Do you care where you die?

[CowsAreCool]

I've been thinking a lot about it, and it matters to me where I die.

I currently live far away from my home (for school). I can't die here, in this foreign place. I need to be where I grew up.

I want to die outside. I imagine near a small creek or a hillside. In the fall with a quiet breeze and with the orange and yellow fall leaves. Birds chirping.

Somewhere quiet. Where I can reflect on my life and remember the parts I enjoyed. And experience nature one last time. I love nature and I love fall.

Why does it matter? It's just dying? It shouldn't matter at all. Maybe being suicidal is a manifestation of wanting to be home. But I had issues even when I was home.

Where do you want to die? What's your ideal scenery?

 

[Hollowillow]

Of course it matters. At the end of the soylent green movie, they show movies to a dying man of the extinct nature... It's so beautiful they die happy.

I want to die in japan's suicide forest... Probably a too silent creepy place. But I want to see japan... And if I haunt a place I want it there... Maybe reincarnate there... If I must... Hopefully not human.

But here dying outside would get me rescued...

 

[Darkover]

I have no preference doesn't matter to me perhaps my own flat or a hotel

 

[Shikamaru]

I would like to die in my family home as that's where I would feel most at peace and be comfortable, however I dread having to let my mum or my brother find my body :( so I hope to get a hotel however not sure if that will be an option as I don't want to raise suspicions and because of my mental state and previous suicide attempts I may not be able to. So I just pray that if I leave a note on the front door of my home when for them to read when they get home from work saying to call the police , that they will actually call the police and not come inside to find me themselves:/ <3

 

[CowsAreCool]

Of course it matters. At the end of the soylent green movie, they show movies to a dying man of the extinct nature... It's so beautiful they die happy.

I want to die in japan's suicide forest... Probably a too silent creepy place. But I want to see japan... And if I haunt a place I want it there... Maybe reincarnate there... If I must... Hopefully not human.

But here dying outside would get me rescued...

I would be worried about Logan Paul finding me in that forest. Lol

Japan is beautiful. I get that. But alone in a forest does seem pretty creepy.

 

[toasterbath]

ya i don't wanna die in the home i am in right now because i associate it with trauma so i rather go for a hotel or somewhere in nature

 

[Hollowillow]

I would be worried about Logan Paul finding me in that forest. Lol

Japan is beautiful. I get that. But alone in a forest does seem pretty creepy.

Who? I love forests but that one feels haunted because no birds sing... I might panic. Or maybe not, high pitch screams hurt. Maybe it's lovingly quiet. I wish to see! I'm too frail to go even with credit cards & a guide... And my government would force vaccines on me, so I might drop dead from it, I have realy extreme reactions to drugs... Tempting

 

[GasMonkey]

In my home city, in a small apartment that I have rented, on a long deckchair.

 

[spectraltease]

I've been thinking a lot about it, and it matters to me where I die.

I currently live far away from my home (for school). I can't die here, in this foreign place. I need to be where I grew up.

I want to die outside. I imagine near a small creek or a hillside. In the fall with a quiet breeze and with the orange and yellow fall leaves. Birds chirping.

Somewhere quiet. Where I can reflect on my life and remember the parts I enjoyed. And experience nature one last time. I love nature and I love fall.

Why does it matter? It's just dying? It shouldn't matter at all. Maybe being suicidal is a manifestation of wanting to be home. But I had issues even when I was home.

Where do you want to die? What's your ideal scenery?

For me its a big thing. I don't want to die in my apartment, I wouldn't even take sn there. My method is the train, some minutes walk away from my home. Some regular tracks in the nature, a nice place tho. I would more care if I take sn, but with this method Im dead in a sec. I'm still considering which side I'm using

 

[Hope:-)]

I care but only for soundproofing reasons and not wanting to traumatise my family. Unfortunately the only place soundproofed enough that will not raise suspicion is my father's wife's house. I'm just going to have to put a sign on the door not to come in. Far from ideal. :-/

 

[hopelessgirl]

I honestly just want to be warm and comfortable

 

[FuneralCry]

For me the thing that is important is making sure that the method would succeed, and I guess that it doesn't necessarily matter where I would ctb as long as it's somewhere where others cannot interfere as if they did it could cause the method to fail. But it is understandable wanting to die at a place of significance as this could potentially make the person feel more relaxed about the process of ctb if they are leaving at a place that may comfort them. I do like the sound of ctb in a nature location, far away from any people where I can just die and be forgotten about, that would be ideal for me.

 

[HoneyandGlass]

Yes. I have found a beautiful, quiet place in a forest. Anywhere that is peaceful would be nice.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Probably best at home

 

[rainbowbright]

I would rather die at home in my own bed

 

[Littlewittlelight]

I've been thinking a lot about it, and it matters to me where I die.

I currently live far away from my home (for school). I can't die here, in this foreign place. I need to be where I grew up.

I want to die outside. I imagine near a small creek or a hillside. In the fall with a quiet breeze and with the orange and yellow fall leaves. Birds chirping.

Somewhere quiet. Where I can reflect on my life and remember the parts I enjoyed. And experience nature one last time. I love nature and I love fall.

