Discussion Do we really just need one lousy day to drive you crazy?

[Sad Paradise]

What's been pushing you to the edge of insanity lately?

 

[edu0z]

anxiety... silence

 

[Kalista]

Don't simplify it so much. We don't know what people have been dealing with for who knows how long.

For me, it's living in this shit country and trying to survive in it alone.

 

[reiII]

realizing ive never been in a genuinely loving relationship once in my life. and that it is beyond me now

 

[Forever Sleep]

I am in a bad patch because everything I have to do I don't want to. I need to tidy and clean after a crazy intensive period of work. There's mess everywhere and after that, I need to look for a wage slave job which- even if I get one, I will very likely hate. I have 10 years experience of them to know. Just the uncertainty of it all makes me feel constantly worried.

But in terms of CTB? Yes- for me there likey will be a trigger point. The death of my father and the likelihood of seeing a (suspected) narcissist at the funeral. The ideal for me would be to CTB between his death and the funeral. Hopefully I have the guts and the time.

 

[gbi2]

I've had to deal with around 20 people and businesses over the past 18 months and the only one who fulfilled their side of the deal without me having to chase them is the mortgage company. Everyone else, the housing association, financial advisor, solar panel company, friends, ex employer, job centre, therapists, other helpers, they have all failed in their obligation or promise, whether that be not calling back when they said they would, not getting me information they said they would find out, not processing paperwork they should have done. I'm just fed up of it all. It's bad enough with me making more mistakes because of my mental health problems but when I have to keep calling them back or telling them they have done something wrong or forgotten to do something - especially when they think I'm just moaning so they ignore me the first few times, and then they realise I'm actually informing them of a real error they have made, and it took me a month to get them to even take a look.

And I know I'll just end up getting another job where my colleagues will be the same as always, unambitious, deliberately going slow to get overtime offered, bitching about the bosses, but being nice to their faces, ignoring rules and not doing any learning properly, even breaking the law. I can't go into another job like that.

 

[TooConscious]

Emotionally manipulative people, family are often the worst for it
I like a poem from Charles Bukowski about how it's not the large things that send a man to the madhouse, it's a ton of petty irritants like shoelaces snapping when you're in a hurry.

 

[Sad Paradise]

realizing ive never been in a genuinely loving relationship once in my life. and that it is beyond me now

I feel exactly like that, my peak of madness was giving myself for so long to someone who never saw me, threw away all our expectations. While I sink slowly, she acts like nothing is happening, living life normally without taking responsibility for the consequences she left in me!

 

[reiII]

I feel exactly like that, my peak of madness was giving myself for so long to someone who never saw me, threw away all our expectations. While I sink slowly, she acts like nothing is happening, living life normally without taking responsibility for the consequences she left in me!

i'm really sorry to hear that. one of my relationships was like that too. i don't think i was ever really seen as his s/o it was just a situationship and he forgor about me for an actual life instantly i guess. now it's just a matter of the one person who i connect with not being meant to be. right person wrong time? i guess
the popular advice would probably be that we have to find the love and faith in ourselves, but i'm fuckin tired dawg how do you do that when all your life its not been that way