I am an extremely honest and blunt person, most likely due to my autism. Because of this hiding my suicidal tendencies hasn't been much of an option. I say what I think, whether I like it or not - to my own detriment tbh. I have made it abundantly clear to everyone in my life that I am mentally ill, and I am struggling. But people just do not take me seriously. People generally do not care, until death is knocking at your door. Even so, even during my previous attempts, nobody seemed to care either. I suppose I just have very not empathetic people in my life.
As of recently however, I have been able to keep quiet and hide this from my family. I'm not sure what has changed, but nowadays I can keep things to myself, probably because I have an outlet here on SaSu. I am grateful for this, as telling people irl has caused me nothing but misery and making my problems worse.