Help desperate

[ChronicLoser]

Really want to CTB tonight, but all my attempts have failed.
I've had about 6hrs of attempts total, 5 being night night, 1 being partial hanging.
I don't care how anymore, I just need to be gone before the sun rises.
What are some fast at home methods that are low resources and not too noisy?
Can't SWB, don't have Sn, stupidly only bought 17L of nitrogen...

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe what you are asking for is too good to be true sadly. Suicide just isn't that straightforward, it would be such a relief if we could just easily have the option to cease existing whenever we wish to. But anyway it must be awful going through failed attempts, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[ChronicLoser]

I believe what you are asking for is too good to be true sadly. Suicide just isn't that straightforward, it would be such a relief if we could just easily have the option to cease existing whenever we wish to. But anyway it must be awful going through failed attempts, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

Why is it so hard to die :(
I'll just keep trying the two methods I have... One day it has to work... right?
It does hurt to know that I am once again a failure, but at this point in my life I'm used to it, so I'll just keep trying and failing til one day I'm not a failure anymore.
Thank you