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hmnow

hmnow

Experienced
Jul 29, 2025
295
I want to keep it simple

I just wake up. Watch th sun come up while sitting on the porch

I walk down to the cottage door. A rope has been set up the night before

I hang myseld in the bottom large doorway as the sun rises above the hill
 
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kmycluisfe

kmycluisfe

"I’m a pluviophile"
Mar 8, 2023
66
My ideal last day would be something like

Get up, treat myself with my favorite meal and then just paint. Paint my last thought

At night I would go out, walk a bit into the nearest park, drink my sn there and listen to music laying on the ground in the middle of the forest looking at the star
 
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Freedomm

Freedomm

Student
Aug 2, 2025
183
It's a normal day, as boring as any other. All i have to do is starve, take paracetamol, suprastin and sleeping pills. And go on a road trip.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,487
For me it'd just be that I finally get to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this cruel, torturous existence ever again, all I hope for is a death like never waking ever again so finally I can be at peace from this deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result, all I wish for is to peacefully cease existing, no matter what I'd never wish to exist.
 
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usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
Dec 22, 2021
308
I was going to go on a road trip the month before. I'm changing it to a week before, but I might not even do that.

On the day I'm going to go into the city to get drunk, take an uber to the area where the park I plan to ctb is, and take a walk to the park. Maybe walk around or walk in the creek one last time.

Other than that, I'm not doing anything special, there's no real point.
 

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