Discussion did you disappear ?

[winamp]

not sure if this belongs in recovery or suicide discussion but it is open to both

did you disappear socially and online before starting recovery ?

or disappear socially and online deciding to CTB or CTB in the future ?

I found that isolation is helpful for both somewhat it depends on the person I think




I never liked social media in the first place and I didn't really have any social media accounts I find social media to be very annoying in general and I didn't get the purpose of it and found it to be negative for myself

I stopped contacting people long before being aware and accepting and knowing I was somewhat suicidal or wanted to seek recovery

edit: also was your disappearance voluntary or involuntary socially I feel like for many people here disappearing or being othered or isolated in a social sense was involuntary

 

[Unhumanly.]

Yes, I do not have social media too, it was my choice, scrolling through social media was used to be one of my habit, but it became so mundane to me that I slowly stopped

can't find something interesting more, I feel like I can already guess what could be there in social media.. been exploring to many kind of content.

and before I ctb, I will hard reset my phone, then maybe threw it somewhere people can't find it

 

[winamp]

I feel like I can already guess what could be there in social media.. been exploring to many kind of content.

I didn't really think of that once I stopped using it but I feel the same way

everything / various forms of knowledge and information both useful and useless are easily accessible which is a bit overwhelming

or you're constantly being reminded of how bad and meaningless a lot of things are with the advancements in technology and constant changes of the internet

I am not sure how to explain it but going on the internet especially those places feels like a chore sometimes

the constant advertisements and terrible algorithms and things that you just do not want to see

it reminds me of an image I saw making fun of how we have everything yet nothing with the click of a button to the point where any normal interaction or things you typically have to put effort into is/are completely meaningless

I do not know how to explain what I'm trying to say so sorry if this doesn't make any sense + sorry for the long reply

 

[R_N]

If it weren't for isolation I would be suffering much more. It always helped me cope if my life was rough outside.

 

[ChantDuCygne]

I just recently deleted discord. I never was very active on social media either. I didn't feel a need to look at anything online before we moved to a village where I didn't know anyone. I started talking on discord more and more. So much has happened there. It was my new life. My new existence. But I have always felt worthless, and therefore, I lost more and more people there. My self esteem went down with every new loss and it hasn't stoped decreasing yet. I want to give up, but… I don't belong anywhere. I will probably crawl back to discord in two days, because I'm simply that hopeless.

 

[sserafim]

not sure if this belongs in recovery or suicide discussion but it is open to both

did you disappear socially and online before starting recovery ?

or disappear socially and online deciding to CTB or CTB in the future ?

I found that isolation is helpful for both somewhat it depends on the person I think




I never liked social media in the first place and I didn't really have any social media accounts I find social media to be very annoying in general and I didn't get the purpose of it and found it to be negative for myself

I stopped contacting people long before being aware and accepting and knowing I was somewhat suicidal or wanted to seek recovery

edit: also was your disappearance voluntary or involuntary socially I feel like for many people here disappearing or being othered or isolated in a social sense was involuntary

I've disappeared socially for like a year now. I've disappeared online too. I stopped replying or talking to my friends and I haven't seen any of them in person for over a year. Now I have no friends. I'm only on sasu now, my other social media is dead. My followers probably think I died or something, which is my end goal anyways. I think I disappeared due to depression and wanting to ctb, even though I didn't know it at the time. I enjoy isolation though, I like being alone. I think my disappearance was voluntary. I'm pretty introverted by nature and I've become a hermit/recluse, but I honestly prefer being alone and in isolation over social interaction. I hate the fact that I'm going to have to participate in society and talk to/interact with people to live in this world.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I've either deleted my accounts, or put them on hybernation. It was really liberating. It always made me feel shit anyway.