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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
I fear SN because no one talk about failure & consequences of failure.

I know that hanging can paralyze & brain damage me... Is SN really 100% safe to fail?

I need to know from people who survived SN.

How much & how long did you suffer after leaving the goodbye post...

Health effects?

Permanent damage?

I'm terrified & need to know. Stan mention some side effects that are scary. But... I guess if someone us a vegetable or oaralyzed or agonized fir a week with dead kidneys... they can't come to warn us...

I need to know. I always get the worst outcomes. I need to know what it will be.

I don't mean to poop on a good thing, or scare into pro life choices...

I need to know if I can bear the consequences of failing... I need to know what they are. Desperately.

I need horrir stories to compare with hanging's horror stories... Then I'll know if it's better or if I should just go partial hang again...

Thank you...
Someone said that he noticed people sneak back in with another account after a goodbye post. It haunts me... We need to know if it failed. Please tell me.
 
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freedompass

freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
768
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156

Nothing here? I have seen quite a few posts of failed SN attempts, it does happen. I haven't heard horror stories as such.
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156

Nothing here? I have seen quite a few posts of failed SN attempts, it does happen. I haven't heard horror stories as such.
Please tell me the stories? I kinda lack the courage to read entire mega threads.
 
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Enoughnow

Experienced
Feb 1, 2022
206
I had a failed sn attempt because I didn't fast before so I threw it all up I have no issues now though I've had liver and kidney tests that's been fine I remember reading some people who had failed and said they were having bladder problems but didn't go into detail but I've not had any issues xx
I had a failed sn attempt because I didn't fast before so I threw it all up I have no issues now though I've had liver and kidney tests that's been fine I remember reading some people who had failed and said they were having bladder problems but didn't go into detail but I've not had any issues xx
Also I didn't have meto
 
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makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
I'm not afraid of it, I failed to secure the right compound. I got Sodium Nitrate not nitrite, Damnit! So now I'll have to try AGAIN, to acquire the correct stuff,!
 
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iltloml

Member
Aug 25, 2022
81
I had a failed sn attempt because I didn't fast before so I threw it all up I have no issues now though I've had liver and kidney tests that's been fine I remember reading some people who had failed and said they were having bladder problems but didn't go into detail but I've not had any issues xx

Also I didn't have meto
What was the aftermath like? Did you recover right away?
 
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freelifexit

freelifexit

Specialist
Nov 7, 2021
391
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-successful-and-unsuccessful.30211/

Jen0804: SN mixed with orange juice. After effects – alopecia, hair started coming out within that same week and continued until June. It's slowly growing back now, periods stopped completely so I believe it can mess up hormones/endocrine - not sure about long term fertility or male fertility etc., immediately after taking it and the whole two weeks after, my kidneys and bowels just weren't functioning, also couldn't feel hunger. I ate an apple and two bites of a hospital sandwich for a whole week or so (drank as normal) but I was so not hungry.
 
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Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
There have even been lists dedicated to the failures of SN. Each showing what the person took, and what the person felt including aftermath. Use your search function. No method is 100% fool proof. You stated before that hanging sounds best for you. Are you having second thoughts about that?
 
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Enoughnow

Experienced
Feb 1, 2022
206
What was the aftermath like? Did you recover right away?
My back where my kidneys hurt for a few months still do occasionally but I did do bloods and they said function is fine so I'm not sure why I get that pain I'd say the worst of it was about a week really I do still get this ringing in my ears almost everyday since but otherwise it was pretty quick healing
It was alot of pain in my stomach though but I have ibs so it doesn't take much to cause stomach pains even eating garlic and drinking coffee can be excruciating for me so if you have any pre existing stomach problems it may boy be the way to go but otherwise we have people successfully end there lives in the uk this way on a regular basis
 
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freelifexit

freelifexit

Specialist
Nov 7, 2021
391
SN poisoning consequences according to this Russian article (first two paragraphs on page 6).

"In severe cases of intoxication due to degenerative changes in erythrocytes and a decrease in their resistance, hemolysis and secondary hemolytic anemia occur (on the 3-5th day after poisoning). In this case, hemoglobinuria, kidney damage (nephropathy with varying degrees of acute renal failure) and liver damage (toxic hepatopathy) can be observed. Severe acute vascular insufficiency (nitrite shock), coma, pulmonary edema may develop. The clinical picture of poisoning is highly variable. In some cases, changes in the respiratory organs come to the fore, in others - in the cardiovascular and central nervous systems, in others - in the blood system."
 
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iltloml

Member
Aug 25, 2022
81
SN poisoning consequences according to this Russian article (first two paragraphs on page 6).

