Venting do you also feel guilty after talking to people?

[mayhem]

do you guys also regret having conversations and socializing?

like after weeks of not leaving my dorm room and not talking to anyone (i also live alone), today i went to one of my close friends' house to help her with something. as soon as i entered her house i wanted to just cease to exist. just straight up disappear. i like her, she's like one of the few people i like and i used to love having deep conversations with her. but this time i felt super ashamed of myself, i hated every little thing i did and said. i just wanted to fucking dig a hole and bury myself in it. on the way back i was just replaying everything i did/said in my head and cringing. and nothing absurd had happened it was just casual conversation.

this happens to me every time i interact with people and i just fucking hate it. i really want to die every time so i stay away from everyone around me to prevent this. but that leads to other problems so it's just a terrible cycle.

 

[jodes2]

Yeah I have social anxiety and every conversation is a cringefest

 

[247sadgirlhours]

yep, 100% experienced this too. i overanalyze every single interaction and always wonder if i said or did the right thing. it can be as simple as ordering in the drive thru. i know, externally, i am incredibly normal but on the inside i am constantly anxious.

sometimes i can be talking to a friend/acquaintance and i'll say something and immediately i can tell it didn't land. it's like watching my "friendship meter" go down, like a fucking video game lmao

 

[mayhem]

it can be as simple as ordering in the drive thru. i know, externally, i am incredibly normal but on the inside i am constantly anxious.

aaaaa thissss. like i know people don't even remember or care but i just can't stop myself from overthinking every little thing and it bothers me so much lately.

love your username by the way, and me too lol

 

[VioletNight]

Definitely, I still have flashbacks to conversations where I feel like I said stupid or embarrassing things years later. Or I'll feel as if I've burdened another person if I mention my struggles. It's hard to accept that most people don't even notice the things we're overanalyzing or remember the cringy one off remarks.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I feel guilty after getting my friend's hopes up about hanging out or getting back into our mutual hobby, because I just don't feel motivated to do so and I regret my decision.

 

[VioletNight]

I feel guilty after getting my friend's hopes up about hanging out or getting back into our mutual hobby, because I just don't feel motivated to do so and I regret my decision.

Same, I've told countless friends that we should hangout sometime only to have no energy to ever do it. I feel bad every time

 

[catastrophix]

Not gonna lie, I'm pretty much friendless IRL, so this past year I attempted to make friends online. I got a lot of messages from potential friends, but my social phobia is so bad that every person I tried to talk to just ended in me feeling so miserable about myself. They say it's important to have connections (AKA, a support system) but trying to make connections only made me feel worse. I feel for you, and I hope things get easier for you.