ever so lonely

ever so lonely

terry joseph williams
Apr 17, 2022
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dont know about anybody else here but my wellness check officers were mildly insulting, you need to get out more, i said i have been officially signed off work, they said well get a hobby, suggested volunteering, i said i just dont like people, period, and they looked puzzled but said i with a straight noggin, i mean it too, i detest most people, anybody else a misanthrope through and through ?, cant say this experience helped any, they asked personal questions how long you been in the home, i said weeks, sometimes as long as months without venturing out, only if absolutely have to, dental or doctors appointments etc, shopping home delivered bills paid online, it is how i do my avoiding, these plebs looked perplexed, fuck em honestly, i just know if anybody rocks up here and tries to take what is mine and what i paid for out of my savings that i DID work for, i will throw hands, real talk, that way if they do section me, best make it worthwhile, any how sorry for the rant, i am pissed off, and correctly so, fuck these cunts.
 
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timetodie24

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Apr 14, 2023
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Wtf I'm so sorry. These 'welfare checks' are just causing so much more distress for people.
 
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LittleJem

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Jul 3, 2019
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Your police said stupid platitudes believed by people who don't understand mental illness....My bank sent the police to do a wellness check on me today and the two policemen I got were both really nice and also really understood mental illness. More than most people I have met. Your ones just didn't get it. Like one of them understood that a new medication might just put me to bed for a month. How many people acknowledge that.

I've met lots of policemen who really pissed me off last year, but now I just think it is my illness pissing me off and these people just play their roles. To check up on lunatics like me, evict lunatics like me and keep the veneer of polite society. Whatever. Then you get the news about the lack of justice for rapists and paedos, but the police care less about that then following me around.

I don't like being around people much - I am anti-social unless I have had weed, and even then quite anti-social. I also find a lot of people that I know annoying - probably because they are annoying - so then I have to fake being nice to people when really they are annoying me. I am lonely when alone and grumpy round others. There's no way to win it.
ps I honestly don't know what a wellness check is for. I mean you or me could CTB before or after the police arrive, so it is really quite a silly thing.
 
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tiny_dancer

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Aug 23, 2022
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Oh WOW, why didn't we all just think to get a hobby or volunteer?? The cure for suicidality right here! Fucking brilliant!
 
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PurpleParadigm

The glow is an illusion
Mar 22, 2023
201
One of the lads, who was the senior officer, upon seeing I got myself some McDicks - "I see you got some McDonalds so, you must be doing alright". No officer, I'm not, I used to COOK, I love cooking, just can't fucking do it anymore, I get takeout because I'm NOT doing alright.

This was at the start of the exchange though when they were in their initial "drug bust" mode. After the dust settled and I had the chance to explain what's up, the guy seemed actually remorceful, apologized for interrupting my dinner, handed me the McDonalds from the kitchen stand saying it's good I feel better now.

So yeah, a bit awkward.
 
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PoisonousPotato

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Feb 1, 2023
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there's a reason why cops are not therapists. fck em.
 
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Rogue Proxy

Rogue Proxy

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Sep 12, 2021
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The only ones who need "to get out more" are the cops - more specifically, get their heads out of their asses more. The methane is clearly destroying their remaining brain cells.
 
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just_so_done

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Apr 16, 2023
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Oh WOW, why didn't we all just think to get a hobby or volunteer?? The cure for suicidality right here! Fucking brilliant!
Imagine all the money I could have saved from over 30 failed meds, years of therapy, treatments, etc if i just had a hobby! wish i knew that sooner lol. they're so ignorant.
 
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AndroidAmongHumans

Full Bodily Autonomy is non-negotiable
Apr 27, 2023
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Oh WOW, why didn't we all just think to get a hobby or volunteer?? The cure for suicidality right here! Fucking brilliant!
Honestly most suicidal people I've met in physical or digital spaces have a ton of hobbies, and we're just as likely to do volunteer work as anyone else. speaking from experience I have almost a dozen hobbies/interests, that doesn't help me to not be suicidal or to not spend all day rotting in bed instead of doing literally anything else.
 
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sulli

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Jan 25, 2023
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yeah they also told me to join the military to escape my family. just seems like CTB with extra steps
 
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AndroidAmongHumans

Full Bodily Autonomy is non-negotiable
Apr 27, 2023
27
yeah they also told me to join the military to escape my family. just seems like CTB with extra steps
ah yes, don't kill yourself in the comfort of your own space, with your sense of individuality and personality in tact, taking yourself out of the workforce and the consumer market to pander to. instead, you should join an organization famous for hazing and losing one's individual traits through haircuts and uniforms, potentially get assaulted by "comrades" depending on how toxic your individual unit is, shoot some civilians because they were in the same general area as a suspected terrorist, and then get killed or disabled permanently because then your death helps "the country" so that people at the top of the hierarchy can make more money on your grave.
 
