After finding out about all the resources from this site, were you more willing to CTB?
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The anhedonic one
Dead inside
- May 20, 2023
- 1,069
I was already suicidal before finding SaSu.
Yet, it's a wonderful experience being here with fellow sufferers.
I had no idea there were so many of us going through the same dreadful things.
It's also got some truly valuable information on methods.Upvote 0
delusionalgirl
I have my ticket. Awaiting my journey
- Jun 17, 2023
- 194
In a very bizarre twist of fate this site saved me from screwing up my method long time ago. I was looking up shooting myself to double check something. This site popped up directly linking to the megathread. Fate? I'm going with yes. If I had gone with what I was going to do I might survive. I read that mega thread the whole thing. I was amazed people openly talked about this without judgement. I learned the proper way to do it and felt supported for my choice. I'm more supported here then anywhere irlUpvote 0
Daxter_87
If my name is crossed out, hopefully I'm dead.
- May 28, 2023
- 400
No, I've been suicidal for a very long time, before even knowing that this site was a thing. Ever since I was in my early teens, I had suicidal thoughts in my head.
When I was a teenager, I realized that non-existence is preferable to being alive, that in non-existence there can't ever be any kind of suffering whatsoever. I also became an antinatalist during that period, and for the same reasons.Upvote 0No. Suicide was always very likely on the cards. I'm massively grateful I found this site- it comforts me to be able to actually talk about this stuff. I feel less lonely.
I don't imagine many people would have found their way here unless they were already suicidal. When it comes to method information- I can't deny- finding more (relatively) peaceful methods makes me feel more confident that I might actually be able to do it one day. BUT- I'd already found out about them before coming here. I knew about SN and inert gas through other sites. Even then though- I may well have just jumped if things got too bad.
These sorts of sites DON'T CAUSE people to become suicidal! It's ridiculous for people to suggest that. People's shitty lives are what bring them here. When people are determined enough- they kill themselves. No matter the restrictions. Even if they take sites like these and 'peaceful' methods away- people will STILL kill themselves!
I accept that finding more peaceful methods may make a person more readily make the decision. Still- there are STILL risks. This information isn't unique to this site though.
I actually find it pretty perverse that the 'normies' seemingly would prefer it that we are restricted to methods that are terrifying, traumatizing to others and can be catastrophic when they (sometimes likely) fail. Like- they'd obviously prefer for people to not attempt at all. Still- they know they will. So- if/ when they do- being maimed but not dying is also perfectly fine in their eyes. Like- really?!! Of course- legalizing assisted suicide would be the answer to this. Then they COULD regulate it. They could more effectively provide people help who wanted it but no- they'd rather just trap us here with the alternative of enduring a horrific death.Upvote 0
Kerrtu
Komeetta ♊︎
- May 8, 2023
- 474
This site, and its previous location on Reddit, has kept me going, which is annoying actually - wtf, SaSu. Stop being such a supportive community! I could've been gone YEARS ago if it weren't for the all of this damn catharsis!
(I'm kidding - this forum has been extremely helpful and I've met some wonderful people here but the forum does not make me want to CTB. I've wanted to CTB since childhood)Upvote 1
jazzcat
dark eyed and miserable
- May 19, 2023
- 138
no, I was able to find this website in the first place because I was already suicidal, and after learning more information about methods here sadly nothing has changed for me, even if I now know that things like N and SN exist I still don't have access to them because I'm brokeUpvote 1
pthnrdnojvsc
Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
- Aug 12, 2019
- 4,192
Is that u Jeremy or a news reporter? Seems only they would think that a website would make a person suicidal.
No it takes years of life making you suffer for you to commit suicide or to even become serious about itLast edited:Upvote 1
Octopixie
If not now, when?
- Jun 26, 2023
- 18
Being suicidal helped me find this. While stuck in a crisis unit from a failed attempt I heard another patient explaining how this site teaches you to do it and pushes you to complete it
. I didn't buy her hatred for the site because it seemed irrational and driven by grief from her bf's death. I was looking for ways to make sure this time will be the last time when I remembered the name. The only thing it's done for me is help me to work out my plan and eliminate risks.Upvote 0
No, not at all! To me suicide was always and will always be a legal option for myself under certain circumstances. I chose my preferred method long before I even knew about SaSu.Upvote 0
No--Didn't find this site til April 5th of last year, suicidal thoughts started months earlier, Jan 25th--Internet search then revealed Final Exit book and PPH book(which cost $95), everything was there in those two books on methods, and I ordered the Nitrogen in MarchLast edited:Upvote 0
BornHated
God may judge, but his sins outnumber your own.
- Nov 19, 2022
- 96
No. I've been wanting to go since I turned 10- well over a decade ago.
In fact, I can't pin down why but it's made me a little less so.
I think it's the mix of knowing out there are people who would understand and respect my situation as well as bringing to light how hard it is to ACTUALLY follow through with suicide. The thoroughness of information I've seen here helped me realize how brutal the consequence can be of a botched attempt.
This is one of the few places on earth that won't reject you- Honestly, if you're being rejected here then you're probably being a shithead on purpose.
The way literally everywhere else, mental health resources/intervention IRL included, handles my facts contributes to my suicidal ideation. This place is the only one that alleviates some of that ideation.Upvote 2
OceanBlue
Feminist
- Jun 13, 2021
- 701
Yeah, @journos/LE/psychotherapists it's life that makes people suicidal, here we can openly discuss it and find less brutal methods if we decide we've had enough. But the whole thing must become legal - we should be able to openly discuss it and not get locked up, and have access to dying with dignity in a clinic without involving bystanders and scaring/surprising unprepared friends/family. You make it worse.Upvote 1
vitbar
Escaped Lunatic
- Jun 4, 2023
- 559
I found this site because I was thinking of killing myself. I do suspect engaging here might make things bleaker for me. Like I'm aware reading about methods and planning are an added 'risk factor".Upvote 0Similar threads
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