Do you care where you die?

[lionetta12]

I've been thinking a lot about it, and it matters to me where I die.

I currently live far away from my home (for school). I can't die here, in this foreign place. I need to be where I grew up.

I want to die outside. I imagine near a small creek or a hillside. In the fall with a quiet breeze and with the orange and yellow fall leaves. Birds chirping.

Somewhere quiet. Where I can reflect on my life and remember the parts I enjoyed. And experience nature one last time. I love nature and I love fall.

Why does it matter? It's just dying? It shouldn't matter at all. Maybe being suicidal is a manifestation of wanting to be home. But I had issues even when I was home.

Where do you want to die? What's your ideal scenery?

I don't know to be honest. I have the means to CTB anywhere if I want to, but with how I just don't feel anything anymore, I fail to see the purpose of going through all the energy and the extent to treat myself to a nice location, if I just wont feel anything.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I would prefer to die in nature but I don't want someone to find me prematurely, so probably some meaningless random hotel room will have to be it. :(

 

[Fl4u]

Alone in a rainy wood. But in the end it probably all doesn't matter

 

[Source Energy]

Yes. In my bed. I will make it be so :)

 

[The Eeyorish One]

I only care about where I die because I don't want to traumatize specific people. So hotel bathroom with a note on the door is the eventual plan.

 

[downndone2]

Don't want to die inside my home

 

[princess-oph]

Family home but I can't ruin the one place everyone found their comfort. Probably will end up doing it in a gas station bathroom ha.

 

[Thisisme373]

Hmm I hadn't really thought about it tbh, I think what I care about mostly is it being successful and not being heard or interrupted. I do like the sound of visiting Japan though and being in the forest there. I like creepy stuff. I like quiet nature. I'd just want to be sure to succeed and nobody find me at least until I've successfully passed.

 

[buyersremorse]

it doesn't really matter to me where i die, so long as the person who finds me isn't some child or unsuspecting person who will be traumatised for life. maybe somewhere no one will find me at all.

 

[Capsaicin78]

Preferably outside in nature. I would experience my death as pure freedom then

 

[missingpeace]

I would love to ctb at home but there are risks to my family. At the end of the day I want to achieve my goal, of course I don't want to be in a shithole but a hotel room/on the side of a deserted road/in a forest, I'm ok with that.

 

[novem]

I will probably choose some woodland edge close to my home town in summer. Here where i am now everything is someone's property and everybody is a foe with a fake smile.
I know i will be very drunk and full of tears, and i need some place to scream so nobody could hear me before i drink that poison.

 

[AJwantsToGo]

All I know is I would prefer not to die at Disneyland, a kindergarten, during a wedding, while I'm having sex, on the toilet (Elvis presley style) and naked.

 

[2bemyenemy]

I want to die somewhere my family can't find me. I found my brother after he shot himself and it fucked me up. Plz spare your loved ones having to clean up your body if you can.

 

[Fwompje]

It's interesting to read how many people also consider nature. I've had two options in my mind: my room in my bed because it brings me comfort but it would also become the room of "where the dead person was found", though I guess I wouldn't care too much because I'd be dead.
Or in the forest, nicely tucked away so I can decompose until somebody hopefully finds only my skeleton. It would take a long time and where I live people walk everywhere so I'm not sure if it would work. It's also an open place, it's less comfortable, less privacy.

All I know is I would prefer not to die at Disneyland, a kindergarten, during a wedding, while I'm having sex, on the toilet (Elvis presley style) and naked.

lol very specific hahaha!

 

[Sparx]

I don't want to do it in the family home so I'm thinking about going to the middle of an isolated forest about 20 miles away.

Partly so I won't be found & 'saved' and partly because I'm worried I'll try to get help when the SN symptoms kick in. Won't bring my phone with me & the car will be about 2 miles away.

If the SN doesn't work I'll be in bother though, unable to get help and probably wouldn't be found for days. Dammit why does this have to be so difficult.

 

[eternalbliss22]

I'm thinking about wrapping my torso in wire, attaching weights, getting drunk or drugged & plunging into a major river. No one will know where or exactly what happened to my body. I'll be fish food, so my flesh isn't wasted. My death will give life
I'm thinking about wrapping my torso in wire, attaching weights, getting drunk or drugged & plunging into a major river. No one will know where or exactly what happened to my body. I'll be fish food, so my flesh isn't wasted. My death will give life