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davidtorez

davidtorez

Arcanist
Mar 8, 2024
415
Aging terrifies me. I would hate to have to get old and literally see myself decay and wither away. I guess everyone is powerless against time and entropy…
The biggest reason I believe it is better to not be born is this right here.
 
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Oliver

Oliver

Experienced
Feb 28, 2024
235
Daam.. Spot on the last messages. Being broke f'cking sucks yes, but aging is the worst. Like all this bullshit about becoming "stronger" with time and "being a better version of yourself" etc. is so paradoxical because your are literal deteriorating with time - both physical and mentally - you are becoming worse and worse with time. Not saying you shouldn't try to get better - but you are fighting a battle that you are condemned to lose. Aging is horrible for us in all the ways imaginable and yet nature doesn't care...
 
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RemainingDubious

RemainingDubious

All of these lies are not worth fighting for
Feb 18, 2024
374
Life is for the living.

i personally don't feel like i'm alive. i don't consider my existence a "life" or that it is worth "living"

i'd be lying if i were to say that i've never felt anything was worth living for. There has been times i've felt alive and wanted to live.
 
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Oliver

Oliver

Experienced
Feb 28, 2024
235
The biggest reason I believe it is better to not be born is this right here.
We weren't meant to live pass 30. However, the body usually functions quite well all the way up to our 40's - and then it starts to go downhill fast. Club 27 here I come!
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
8,832
We weren't meant to live pass 30. However, the body usually functions quite well all the way up to our 40's - and then it starts to go downhill fast. Club 27 here we go!
I'm planning to die before 25. I'll never get old
 
Garf125

Garf125

Member
Sep 21, 2023
24
How would life ever be worth living under capitalism though?
Life is worth living if you enjoy it regardless of economic system like how playing an instrument is worth it if you enjoy it. People only do things they don't enjoy if they believe it will give them something they enjoy in the future or if theyre doing it for someone else. The problem with living is that you can't just stop doing it like you can just stop playing an instrument.
 
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davidtorez

davidtorez

Arcanist
Mar 8, 2024
415
We weren't meant to live pass 30. However, the body usually functions quite well all the way up to our 40's - and then it starts to go downhill fast. Club 27 here we go!
For men unfortunately it's downhill from 30. We lose about 1% of our testosterone for every year past 30. After 40 we have less enzymes in our stomachs to digest foods , after 50 our organs function at about 50% compared to when we were in our 20s . So I'd say it's all downhill after 30 really. Genes and luck play a role no doubt though.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
8,832
Well, since you are Asian, you can safely wait till you are 30. :devil:
I don't want to live past my mid 20s though. I can't imagine myself beyond that. I didn't even want to live past 18
 
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Oliver

Oliver

Experienced
Feb 28, 2024
235
For men unfortunately it's downhill from 30. We lose about 1% of our testosterone for every year past 30. After 40 we have less enzymes in our stomachs to digest foods , after 50 our organs function at about 50% compared to when we were in our 20s . So I'd say it's all downhill after 30 really. Genes and luck play a role no doubt though.
Yes its's extremely depressing and that's pretty much why you only get 1 shot at life. You fuck up in your twenties, and now you have to swallow the age-pill alongside all the bad luck you've had and the bad decisions that you've made.
 
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davidtorez

Arcanist
Mar 8, 2024
415
Yes its's extremely depressing and that's pretty much why you only get 1 shot at life. You fuck up in your twenties, and now you have to swallow the age-pill alongside all the bad luck you've had and the bad decisions that you've made.
So very sad but true
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
8,423
No.... No I don't !!!!!!
(This is my opinion for myself)
 
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Oliver

Oliver

Experienced
Feb 28, 2024
235
I don't want to live past mid 20s though
I understand. The way I see it: age 20-24 = super young/all fine. age 25-26 = mid twenties and still all fine. Age 27 = hmmm what is happening? I'm in my late twenties now and before long I will be 30...
 
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thewalkingdread

thewalkingdread

Life is a pointless, undeserved, unnecessary pain.
Oct 30, 2023
489
Personally, I don't think that (my) life is worth living. "Life is a pointless, undeserved, unnecessary pain."
I obviously think that life is — mostly! — a pointless, undeserved, unnecessary pain...

But I also think that life has good, pleasureable, features... Life can be worth living... and since we are already stuck here, we should strive to make things better, as best as we can.

That being said... We cannot always make things better... and, with time, things seem to get worse. That's when we need to be wise, in order to know when it's the right time to "retire"...

Once we're here life can be worth living until a point when its not anymore.

Life is definitely not worth STARTING. There is nothing to be gained by anyone by being born. It's better never to have been.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Visionary
Jan 1, 2024
2,419
My 30s have been the worst but for a lot of people their 30s are better than their 20s
 
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Oliver

Oliver

Experienced
Feb 28, 2024
235
My 30s have been the worst but for a lot of people their 30s are better than their 20s
I think it's because of more financial freedom/being further "advanced" in their career while still being relatively young.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
8,832
My 30s have been the worst but for a lot of people their 30s are better than their 20s
Sorry to hear that your 30s have been the worst. I'm not going to live to my 30s. I'm planning to ctb before my mid 20s
 
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Hotsackage

Paragon
Mar 11, 2019
917
Maybe, but there Is so much superficial crap out there. Especially those who think they have.life figured out, just lol
 
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cozse<3

Member
Jun 26, 2023
26
life isn't worth living unless you're good looking; people treat ugly people especially women like less than human
 
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walkingdead2023

walkingdead2023

Specialist
Jan 2, 2024
377
Absolutely not! I might get distracted with some social events every now and then buy those events not worth living for!! I want to rest. I want to die and just go to sleep that's it whatever happens after that I'm responsible for I just want to exit this ugly scary place we living at.
 
