Discussion Did anyone expect life to feel so bad at some point?..

[_Minsk]

I didn't, i wish did ctb earlier but tried to keep going and it has just become worse

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I have never wanted to live and my life has always been suffering, but in the past I did not know how bad things could really get. There was no way of knowing. There is no limit as to how much we can suffer in this life and that is one of the most horrifying parts about living. If we think we have it bad now, it can get so much worse. That is why I wish I was never born.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Not really. I was "healthy" and "normal" until I was 23.

 

[Foresight]

No. I had no idea as a teen how bad it could be. I bought into a lot of bullshit. Work hard and everything will be okay, love and kindness conquers all, there's a God looking out for us.

What a miserable place this is. It really is. I feel like if you tally up all the misery, fear and physical pain from all sentient beings in one day vs all the joy and happiness you'll see the clear winner.

 

[1TorturedByLife]

I didn't, i wish did ctb earlier but tried to keep going and it has just become worse

Not in my worst nightmares. But, it wasn't until I was awakened to the horrors of the world, especially for non-human beings, when I went from a clueless vegetarian to a grieving vegan. I'm just glad I chose not to breed and subject another innocent being to this hell on earth, which will continue to become even more hellish every minute.

 

[Capsaicin78]

I didn't expect life to feel so bad either. The worst part is that it can still go downhill. There is no limit.

 

[MementoMori81]

Most definitely not. I've felt it before, yet continued, had some respite, then back again. For me at least, it's confirmation that life is fundamentally suffering, interspersed with a peppering of happiness which, by it's very introduction exponentially increases the odds of renewed suffering.

The big question is, can I tolerate that? Is it something I find acceptable to myself as an individual to keep going over, in a cyclical fashion until the end? That's the big question for me

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Could not possibly imagine this would happen… I think the fear was always lurking below the surface… At a certain point about a year and a half ago I remember doing Psychedelicmushrooms and "staring into the abyss "… Realizing there was something very black waiting for me… But that my conscious mind would find a way to rationalize away… And yet it came to this… The logical conclusion of a very damaged soul…

 

[novem]

I've always known that i would not live till retirement. I just tried not to think about the details.

 

[LookingforAnswers]

Not one bit up until 30 things were going swimmingly for me

Now the amount of suffering i experience daily is immense

 

[Risperdead]

not expected it, but now sure it will get much worse with every day. my life is ruined since forced psychiatry treatment back in 2009.
Capsaicin78 said it, expect life to get worse , There is no limit of suffering.

 

[Painless_end]

Definitely not. I was devastated when I first felt how inadequate I was in front of the challenges of life.

I kept hoping that one of two things would happen : either I would get better at handling stuff or I would die.

I didn't die, and while I have gotten somewhat better at handling life, in the bigger picture, I'm still in deep unending trouble. Because I could not do what I actually needed to do, to have the life that I really should have lived.

I gave up and since then my life has been hell.

 

[lostmylove]

Honestly there are low points that you are never told about growing up.

You're filled with 'perusing happiness' and given a view of the world that will never match reality.

What you aren't told is there is no 'rock bottom' things can be unbelievably worse, to levels you don't even expect.

I never expected things to get this bad, and there is no evidence that it will stop becoming even worse.

 

[LastBusStop]

When I was younger I always thought everything will somehow work out in the end, as if some external force will pay attention to me and come save me because I'm that special. The worst is not knowing what's coming it can always get worse; homelessness, poor physical health, poverty, etc. I can't think about it.