Do people irl know you’re here?

[xxpinkmoonglitterxx]

Does anyone in your real life know you visit this site? No one in my life does and it's always going to stay that way

 

[Borderline]

If anyone knew I was here, I'd be in the mental hospital faster than I can spell mental hospital.

 

[RoseQuarts]

No, I think of the way I would react if I found out one of my close friends uses this site.

 

[dialogos]

No, but I did tell my mom with dementia. She got shocked but forgets it or blanks it out the next day..I know it seems cruel but I do it when she gets into mild mania and distracts her so much that she stops being manic. Also I want to keep this site from being blocked via ISP. It does help a lot of people

 

[busybee]

Goodness no. I'd be put in grippy socks as soon as they found out.

 

[Amidaa]

No and i would like it to keep it this way even if it doesn't really matters.

 

[strawberry_lemons]

ah gods no, I would be pitied faster than i can blink. they would keep a more careful eyes on me too

 

[jellie]

no. very few people in my life know that I have a desire to CTB, and much fewer (maybe 1-2 people) know that I have attempted.

I think that a lot of people are judgemental of a site like this, and it would cause the people in my life to be very concerned about me to know that I am on a site that is not strictly anti-CBT (i don't feel as though this site is pro either, we are just here to support each other with our decisions). I do not want to be hospitalized or have to go to some kind of inpatient treatment because it would interfere with my schooling and cause me to, i think, be pitied by the people in my life. I saw the way my family reacted to my cousin who has attempted many times and been in long-term intensive care and I do not want to be treated like that. I would rather they not know.

at the same time, sometimes i wish someone was worried about me. but they don't care.

 

[Nezumi04]

Does anyone in your real life know you visit this site? No one in my life does and it's always going to stay that way

No, and I don't think I'll ever tell anyone. firstly, it'd be really embarrassing if they knew what I was posting, but also they'd probably all be really worried about me... worried to the point, they'd keep a careful eye on me or maybe lecture me nonstop trying to change my mind. So, I'd never tell anyone about seriously "wanting to ctb", nor will I ever show those feelings too blatantly. I think it'd just fill me with more guilt, and my plans could be sabotaged.

In a way, I also care about certain people... and I think it'd make them all very sad and alarmed if they knew. I'm already feeling some hesitation to do it already, because of leaving certain people behind possibly traumatized by my sudden departure... so, it would be worse for them to see it coming, feeling like they should have prevented it somehow (if I ever went through with it).

Plus, who knows, I may change my mind and not do anything in the end... So, I don't want to be forever associated with being suicidal in peoples' eyes when they interact with me. It wouldn't feel good/natural to be viewed or treated with pity & concern all the time.

 

[illvoid]

I have brought it up very vaguely with certain people I trust a lot. I've never given out the name of the forum or my user for obvious reasons. I think my boyfriend found my profile, but he won't tell me what he was referring to when he tried to talk to me about being on forums he thinks are bad for me. It's either here or he thinks I'm back on 4chan.

 

[ohyouknow]

My therapist knows, though I haven't told him the name of the site. I wouldn't want to burden anyone else with the information.

 

[heavyeyes]

Fuck no. I can't risk getting locked up in a psych ward or worse

 

[Holu]

Fuck no. I can't risk getting locked up in a psych ward or worse

Honestly idk if being on here is grounds for involuntary hospitalization. Assuming ur posts don't indicate plans to ctb I can't imagine they could do much.

 

[heavyeyes]

Honestly idk if being on here is grounds for involuntary hospitalization. Assuming ur posts don't indicate plans to ctb I can't imagine they could do much.

I mean I have said in my posts before that I have SN in my possession and I'm actively planning to ctb. So I'm pretty sure they could?

 

[Holu]

I mean I have said in my posts before that I have SN in my possession and I'm actively planning to ctb. So I'm pretty sure they could?

Ya prob if they have ur account. Even tho u can private profile u can still search name which basically achieves the same thing so long as someone responded to u by quote. Better safe than sorry

 

[WhenTheSunHits95]

i used the phrase catch the bus to a friend and he understood what i meant, so either he knows or is familiar with forums like this from the past. he was very sweet about it though and talked with me for a while. Other than that, i'm taking this to my grave (no pun intended)

 

[Navi]

Only one person but he doesn't care enough to do anything about it. He's def gonna go on my note for being a lying bitch lmao.

No, but I have fantasized about leave the tab open "on accident"

Me too. I don't know the reason though

 

[RealitySurf]

One friend saw my monitor one time, but he doesn't understand English at all, so I'm safe

 

[Minsu]

Nah. My friends and family don't even know that SaSu exists

 

[outrider567]

Does anyone in your real life know you visit this site? No one in my life does and it's always going to stay that way

No

 

[offtoseethewizard]

I

no, I've been told that people who say they want to die will never say it, and that if you say it, you're attention seeking.

I also have been told this. Shocking really.

 

[Anon7b8]

Nope, even if they see it they won't care. I don't come off as someone wanting to ctb irl.

 

[John Ryder]

no

no, I've been told that people who say they want to die will never say it, and that if you say it, you're attention seeking.

Damn that is some of the most specious reductionist horseshit I've ever heard. Like old timey southern wisdom nugget bad

 

[tora]

no, if anyone in my life knew, they would find a way to have me hospitalized

 

[Passersby]

Hell no! Theres not anybody left though when youve been living this life for so long and as a NeeT. It's all over now baby blue. Ctb is coming. Its better to stay safe and in isolation seeing as we live in a very slave type of state and pro life society. I am not like everybody else.

 

[Gloomislost]

Does anyone in your real life know you visit this site? No one in my life does and it's always going to stay that way

No and I plan to keep it that way after I die. Like probs gonna send a goodbye message and then delete my account later.

 

[lament.]

No but I have been tempted to mention "catching the bus" to someone recently because I genuinely think they are also on the site. I feel like if any of my friends and family knew that I was on the site and confronted me about it, it would only hasten my death.

 

[Death is my goal]

no, why would anyone ever tell ppl that they visit this site other than seeking attention? unless you get caught visiting the site nobody should know. no merit and it's more harm than good