Did you ever imagine that you would end up in the SS forum?

[cleveland2011]

I never imagined I would end up in a suicide forum it feels surreal to me but here I am unfortunately

For a long time I was frequent poster on a health forum. People that experienced pharmaceutical damage like I have.

I preached pro- life to a lot of suicidal people over the years. People grasped onto me for health. Several reached out and have told me I helped save their lives.

I recovered for awhile and then had a slow descent that became rapid 3 months ago. That was it. My final straw.

And here I am now. The absolute opposite that I preached. I literally can't believe it.

 

[BigGimpin]

I am just glad I found my way here. Im 52 and my entire life I have had a voice in the back of my mind saying "you are just gonna kill yourself anyway" whenever I was in any kind of difficult situation. Well my situation is much more than difficult right now. Been in a wheelchair from a SCI for 37 years and my health is failing me. My body is worn out and I can no longer go on living in it. My disability makes CTB that much more difficult, if anyone has any advice I would greatly appreciate it.