Do you also beg life to give you reasons to live and instead you get more and more reasons to kill yourself?

[noname223]

I am doomed. When you have severe issues in life they tend to accumulate and none of them get solved. Until you are unable to cope with it. It is a living hell. A living nightmare. It will drive me to commit suicide.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Yes, absolutely. Every time I think "I can probably live with this amount of pain/discomfort for a bit longer" my physical situation just gets worse.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Nope. From everything I've experienced, life seems to be my enemy. For whatever reason life doesn't seem to like me very well. I'd never ask (it) for shit again. It's never given my anything I've ever wanted, or even needed, for that matter.

 

[karmaisabitch]

I beg life to leave me alone! I never asked for anything but instead life took the only person I love. I don't want anything from life at this point I just want to go home where my son at, hopefully.

 

[susanna]

Yes. Life feels like a misery prison. I try to look for positives, try to focus on what there is to be grateful for. I've prayed to every god and asked for help from many. Still shitty things happen. Not only to me but also people around me. I feel cursed and sometimes wonder if I deserve it.
I've had 3 failed attempts so I fear there's no way out. Must try to accept this life sentence one day, one moment at a time. Distract with tv/movies and a needy dog.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yea to the former, not so much to the latter. Instead of being given more reasons to die I usually just end up with the same reasons to die going completely unaddressed.

 

[Artemisia]

I have reasons to live, I'd like to live a lot longer. It's doctors I've been begging to save me, but they don't care and don't listen. What I have is not deadly per se, it's something that's been eating me away for the past 6 years of stupid doctors not giving a damn. Now I can only choose between dying quickly, with dignity, or keep wasting away, in pain, exhausted, incapable of working, even taking care of myself. It's not that I want to die, it's that a quick death while I can is preferable to this slow dying.

 

[fleetingnight]

Yeah, that's a really good way to put it. I keep lowering my standards about what I need to want to be alive, but they still never get met. I don't even want to be happy anymore, just okay

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, I don't beg for a reason to live as I don't want life itself. Life, right now, just isn't me worth living. I deserve better and life can never be the better that I deserve