Venting desperate times: desperate measures

[thronesick]

at my school there's an officer well two they carry real guns and as my ctb plan runs short ( hanging {no where to hang} carbon monoxide {too expensive too complicated} and jumping {might survive don't know how to get on the top of a building in a city.) i'm desperate and i'm running out of ways. i've been impulsively thinking of getting in a altercation with one and taking their gun to shoot myself but if it goes faulty i get expelled and admitted into a facility. i have no one to talk me out of it and i'm sorry it's a stupid a plan but i don't know what else to do my dads out of state he's the only person i'd be able to access a gun from or the police officer that's my neighbor.

 

[soonnotkoei]

are you planning on stealing the officer's gun and running away or grabbing their gun and shooting yourself right then and there? firstly, i would completely rule out this plan, too unpredictable. but if it was a last resort, I'd snatch the gun, run away to a place where I'll have some time until someone finds me and then do the deed. but idk, me saying it and playing it out in my head feels stupid too.