"In severe cases of intoxication due to degenerative changes in erythrocytes and a decrease in their resistance, hemolysis and secondary hemolytic anemia occur (on the 3-5th day after poisoning). In this case, hemoglobinuria, kidney damage (nephropathy with varying degrees of acute renal failure) and liver damage (toxic hepatopathy) can be observed. Severe acute vascular insufficiency (nitrite shock), coma, pulmonary edema may develop. The clinical picture of poisoning is highly variable. In some cases, changes in the respiratory organs come to the fore, in others - in the cardiovascular and central nervous systems, in others - in the blood system."
Those Russians are trying to fear mongering us into living
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-successful-and-unsuccessful.30211/

Jen0804: SN mixed with orange juice. After effects – alopecia, hair started coming out within that same week and continued until June. It's slowly growing back now, periods stopped completely so I believe it can mess up hormones/endocrine - not sure about long term fertility or male fertility etc., immediately after taking it and the whole two weeks after, my kidneys and bowels just weren't functioning, also couldn't feel hunger. I ate an apple and two bites of a hospital sandwich for a whole week or so (drank as normal) but I was so not hungry.
Thank you precious.

I thought you were into hanging. Was it a quote from the thread or you actually tried SN, suffered for 2 weeks, and tried to warn that it's not the magic bus? That's even more horrifying to bully you if you spoke from hurt experiences and not just being good at researching data. *Hugs* I think you're awesome
There have even been lists dedicated to the failures of SN. Each showing what the person took, and what the person felt including aftermath. Use your search function. No method is 100% fool proof. You stated before that hanging sounds best for you. Are you having second thoughts about that?
Yes, having 2nd thoughts about partial hanging. Failed 3 times. Have neck injury & brain damage from being hit by a car while crossing the street (his mistake) so worsening it scare me. I could end up paralyzed & mute from full hanging.

If SN has no risk of brain damage I'm tempted. But not 8h of vomit agony AND failure.

I really need to know.

Is the cult just blind faith or actual salvation. I want peaceful goodbyes while I pass out, I want to drink the coolaid with you instead to hang in distress all alone.

If I change me method you didn't kill me, you helped me suffer less while doing it.

But unless we allow people to share failures without accusations & bullying, we can't know uf a supplier and method is reliable. The censorship really worries me...
SN poisoning consequences according to this Russian article (first two paragraphs on page 6).

"In severe cases of intoxication due to degenerative changes in erythrocytes and a decrease in their resistance, hemolysis and secondary hemolytic anemia occur (on the 3-5th day after poisoning). In this case, hemoglobinuria, kidney damage (nephropathy with varying degrees of acute renal failure) and liver damage (toxic hepatopathy) can be observed. Severe acute vascular insufficiency (nitrite shock), coma, pulmonary edema may develop. The clinical picture of poisoning is highly variable. In some cases, changes in the respiratory organs come to the fore, in others - in the cardiovascular and central nervous systems, in others - in the blood system."
Terrifying but very logical.

Thank you everyone for sharing stories in spite of the risk of being attacked by people who'd rather fail in blissful ignorance than plan for the downsides.

I think I could bear kidney failure by failed SN more easily than getting even more brain damaged by rope... But I wish I could just rope out. What do you trust more?
Those Russians are trying to fear mongering us into living
Nothing is more discouraging than a failed suicide attempts. Maybe it's people encouraging us in using poisons, the most failed method, who are the pro lifers.

Why else would they refuse to hear about gruesome details if they welcome death as a part of life?

Pro lifers are in denial. They will die.

Anyone in denial of dark truth have very little credibility to me. From personal experience, shit have more chance to go wrong than right. This site would be empty if we had a 100% sure peaceful way.

Gas is way better but I can't afford it.

I saw death so many times... Survived... I need to know how to make sure SN works from people who failed then succeded... But they're dead
 
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soontobedone

soontobedone

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Feb 27, 2023
314
Thank you precious.

I thought you were into hanging. Was it a quote from the thread or you actually tried SN, suffered for 2 weeks, and tried to warn that it's not the magic bus? That's even more horrifying to bully you if you spoke from hurt experiences and not just being good at researching data. *Hugs* I think you're awesome

Yes, having 2nd thoughts about partial hanging. Failed 3 times. Have neck injury & brain damage from being hit by a car while crossing the street (his mistake) so worsening it scare me. I could end up paralyzed & mute from full hanging.

If SN has no risk of brain damage I'm tempted. But not 8h of vomit agony AND failure.

I really need to know.

Is the cult just blind faith or actual salvation. I want peaceful goodbyes while I pass out, I want to drink the coolaid with you instead to hang in distress all alone.

If I change me method you didn't kill me, you helped me suffer less while doing it.

But unless we allow people to share failures without accusations & bullying, we can't know uf a supplier and method is reliable. The censorship really worries me...

Terrifying but very logical.

Thank you everyone for sharing stories in spite of the risk of being attacked by people who'd rather fail in blissful ignorance than plan for the downsides.

I think I could bear kidney failure by failed SN more easily than getting even more brain damaged by rope... But I wish I could just rope out. What do you trust more?

Nothing is more discouraging than a failed suicide attempts. Maybe it's people encouraging us in using poisons, the most failed method, who are the pro lifers.

Why else would they refuse to hear about gruesome details if they welcome death as a part of life?

Pro lifers are in denial. They will die.

Anyone in denial of dark truth have very little credibility to me. From personal experience, shit have more chance to go wrong than right. This site would be empty if we had a 100% sure peaceful way.

Gas is way better but I can't afford it.

I saw death so many times... Survived... I need to know how to make sure SN works from people who failed then succeded... But they're dead
Yes! Would be empty :)
 

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