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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
I stopped counting a long time ago.
I only talk about ctb, my depression, bipolar disorder and so on here and fortunately, it makes me feel really better.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,392
No but that's because my suicidal thoughts are unavoidable, at least under my current circumstances.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,469
I keep my suicidal thoughts to myself, in real life, nobody can do anything to help me. Nothing could prevent or take away my suicidal thoughts, there is no escape from them, it is simply the way I am.
 
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AnnonyBox

AnnonyBox

Specialist
Apr 11, 2018
335
At this point I've just accepted that suicide is part of me. I don't keep a count of when people could help but didn't, it would be pointless, people are cruel anyway.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
What's the point of that? :eh: Only this "game" is more pointless & masochistic -

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/counting-game.10053/
 
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bornfree

Student
May 10, 2020
158
Thanks for your responses.

For me things like housing, benefits, human cruelty, not caring about my needs, poor quality of life, being forced to live so they can keep on making me want to die - I count so much avoidable suicidality. As @AnnonyBox says i think even if i lived centuries in the future i would end up feeling suicidal But everything after i become suicidal is so cruel because they don't have empathy for suicidal individuals. They put so much effort in but it is done without empathy so they don't try to prevent more suicidal, suffering, feelings and thoughts. @Dr Iron Arc what i am thinking is they don't care about the conditions of life of suicidal individuals to make suicidality avoidable. They just expect too much from suicidal individuals to face any harms and any quality of life but we cannot expect much in the way of what we need and what is important for our safety and needs.
What's the point of that? :eh: Only this "game" is more pointless & masochistic -

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/counting-game.10053/
the point of the question? I wasn't sure when i posted it but now i think it is to get some personal experiences to make a point but none of these replies are going to elicit humane feelings from those who don't have empathy for suicidal individuals.

The hardest thing to make those against the legalisation of assisted suicide is to give them the empathy to recognise that death is not the worst thing.
"it doesn't matter to us how awful your life is and how awful you feel you just have to keep on living" - this is how they care
 
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Wrennie

Wrennie

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Dec 18, 2019
1,546
I've lost count personally, but I know the number would be in the tens of thousands by now (just for this year & last year alone). If I'd kept count for my entire life, I would've reached an entirely new number that mathematics hadn't even discovered yet.
 
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ClairyFairy

ClairyFairy

Wizard
Jan 22, 2021
622
People always help me. I think I'm the type of person that doesn't feel I deserve help at all though so I don't really notice.
 
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