do you also feel unable to interact with others or to connect?

[_Minsk]

most time i was a loner type of person, i could still interact with others but since a few years, when depression got progressively worse and worse, i somehow lost the ability to connect with others. i feel so awkward being around others, i just feel like not fitting into society at all. i've lost most of my social skills and i'm always that kind of insecure, introverted person who has a weird aura of darkness around. when i'm in social situations i have a hard time meeting the social expectations. without hiding my misery and grief, i wouldn't even be able to continue my job or be at least somewhat accepted by my family. it used to be manageable for me to put on that mask but i no longer have that energy i used to have. can someone relate?

 

[Norway]

most time i was a loner type of person, i could still interact with others but since a few years, when depression got progressively worse and worse, i somehow lost the ability to connect with others. i feel so awkward being around others, i just feel like not fitting into society at all. i've lost most of my social skills and i'm always that kind of insecure, introverted person who has a weird aura of darkness around. when i'm in social situations i have a hard time meeting the social expectations. without hiding my misery and grief, i wouldn't even be able to continue my job or be at least somewhat accepted by my family. it used to be manageable for me to put on that mask but i no longer have that energy i used to have. can someone relate?

Yes I feel just the same.. Its so hard to cope with

 

[Bct]

I can feel you. I'm able to do some social interactions, but it never turn to be a deep relationship. Some just ended awkwardly.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Relatable tbh. Feels like I'm not even really a human since all normal humans connect with each other as if it's natural but I can't.

 

[Nolye]

I've always been a loner thanks to my social anxiety, depression and me being an introvert in general, but like you I was at least able to hold something resembling a conversation. Now I have anxiety just being around people, including my own family. I don't know how to act anymore. Coping is getting hard; if I could hide in my room and simply fade away, it'd be great.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

Yes, I'm socially awkward. I think people can sense something is wrong with me. It may take them a while but they ultimately come to the (correct) conclusion that I'm unhealthy.

 

[Close_to_freedom]

Yes. I became a hermit after high school.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

Yeah I've become worse in unemployment. It's hard for me to imagine myself having a laugh with people as I used to; I guess instinctively I am something of a recluse.

 

[Mooseanonsky]

People freak me out so much that I can't even interact with people online without panicking

 

[NeverNoLuck]

Yup. I feel as if nobody could ever really relate to what i'm going thru. I have tinnitus and have had it for 4 years just about. Everyone always says I can't even imagine what you feel." So i don't even try to talk to people. And somewhere along the way i started viewing people the same we view fish or animals in a zoo. Like beings that are in front of you, but you can't become one of them. They don't get it. So now i don't reach out. or talk.

I plan to CTB in about a month when i can buy my shotgun.

 

[Eden1505]

Yup. I feel as if nobody could ever really relate to what i'm going thru. I have tinnitus and have had it for 4 years just about. Everyone always says I can't even imagine what you feel." So i don't even try to talk to people. And somewhere along the way i started viewing people the same we view fish or animals in a zoo. Like beings that are in front of you, but you can't become one of them. They don't get it. So now i don't reach out. or talk.

I plan to CTB in about a month when i can buy my shotgun.

I can relate with the tinnitus issue. I've had it for 16 years now 24/7 and it got much worse through the years. The impact on my mental health and life style has been tremendous. Doctors have been of no substantial help, it is a solitary condition that wears out all the life force in you. I feel drained in the company of random people and will put the minimum energy in playing the social game. Feel very awkward even when I m out for grocery shopping. Been out of work for years.
My tinnitus spiked again last February and has left me in a constant state of anxiety, with bouts of panic. I will not take anymore of this for much longer, it is driving me completely insane.

 

[SSlostallhope]

I've always been a loner thanks to my social anxiety, depression and me being an introvert in general, but like you I was at least able to hold something resembling a conversation. Now I have anxiety just being around people, including my own family. I don't know how to act anymore. Coping is getting hard; if I could hide in my room and simply fade away, it'd be great.

I feel exactly this. Totally :(

 

[deadgirlahsatan]

I have terrible social skills. Even online. I have social anxiety plus i am disabled so i can be very awkward and my life is misery so it's hard to even want to interact with people. I have tried over the years but just made one close friend but he passed last year ago from suicide.

I think i will always be a loner. Very hard to connect with people.

 

[Green Destiny]

Yes completely. I'm terrible at basic conversation.

 

[WitheringAway]

Me af. Im usually good at establishing a friendship with someone but somewhere along the road i just stop knowing how to keep it. You have no idea how many people I simply cut off over the years and it sucks cus most of them are people I thought I would be friends with for life. The ride or die type of shiii. But guess my dumbasss is the one to blame.

 

[SSlostallhope]

I'm seeing the doctor Thursday to try get a prescription for propranolol. I think I will get it too as my anxiety is so bad. I got hit by a car last weekend, I felt really anxious as I was in a supermarket car park and the thought of going into these shops scares me. Apparently I just stepped out in front of it. I don't remember that. Just being fine the next and hit the next.
Life is just too scary and anxious to keep living through I feel like a big bowl of jelly