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Oliver

Oliver

Experienced
Feb 28, 2024
235
Life is not worth living at all.

nothing is worth the unending constant unbearable pain possible. "enjoying" a sandwhich or stupid youtube video is not worth the worst pain imaginable or the most horrible nightmares happening to you . .. but we hear it all the time "enjoy" "Life is enjoyable " it's like they are setting you up with bait for the really unbearable pain to hit just to keep you as a slave

nothing is worth becoming old. i worked in a nursing home it's an unimaginable hell. nothing is worth even watching the animal carcass you are in decay and feel it decaying as you get old . Everything gets worse as the human or other animal ages . just feel worse and worse everything gets more difficult ... it's a hell unimaginable to anyone under 40.

Life is the worst function in the universe. it's the only thing that causes pain, suffering ,problems diseases old age and 1000's of other horrible things. . Almost every animal died by being eaten alive by other animals, bacteria , or parasites. Even the mighty lion got old and got eaten alive. Most humans even with all the tech and civilization still die in pain in nursing homes. life is evil .
Yes, aging is a barbaric phenomenon. It simply shouldn't exist in a modern world. I used to work for a delivery company (like UPS) and I was constantly sent out to nursing homes with adult diapers (lol). Jeeez.. The smell in some of these places. It smelt so fucking chemical. Like they had doped the place up with some chemicals so you wouldn't smell all the zombie-like 90+ year olds living (existing) there. What kind of fucking dignity is there ending up like that? It's a complete mock. Terrifying imo - and that's what we all have coming for us. Isn't it wonderful?
 
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pebpebpebpeb

pebpebpebpeb

i have no enemies
Apr 1, 2020
184
i see a lot of "no" in these replies. i'm going to say yes... for now...

life is worth living because i want to do everything i strive to. after that, i'll simply kick the bucket. i want to experience life to it's fullest, and i'm aware that i'm still too young to reach that goal. i want to party, get drunk, have fun with friends, do crazy and impulsive things. but for now, i'm just a hermit.

i want to be able to treat life like a game. i'll customize myself to become someone i'm proud of. i'm looking towards having fun while it lasts, then going out with a bang. live fast, die young, if you get what i mean.

i want a chance to leave a mark on the people i know, both positive and negative. i want to discover who i truly am, and see how life can be when i'm fully transitioned. (i'm a closeted ftm for context.) i want to spite all of those who hate me by surviving for just a little longer. i want to experience true fear and adrenaline again. music plays a big part in my life, i want to explore it more and keep on listening. my dream is to become a tattoo artist, i want to at least make an attempt to achieve that dream.
i pay attention to the small details: like laughing so hard i feel my stomach hurting, having my heart race when i'm near a crush, being fixated on a media and having to stim out my happiness. those little things are one of the reasons i'm still here currently.

i think life can be beautiful. it is everchanging. most people don't even know i exist, and that both interests and scares me. life is absurd, it's confusing, and it can never be explained because every single person on this world has a unique view of the concept of life. i want to live in this chaos. i don't strive to understand it however, i simply want to accept it for what it is.

i love consuming the media i enjoy. i want to read more, draw more, and do so many things before i die. however, i want to die by my own accord. and i still do see suicide as an answer when i feel my time has come.

i believe that finding beauty in life and being pro-choice can co-exist in my mind. i do not believe in forcing my views onto another person, for they can come to their own conclusions and decide by themselves what they want to do.

maybe i'm being too optimistic. feel free to challenge my views, i will always encourage a civil discussion. i'm in a positive mood right now, but i'm sure in a week i'll look back and laugh at myself.

and finally, i want a cat to help me tie myself down. i don't think i'd have the courage to CTB if i was responsible for a cat. i could never do that to an animal. 🐈 🐈‍⬛
 
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morgueprincess

morgueprincess

ghost
Dec 26, 2023
24
it is worth living for many, but not for me.
 
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TransientEternal

Student
Sep 24, 2023
133
No, everything you will ever do will have nothing to do with you if your memories and consciousness disappear in death.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
8,832
No, everything you will ever do will have nothing to do with you if your memories and consciousness disappear in death.
I agree. Nothing matters in the end anyways, so why even try? What's the point of entering the capitalist rat race and toiling away for the rest of your life if you're just going to die? It all seems so pointless and meaningless to me
 
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davidtorez

davidtorez

Arcanist
Mar 8, 2024
415
I agree. Nothing matters in the end anyways, so why even try? What's the point of entering the capitalist rat race and toiling away for the rest of your life if you're just going to die? It all seems so pointless and meaningless to me
Nothing matters ultimately in an objective sense , such as there being a meaning to it all. But I think stuff temporarily matters to people right here and now. So just because something doesn't matter in the bigger scheme of things (which is what I believe ) , it doesn't mean things don't matter right now in a subjective sense
 
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passivethought121

passivethought121

Student
Jun 11, 2023
315
Not mine. Maybe with different parents I would have a different mindset and the will to live. But my brain has been sealed.
 
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tbroken

Wizard
Feb 22, 2024
682
It is, in certain conditions.
Unfortunately if you have bad luck you can't do nothing about it. I was normal AF and if I'm here and my life is in pieces is only due to extreme bad luck. I think that especially for men, failure or disappointment is not that easy to heal.
As for now i really don't fear death and i need only a good trigger and resource.
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
691
Some lives, not my life.
 
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