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ever so lonely

ever so lonely

terry joseph williams
Apr 17, 2022
282
Thank you lovely peoples for replying, I rly do appreciate it, so you know what I noticed with pro lifers people, or people with the agenda of keeping us here in this torture meat prison, is they dont like people who can think for themselves, like us, ever notice this patronising almost condescending tone from them ? like they dont like people who can weigh up the pros and cons of deciding what is best for themselves whether to live or die, they assume it a cry for help or some such ish, thy simply cannot fathom why would somebody opt out, or maybe they can but are oblivious, you can tell this by how they look at you, and engage with you, they have contempt for your views of being pro choice, but they cant outwardly show it, I have contempt for them and there *life is an inherent gift rhetoric* if you ask me guys life is nothing but a gift, I feel that is a very pretentious view that writes off people that are struggling yet being kept here against there will, i rly loved these responses, that is what I love about this site we al on the same page the same wavelength no judgments, no put downs, we validate eachother and yet most of us have never even met, this site is my fave, thank you, and agree with the comments for sure, I swear they dont even like us because we dare to go against the grain, notice throughout shitty human history, anybody who thought clearly, coherently, and away from the pack, anybody who could think for themselves was often ostracised, or invalidated, fast forward to today and how far have we come as a society really, when many of us here feel a similar way, this system is a cruel unjust corrupt troublesome shit hole, designed to create perpetual misery, that allows no freedom of thought, no exorcising your right to self determination, clearly it aint working for them, if it did there would be no or next to no incidences of suicides reported, but we know the opposite, what we know is that there ever growing and climbing, I cant imagine why ?, this society is hell, i feel bad for people in general, we get a shitty raw deal and cant even complain about it, at least for some of us they never got our sn, so wasted trip for them if that was there purpose, lol
 
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rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
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Sorry this happened to you. Nobody deserves this. You're right. It's insulting the way people with serious problems get spoken down to. Not up to posting much but just want to say I get it.
 
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LittleJem

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Jul 3, 2019
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Your bank ?
yes, they made it really hard for me to do a bank transfe
Your bank ?
They put me on hold for about an hour - I was trying to do a bank transfer to pay for some stuff I need. My wifi had failed so I'd gone to a cafe. I hate their hold music. Then they fraud checked me and just kept putting me on hold. I'd taken two weed gummies just to get out of bed - cost of £10, and then the cafe had a waffle (cos the gummies) then the longer they kept me there on hold a hot chocolate. Then they asked what I was ordering and I didn't know what to say cos it's medicine. But I should have said vitamins I guess. I just panicked. I asked if it could just say 'goods' and they said no...On reflection, they were going to fraud check the transfer. It's just the hold music I hate it so much. If I was well enough I would leave this bank. And as for what the transfer was for, I wish I had thought more quickly. I lost it because I'd been put on hold so many times and kept saying I was disabled and found the hold music really stressful. So by the time they were asking me what it was for, I had a rant about my suicidal thoughts and how I was just trying to get this one transfer done.

Then they put me on hold again and then told me they were sending the police to do a welfare check on me. I told them they had my dad's address on file and I wasn't there - and tried to give them my location instead - but they didn't listen to that. I also queried why they were sending the police to do a welfare check for a condition I have all day every day which is already listed on my account with them as my long-standing condition. they didn't listen to a word I said. That led to me swearing a lot. I had to apologise to the cafe owner.. I left the bank and basically swore at this man at the bank for about ten minutes, trying to tell him it was the wrong address and that he was a f__king idiot. I then called the bank again to speak to their disability team, who tried to deal with it. They understood I didn't have current intent for example. But then they said that the bank had to send the police or something. To the wrong address!

So basically they sent the police (it was apparently two police cars) to my dad's house. He wasn't there. I don't live there. The police apparently climbed over his garage and also knocked on the door of all the neighbours. I had already called the police in the meantime to say that the welfare check was a waste of time and also to give them the address I was actually at. At least they didn't fall through the roof of the garage or break into my dad's house.

The police did then come to the address I had given them afterwards -by that time, one police car, two policemen. They were perfectly nice. They were nicer than any psychiatrist I have met. More compassionate and more understanding of mental illness.

I honestly don't know what the purpose of the police is - that they spend this time doing these stupid welfare checks, when if someone actually needs them because they got burgled or raped or robbed I don't think they would show up.
 
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