i see a lot of "no" in these replies. i'm going to say
yes... for now...
life is worth living because i want to do everything i strive to. after that, i'll simply kick the bucket. i want to experience life to it's fullest, and i'm aware that i'm still too young to reach that goal. i want to party, get drunk, have fun with friends, do crazy and impulsive things. but for now, i'm just a hermit.
i want to be able to treat life like a game. i'll customize myself to become someone i'm proud of. i'm looking towards having fun while it lasts, then going out with a bang. live fast, die young, if you get what i mean.
i want a chance to leave a mark on the people i know, both positive and negative. i want to discover who i truly am, and see how life can be when i'm fully transitioned. (i'm a closeted ftm for context.) i want to spite all of those who hate me by surviving for just a little longer. i want to experience true fear and adrenaline again. music plays a big part in my life, i want to explore it more and keep on listening. my dream is to become a tattoo artist, i want to at least make an attempt to achieve that dream.
i pay attention to the small details: like laughing so hard i feel my stomach hurting, having my heart race when i'm near a crush, being fixated on a media and having to stim out my happiness. those little things are one of the reasons i'm still here currently.
i think life
can be beautiful. it is everchanging. most people don't even know i exist, and that both interests and scares me. life is absurd, it's confusing, and it can never be explained because every single person on this world has a unique view of the concept of life. i want to live in this chaos. i don't strive to understand it however, i simply want to accept it for what it is.
i love consuming the media i enjoy. i want to read more, draw more, and do so many things before i die. however, i want to die by my own accord. and i still do see suicide as an answer when i feel my time has come.
i believe that finding beauty in life and being pro-choice can co-exist in my mind. i do not believe in forcing my views onto another person, for they can come to their own conclusions and decide by themselves what they want to do.
maybe i'm being too optimistic. feel free to challenge my views, i will always encourage a civil discussion. i'm in a positive mood right now, but i'm sure in a week i'll look back and laugh at myself.
and finally, i want a cat to help me tie myself down. i don't think i'd have the courage to CTB if i was responsible for a cat. i could never do that to an animal.
![Black cat :black_cat: 🐈⬛](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f408-2b1b.png)