Desperately want to CTB

[Autumn_Stars]

I'm alone today because my BF's daughter doesn't like me. Gorging myself on pie. 160# due to medication. OBGYN appointment tomorrow AM. No libido since autoimmune flare four years ago. Revolting odor. Lost interest in books and drawings. Lower IQ due to too many lesions on my brain. Help me out family. I take lithium for bipolar disorder. 300mg 121 pills.. I don't want to hang myself and it's my only option. Could I get drunk and overdose and put a bag or duct tape over my mouth? I know it's a not very successful method but I want to overdose and go to sleep in my bed. Forever.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm sorry you are feeling like this. Actually, I'm sorry you have to live like this everyday! Your plan I highly doubt will work with the pills. I tried pills so many times, don't waste your medication. I understand and empathize with you. The immediate need to want to escape this reality can make us believe anything will work in that moment.

 

[GoSan1]

I'm alone today because my BF's daughter doesn't like me. Gorging myself on pie. 160# due to medication. OBGYN appointment tomorrow AM. No libido since autoimmune flare four years ago. Revolting odor. Lost interest in books and drawings. Lower IQ due to too many lesions on my brain. Help me out family. I take lithium for bipolar disorder. 300mg 121 pills.. I don't want to hang myself and it's my only option. Could I get drunk and overdose and put a bag or duct tape over my mouth? I know it's a not very successful method but I want to overdose and go to sleep in my bed. Forever.

I am sorry it has gotten this far for you. Its just oh so cruel all of this pain. Id recommend you to look into the Sodium Nitrite method, it is quiet painless compared to other and if done correctly pretty lethal...

I truly wish your situation gets better of for you to find that deserved peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to be gone, ceasing to exist is all I personally hope for, I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you are looking for.

 

[Autumn_Stars]

OK I'm an illiterate idiot. Using other search qualifiers I learned that you're less than 1% to succeed with lithium. It is a natural salt. I tried looking into SN but it seems difficult to get a hold of. If you have any sources in the US that would be great. In the room my BF is letting me stay in there are two metal pipes. Maybe I can hang myself from one of them. Thanks for understanding my pain.

 

[L'absent]

That's not wise at all. If you want to die you have to plan everything carefully. Otherwise you risk doing things that will cause you further pain and the risk of no longer being able to be the architect of your destiny.

 

[Autumn_Stars]

Is this the item? https://ingredi.com/sodium-nitrite-...-72ZWi5KKQxHIptT6RV7p8fwL9rol5uURNz3kp0uxe4Lk Please help me not waste my money and time. Please.