty.

 

[Dead Ghost]

Not until I was 43 years old, not at all. From then on I have the desire but I'm not ready, I don't understand close relationships with other people.
Sharing life with another person is the only way I have to perceive a kind of belonging to the world... I think it's the only real way to constantly feel something like the ideal of happiness I've always had in mind.

But the underlying problem isn't the others, it's me not knowing how to fit in.

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Fins els 43 anys no, en absolut. A partir de llavors tinc el desig pero no estic preparat, no entenc les rel·lacions estretes amb d'altres persones.
Compartir la vida amb una altre persona és l'única manera que tinc de percebre una mena de pertanença al món.. crec que és la única manera real de sentir de manera constant una cosa semblant a l'ideal de felicitat que sempre he tingut al cap.

Però el problema de fons no son pas els altres, sóc jo que no se pas com encaixar.

 

[lionetta12]

Whether it is friends or lovers, do you still crave companionship?
Personally, deep down I do. But eventually, at some point someone must understand that these ambitions are unobtainable for some us. Not everyone can achieve their dreams. My only dream was to be accepted. But that all it ever was; A dream.

Not really, I only crave the company of 1 person and they won't talk to me but that's it. The company of anyone else don't make up for it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I have massive social anxiety and I'm a natural loner I would say- so- no. Still, I suppose I have daydreams about where I might be if I didn't have all that. Would I be happier, more successful, more normal? Plus, I'm very prone to limerance and the whole fairytale idea of love thing.

I think it's helped me to realise who I am though- in a way. What I'm willing to change. I'm not willing to 'get over' this social anxiety- so, I suppose- what loneliness I do experience (not all that much to be fair) seems more preferable.

 

[Dark Moon]

Nope, not anymore, I would have wanted it in the past but I just don't trust women and people in general plus I like being on my own and I'm usually not social with people. I don't know what to say most of the time.

 

[Dead Horse]

Deep down, I crave it. Not feeling capable or worthy of ever having a romantic relationship is one major reason why I feel so hopeless. On the other hand, I prefer spending as much of my time as possible alone, so I don't believe I could realistically handle a relationship. All in all, I'm fucked either way.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Yeah I do. My gf has gone frigid/no contact, other women don't like me like that, and I don't have platonic irl friendships. I feel like I am completely invisible. I know that's kind of a consequence of a boring life, being chronically ill, and getting older in general, but none of that makes it any easier to deal with.

 

[whatevs]

I crave it and I will have it before going.

 

[MothyCuddler]

My various anxiety and personality disorders make it extremely hard to not feel like I'm hated, even if I do have contact and companionship

 

[FrozenMango]

yes! but not the typical companion. I would like to have a lover + 8 dogs + a mansion with a lake and a garden! and we all stay together and ignore the rat race

 

[Wannagonow]

After my truly better half passed away I have had no desire to find that again. I would love to have a friend for simple companionship. But since I can't seem to leave the house (except for the pharmacy and doctors appts), it's not likely I'll be developing any new friendships soon. I hate being alone and I hate being lonely.

 

[aloneinwinter]

I had a few long-term relationships that were kinda decent. I think the answer now is no. I have always been an introvert, though. A good book can be better than a person in that reading it often does less harm than a person can do to you, so nowadays I prefer to read than have company.

 

[clueless2dayor2morro]

i do wish that i had my idealized version of friends and lovers--smart and empathetic friends who knew how to take my feelings and think through my shittiness for me, because i can't seem to come up with solutions myself.

i feel like i can't make or keep friends because i'm such a downer and my lifestyle is so weird or possibly disgusting to most people (and without describing my lifestyle in too much detail: its not really that weird or disgusting; it most certainly doesn't harm anyone--its just not widely accepted and is often portrayed in media as weird or shameful when it really shouldn't be. a lot of people online (who share the same lifestyle and mindset as me) argue that it shouldn't be demonized) that no one can see me as a person worth existing and keeping in their lives. if i was my true self, and let my troubles show to most people that it would drain them. no one seems to want to be honest or helpful to me, so i often just stew in my own problems.

i get that the world is shit and that maybe i'm too fragile or sensitive. i don't need anyone to tell me my feelings are valid. i want to get out of this mindset and feeling and thinking this way, this mindset of negativity that is so draining to be around. i have hope that there's a therapist that can help me but there's so many therapists that have a mindset and a set of values that don't make sense to me, and really they shouldn't make sense because their mindsets and values come from unquestioned religious backgrounds, which i have questioned and found to be wrong, harmful, hurtful, and helps no one.

i feel like i am a good and loving person, but too many people take advantage of that because they have their own neurosis and psychopathy that i don't know how to protect myself against. it becomes immensely hard when you don't know who to trust with your feelings, surely misguided mindsets, and traumas.

it really sucks when there's so much "pop therapy" on social media, under the guise of trying to be helpful. but without context, with this wanting to treat things with such general, slap-a-bandaid on it and call it a day mindset without considering special or specific circumstances.

i know everyone is only human. but it sucks when i have to be forgiving and understanding when no one has once been forgiving or understanding of me. i've stayed in awful friendships and relationships with trying to be understanding and even forgiving but it's only ever hurt me.

even now, those who i have stepped away from, i wonder if maybe i was too sensitive or too paranoid.

 

[Fulminare]

Yes, but no. I feel like my ideal relationship would be unhealthy to me and my significant other. I also know most people do not want to be with someone who struggles with self harm. Knowing this hurts, but oh well.

 

[hellispink]

I have been betrayed so many times that. i would never want companionship anymotr. Friends family lovers, everything is fake and is only to get benefit from you, so. I dont wanna waste my time and i also dont feel like i need it at all

 

[hungry_ghost]

A little bit, yes.

I want someone to do real shit with, have adventures with, start projects with.

It doesn't even have to be romantic, although cuddling, touching and whatnot would be nice.

 

[whatevs]

I crave it and I will have it before going.

Lmao, @Prog u be laughing at my lack of intimacy, bro? Like, totally not cool

 

[Rocinante]

Lmao, @Prog u be laughing at my lack of intimacy, bro? Like, totally not cool

no. I put the react as in I'm happy for you if it does happen. But I'll remove it jfl
Why would I be laughing when 1. I don't know you, so I wouldn't spite or mock you for not having a relationship 2. It would be hypocritical to do the aforementioned things since I'm in the same situation.
My circumstances, however, are different than yours. You mentioned you're good looking. I need surgery if I ever hope to live with some semblance of normalcy.

this is unfair. I can't even come on here without people taking things out of context. Even if I address the issue everyone here will think I'm antagonizing users.

 

[whatevs]

no. I put the react as in I'm happy for you if it does happen. But I'll remove it jfl
Why would I be laughing when 1. I don't know you, so I wouldn't spite or mock you for not having a relationship 2. It would be hypocritical to do the aforementioned things since I'm in the same situation.
My circumstances, however, are different than yours. You mentioned you're good looking. I need surgery if I ever hope to live with some semblance of normalcy.

this is unfair. I can't even come on here without people taking things out of context. Even if I address the issue everyone here will think I'm antagonizing users.

I don't think that you're antagonizing, since you explained yourself. It's all good.