I'm so angry. I feel humiliated every day. I sometimes think of helium but I really wanna do is set myself aflame in public. I blame people for me getting to this point, and what they could have done to help me. I don't know. Anyone else feel this way?
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Going Home
Specialist
- Sep 21, 2018
- 357
Sure do. I blame people who set me up to fail. Fuck their life!
lllll
Member
- Apr 28, 2019
- 70
Yeah, sometimes. I know deep down that you cant really blame anyone, that you are responsible for your life.
But I feel anger towards many people who I think could have treated me better
Bagger
Stressful
- Jun 18, 2019
- 331
Yes i do blame many of them. I blame my school and neighborhood bullies for my mental problems, i blame teachers for doing nothing to stop it, i blame my mom for doing nothing but isolating me from big bad world. I blame everyone who all the time treated me like an idiot of some kind. I fucking blame my so called friends for letting me down in time when i needed them most. It fucking hurts, when i look on fb and see my torturers posts about how fucking religious they became, and how they teach other people to live a life in peace with god a knife opens in my fucking pocket.Last edited:
lllll
Member
- Apr 28, 2019
- 70
I feel the same. Thats why I don't use facebook, its just a bunch of people that bring back painful memories
HGL91
Warlock
- Jul 2, 2019
- 720
Gosh. Doesn't the idea of setting yourself aflame frighten you? The pain of it? I'm so sorry you're at that point.
To answer your question: Yeah. I blame my mom and dad for bringing me into this world. It has been so painful.
Throwaway9787
Mage
- Jun 27, 2019
- 545
SelfHatingAspie
Ambitious but rubbish
- Jul 2, 2019
- 198
I used to, until I realised that the particular set of conditions that led me here were largely unknown, and those around me did their best with the limited knowledge and resources available.
I'm even past the stage of blaming myself, as I obviously did what I thought would work. It did, for a while, until it stopped working. Oddly enough, after speaking with several psychs (including a neuropsych with a special interest in brain abnormalities including ASD) and psychologists, it appears as though my attempts to self-heal are not far removed from the principles of DBT. It'd explain why CBT did sfa for me, and I suspect I may have been slightly better off had I been doing DBT from the start.
As for the OP ... for your favourite deity's sake (if applicable), don't self-immolate. The last thing you need is to inflict yet more agony on yourself.Last edited:honestly, im probably different from others on this. i dont blame others or really anyone for my heartbreak, even when there can be some blame with influencing my mental depressive episodes. Iv just whole heartedly accepted reality and my life. i literally believe i was destined to be sad, that every bad thing really isnt anyones fault, mine if anything. I just got the wrong side of the coin i guess, its my destiny to be like this. dont blame anyone anymore, just learned to accept, and from there, be numb and emotionless to everything and everyone really.I'm now too old to blame anybody at this point lol!
k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,547
oh it does, I'm not sure I'd be capable but I want to put make sure the people who did this to me are shamed in some way so i would like to do something like that in front of my former employerI have so many people to blame that I've kinda come to the conclusion that maybe I should just stop and blame myself.No, I should've known a long time ago that I had some pretty serious mental health issues. It could've saved my life if I had recognized them.
phoenixx
Experienced
- Apr 8, 2019
- 261
I blame the people who bullied and humiliated me in high school. Although it all happened over 6 years ago, it affected me severely and fucked my head and my life up.
Tortured_empath
Arcanist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 490
Yes, and it is tearing me up from the inside. When have noone to direct your hate at, it begins eating you up.20 years ago I'd blame the whole world for what I am, I was so angry then that I would set the whole world on fire , and I did. I destroyed my family and everyone stupid enough to stay near me. I've paid and continue to pay everyday for a part of what I did, but there are things that cannot be fixed and you have to live with it.
years go by and you see things differently, now I blame no one but myself, I know that I am the anomaly.Last edited:I don't care what some people might have done or said to me in the past. At the end of the day it's you deciding to take your own life. You just can't put that blame on them. You were unable to live the life you got.
Going Home
Specialist
- Sep 21, 2018
- 357
Sadly, people push each other to suicide. It happens everyday. That's why people are arrested for encouraging or contributing to someone committing suicide.
HGL91
Warlock
- Jul 2, 2019
- 720
I think it's really sad when there's a spouse who is terminally ill and over 70+ years old, and clearly miserable, and the husband or wife helps them with suicide to end their misery but then get life in prison.Not really, ofcourse people have done bad things to me that might push me over the edge. But i've been suicidal since i was a young child. My depressive behavior drives people away and it makes them more prone to betraying/hurting me. I can't really blame them.
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 7,382
I don't blame anyone in particular, but I would say that I am disappointed in society as a whole, the general attitude towards suicidal people and treating them like criminals, diseased lepers, or some plague. Most suicidal people just want to end their pain and misery, yet they are being denied the option to do so humanely and peacefully, with dignity. Some of them do violent things and hurt others (which I don't condone or excuse) while others go about it in gruesome ways (firearms, hanging, immolation, jumping from height, jumping into a busy traffic, etc.), sometimes inconveniencing others and even traumatizing them.
So on short, I don't blame anyone specifically, but rather collectively at humanity itself and it's general selfishness as well as it's anti-choice, anti-suicide sentiments.
Lara Francis
Enlightened
- Jun 30, 2018
- 1,627
A wow to your method ! Please reconsider
But yes I blame my hubby for everything.
It makes me sad when see anyone in their early mid twenties thinking about suicide. Life can change pretty quick and out of nowhere at your age. I just hope you realize that
TheFinalCountdown
Student
- Mar 25, 2019
- 136
Yes. Looking back, I never had the encouragement, support or direction I needed to succeed in life. It makes me wonder how I could be expected to do anything other than commit suicideSimilar threads
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