Why does it matter? It's just dying? It shouldn't matter at all. Maybe being suicidal is a manifestation of wanting to be home. But I had issues even when I was home.

Where do you want to die? What's your ideal scenery?

I am choosing a place which would kinda be like your description and can I talk to you in dms? Why did you say maybe it's a manifestation of being suicidal? Some of us would really love serenity I believe maybe that's why and you seem like that the description was very close to where I would go if I go through with it again would you want to share your struggles? I see you said you struggled at home too but it feels different now?

 

[theboy]

Yes, it is important. It will be our last moments and we want it to be in peace.

I would like to die in nature or peacefully at home.

 

[Alnilam]

Yes, I don't want to traumatize my family too badly (though I guess my death would do the job) and would like my surroundings to be of some comfort in my final moments. Maybe listening to an old favorite cartoon playing, over some white noise and music.

 

[Anon1337]

Location is important for me. It's where I will spend the last moments of existence. Like you, preferably outside in a place that means something to me.

 

[StolenLife]

I will hopefully die in an instant as soon as I jump off the bridge and hit the water. But if I could choose I'd like to die far away in a deserted forrest area or in a huge meadow or field full of green grass. I'd be in a tent, wrapped up in a blanket, with the view of a beautiful midnight sky full of stars.

 

[NoLightRemains]

For me, I wanted to move back with my family before I go. Less distance my family needs to go to handle the postmortem arrangements. I'd love to die in my room as that is where I would be most comfortable. However, I can't have my family see my body unprepared.

My current plan is booking a hotel room for two days. It's going to be an extra level of discomfort, anxiety, and unfamiliarity, but I feel as if there is no other viable option. I can't have my family stumble across my body.

 

[CowsAreCool]

I am choosing a place which would kinda be like your description and can I talk to you in dms? Why did you say maybe it's a manifestation of being suicidal? Some of us would really love serenity I believe maybe that's why and you seem like that the description was very close to where I would go if I go through with it again would you want to share your struggles? I see you said you struggled at home too but it feels different now?

Sure my DMs are always open :) Serenity is part of it, but I just really love fall. It makes me nostalgic and I'm not entirely sure for what. Any other season makes me anxious, but fall doesn't. Right after the leaves turn. Most of my happiest memories were during fall. And its the quiet season before winter comes and takes it all away.

And suicidal thoughts are a manifestation of a lot of things. When I feel anxious, I think about suicide a lot. It's a coping mechanism. I hate feeling trapped, and it's the ultimate way out. It's a culmination of so many feelings and worries.

My struggles at home were the same. I just have homesickness and isolation on top of it now. My struggle is mostly social anxiety, with a strong physical element. Maintaining my friendships became so stressful and exhausting it began taking a physical toll, and to cope I isolated myself. I've lost incredibly close friends I have had since childhood. I lost my girlfriend. I basically live as alone as possible because being near others makes me almost feel sick.

I didn't used to be this way. I used to see dozens of my close friends every day (I did sports and multiple clubs in HS/College). I was a social butterfly. Came about when I was around 17, out of the blue. I was completely normal before that. But it got really bad when Covid first came around (I'm 22 now). I went from being a social butterfly with tons of friends and a future, to someone who could disappear and nobody would notice. I chose to change colleges and move 3000 miles away.

I talk to another person once a week, when my mother calls me on Saturday. I just go to classes, study, and watch old movies. Alone. I have nothing. No future to look forward to. I try to make friends but it leaves me almost bedridden.

I'm used to solitude. Solitude, in a quiet serene place, surrounded by my favorite season and my favorite memories. Fall leaves and a cool breeze. That's where I'll do it if I ever do.

 

[akirat9]

in private

 

[thedaywillcome]

Yes, it should be done behinde walls. In private.

I would be worried about Logan Paul finding me in that forest. Lol

Japan is beautiful. I get that. But alone in a forest does seem pretty creepy.

To be in a forest is much less dangerous than to walk in a big city.

 

[lifeisadream]

By the sea, either at sunset or sunrise. Ideally with no one anywhere near to interfere.

 

[hamtaro]

Ideally, I would like to die at a facility like Pegasos in Switzerland, with peaceful music playing, maybe some nature sounds, supervised by medical staff to ensure success.

I attempted to ctb in 2017 in a forest on a crisp early-spring day. I chose my favorite dress and felt such a sense of peace surrounded by nature and gazing at a clear blue sky. Perhaps I will be able to find an environment like that again.

 

[wanttodie]

no as long as i die

 

[lunasoleada]

yoI would not like fucked up my family so i Will do in hotel
yoI would not like fucked up my family so i Will do in hotel

 

[Sad_Sack]

I don't care where. Just want it to be as easy as possible and I want to be able to go while laying down. No jumping or dangling or anything else.

 

[SarRy]

I think my only concern would be in making it easy and cheap to have my body removed and disposed of. Also, secluded and quiet enough to not be disturbed or saved. Sure, having a nice last view might be nice, but the ability to experience pleasure goes against my desire to die. If I decide to go through with it, where I am isn't going to rank high on the list of things I'm thinking about.