Thinking about medication and would love to know more about your experiences.
I'm worried it might functionally be similar to a lobotomy. I certainly am not a medical expert, but in my head a lobotomy "works" in the sense that the treatment makes the patient not appear like they want to CTB. The thing is, we don't know what's going on inside their head post-lobotomy. Like what if it's no different than failing a CTB attempt and being trapped inside your body?
Idk, I don't want to be trapped inside my head by medications. I think I sound a bit loony right now, but I'd really appreciate hearing more. Did you ever feel trapped inside your body by the medication?
For me- no- I wasn't on them long enough. They didn't seem to do anything for me but give me a metallic taste in my mouth. Nearing the end of the course, I got a creative project to do which was and still is (but to a lesser extent) my salvation. It was obvious that it was that making me feel better- rather than the drugs- so- I didn't go back for more.
Hearing from other people though- it seems like some of them definitely do just numb out all emotions- even the more pleasant ones by the sounds of it. People have talked about feeling more like a robot or zombie- so- I do understand why you would be nervous.
Maybe it's worth you checking the search bar- or starting a new thread to ask about people's experiences. There definitely would be a wealth of them here I would think. I guess the only thing is- people do seem to react differently on them. It does seem to help some people. I suppose it's just whether you feel willing to try.
At the moment, I don't feel quite desperate enough. Mine has become more of a lethargy towards life- more than intense unhappiness- although I'm sure that will return!
Anyhow, I wish you well- whatever you decide.
