Discussion Did any of you have killing thoughts?

[ilvgore]

i did.
people that harmed me were in those fantasies.
i had control over the situations and it brought me some satisfaction...

 

[CatLvr]

Nope. Prison never was that appealing to me.

 

[SVEN]

Only of myself.

 

[Knoc]

Only of myself.

You beat me to It, dam.

 

[Droso]

Surprised at the 50/50 split between yes and no. I thought yes would be higher. I guess it depends on what you define "homicidal thoughts" as.

 

[SVEN]

You beat me to It, dam.

1st ever victory of my life ... YAY @ me.

 

[bankai]

Yes, of course. Just like anyone else. And anyone who says otherwise Is lying.Everyone thinks about it. We don't do it. That's what fantasies are. It gives us the option of imagining how it would be if it happened. But we don't do it.

 

[willitpass]

No because harming/killing other people is the exact opposite of autonomy and choice, which is what this entire site is predicated on.

Yes, of course. Just like anyone else. And anyone who says otherwise Is lying.Everyone thinks about it. We don't do it. That's what fantasies are. It gives us the option of imagining how it would be if it happened. But we don't do it.

No, I can confidently say I have no fantasies about hurting or killing others.

 

[Andrew10]

I choose other. I have an entire list of people who were shitty to me, I would dare say that 90% of the people I have met in my life were horrible to me, I still remember things from the past in my teen years. I had those thoughts but after so much, I realized there is no purpose in having that kind of fantasies, I can understand the satisfaction that some may generate, but for me, I hate this world itself, in most cases they are only mental scenarios in which I am giving that person time in my mind and even if that happens, what good is it to me that someone suffers if that satisfaction is simply going to be temporary and then I will continue living without a life? Whether they suffer or not, I will continue to be at the same point. I lost interest in so many things that I saw that were not worth it, they are irrelevant to me, I am no longer interested in anything, all I want is to disappear

The only person I can think of who would get something horrible is my father, I save the words to describe him and even though I am currently physically stronger than him and I know many ways to ruin his life, I consider that my life is only a weapon to hurt him, I know that this will hurt him beyond repair and that my ctb will the result of the consequences of many of his actions. More than a fantasy, it will be something inevitable that will happen sooner or later and honestly, more than hate or satisfaction, I would consider it a reality check of the result of his actions.

For anyone who has dedicated themselves to reading this completely, I want you to know that I appreciate you for that . A hug from Spain and I wish you the best on your journey. Bye!

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

I've had fantasies of murdering my father especially when I was younger and he was let's just say meaner. Death is too good for him though so I'd rather he keep living, also prison isn't a good idea. Even less freedom than I already have isn't good.

Also just as I believe that forcing someone to live against their will is against my beliefs, so is forcing someone to die against their will.
I believe death is too good for too many, i'd rather they suffer through life. So I have many more violent fantasies than homocidal fantacies.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Yes. I'm not comfortable saying that, but trying to be honest.

 

[Rynalia]

I have had a history of homicidal ideation. Or so I've been told.

 

[deadstillwalking]

unless we are talking about intrusive thoughts, no. Beating someone up at best, drawing the line there.

 

[Forever Sleep]

No, I just wanted to get away. Weirdly, people still insist on keeping me in the loop about their news. When it's bad, I think they hope I'll feel some sort of karma. But, I don't. I don't actively wish ill on them. I simply want the chance to forget them entirely.

Having said that, I'm no saint. I expect I would retaliate now if provoked. Not murder though...

 

[Andrew10]

I've had fantasies of murdering my father especially when I was younger and he was let's just say meaner. Death is too good for him though so I'd rather he keep living, also prison isn't a good idea. Even less freedom than I already have isn't good.

Also just as I believe that forcing someone to live against their will is against my beliefs, so is forcing someone to die against their will.
I believe death is too good for too many, i'd rather they suffer through life. So I have many more violent fantasies than homocidal fantacies.

I also completely agree, just as I hate that someone is forced to live against their will, I also hate the idea of someone who wants to live leaving this world no matter how much they hate that person, their life is their life and no matter how much I hate that person, I have no right to take away something that has no influence on me, this is another reason that I also add to the list, I want to catch my bus, I consider leaving this world as a gift, catching my bus is my opportunity and fantasizing about causing a homicide to another would be like buy a ticket for my bus and give it to a person I hate, why would someone I don't like give something as precious as eternal peace? Apart from that I would stay in this world that I hate so much with worse consequences while the person that I hate would rest in peace, they would win and I would lose in the end.

The only person I am going to kill will be myself, the bus to peace is for me, I want my eternal peace, I am not going to give that luxury to someone I hate, for me this is pointless, its my ticket and i will catch my bus.

 

[Subhumano]

Sometimes but nothing serious, its mostly just daydreaming

 

[Apathy79]

I've had the thoughts. Sometimes with people I don't even know at all. In fact usually that's the case. Like I read a story the other day where a group of people broke into a lady's house. Bashed her 8 year old to death with a baseball bat while she was forced to watch, kidnapped and tortured her, then burned her alive.

And I thought to myself there is literally no torture too horrible for these people. Death would be too much of a relief. I'd want to break every single bone in their body one by one. Do things that cause excruciating pain and slowly deform and cripple them in unimaginable ways, but not death. That's too good. They need to stay in that state for a long time. Live through it. And doing these things would feel like the right thing to do. Almost saintly in its intent.

I don't think those thoughts are healthy. I don't like that side of myself. And fortunately no-one irl would ever hear me say what they were. But I admit they exist. And I bet the subconscious ones are even worse.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Only aimed at a certain humans who are harming our entire planet and species at large.

 

[Pale_Rider]

No, but the rest of the world has those fantasys.