Venting Do I deserve to die?

[Pipsqueak!]

Back in 2023 I had really awful violent intrusive thoughts over the summer. They eventually went away and now they're back a few years later. I think I'm a horrible person who deserves to die. I don't think I can continue living like this. Do think the thoughts will eventually pass or should I just kill myself?

 

[goldenwitch]

they'll pass alright everyone has em

wouldnt sugarcoat it if it wasnt the case most people i believe are homicidal, you at least have the conscience to refrain from hurting anyone, that is what violent people lack. it isnt the thoughts that truly shape you but what youre willing to do.

 

[star_0]

having bad thoughts doesn't necessarily make you a bad person. it's way easier said than done but try to be kind to yourself. you're doing your best

 

[persepexa]

You don't control your thoughts. You only control what you do with them. I understand it's distressing to have those thoughts but the fact you haven't acted on any of them is a good thing. If you have violent urges there are ways to channel them safely. Some people take up sports like boxing or they play violent video games. Others do nothing. Either way having violent intrusive thoughts does not make you a bad person. I hope you're doing okay.