Discussion Do you believe that getting away from your toxic household would make you want to live again?

[wishmaster9]

I've been living alone for around a decade, have completely lost my will to live when I was 14, I'm 29 now and still didn't feel it again.
It can definitely help with your personal growth and development as an adult, but it usually brings up other issues such as paying the bills without getting into debt.
Idk if by 'school' you mean highschool or college/uni, but regardless I'd recommend you at least give it a try when it will be possible for you.

 

[LonelyPrince]

I feel like if I move out I'll defintely feel less oppressed and more free. However, it won't cure me.

 

[SarahThrowsGin]

I moved out (for the kind of control freaks I'm dealing with, though, true escape would entail breaking all contact), but can still relate to the topic. Though my take on it is unfortunately rather fatalistic. It would take to both escape the household and move to another country as well, and much earlier in time. It won't help today anymore, and depending on where I would have to survive the pandemic (on how far social distancing goes), it might have still not been enough. Social distancing was a game-ender for me, it resulted in social isolation that can't be beaten for an autistic person who already sucks at making connections. I am pretty sure any country that implements stay-at-home policy would still doomed me all the same.

So I guess, I may just not be fit to survive in modern times? It does not seem there was ever good times, though. What I can't quite get is that some other autistic people manage success. I guess something broke early in my life, in pre-school years. Back then I was neglected by my grandmother, then I was helicoptered into oblivion by my mother who was forced into retirement by the fact that grandmother didn't do shit despite literally spending home all day (talking to her peers of age on the landline phone). By teenage years, I was already doomed to loneliness and being an outcast, and this never changed. It seems the cards I was dealt are just too unlucky for small corrections to save my life.