I'm extremely new to this whole site. I actually just got registered today lol, so I'm sorry if I'm not doing something right.
I get so overwhelmed when I realize my life is going down the wrong path again, and I tend to start thinking of ending it. But then I start to dwell on it and I start to remember the people I have in my life, and want to postpone that instead.
It sounds so freeing. A lot of the time, I'm either anxious or depressed or angry, and finally not being able to feel those sounds very nice. I'm also failing my important classes right now and I feel like such a fuckup because of that. I had high grades last year and now I'm falling behind by so much.
But living in the same house with your family and being close with them, while also having friends, makes the thought so difficult and it just makes me cry..
I'm kind of stuck in this back and forth right now and I'm just not sure what to do. Sometimes I wish someone would find me and just kill me quickly so that I won't have to think of this.
I'm mainly just venting (obvious by the tag) because this has been weighing on my mind the entire day and I've just been trying not to cry or freak out over it. I don't mind advice but don't expect me to immediately follow through with it because I'm stubborn..
I get so overwhelmed when I realize my life is going down the wrong path again, and I tend to start thinking of ending it. But then I start to dwell on it and I start to remember the people I have in my life, and want to postpone that instead.
It sounds so freeing. A lot of the time, I'm either anxious or depressed or angry, and finally not being able to feel those sounds very nice. I'm also failing my important classes right now and I feel like such a fuckup because of that. I had high grades last year and now I'm falling behind by so much.
But living in the same house with your family and being close with them, while also having friends, makes the thought so difficult and it just makes me cry..
I'm kind of stuck in this back and forth right now and I'm just not sure what to do. Sometimes I wish someone would find me and just kill me quickly so that I won't have to think of this.
I'm mainly just venting (obvious by the tag) because this has been weighing on my mind the entire day and I've just been trying not to cry or freak out over it. I don't mind advice but don't expect me to immediately follow through with it because I'm stubborn..
