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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
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Medications are doing more harm than good. I feel as if a dark cloud is over me.... seeking my doom. I have been trying to recover but I really don't know if there is a solution to the level of depression that I experience. Have tried many things over the years.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
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HI! Reading your post, reminds me, of me, sometimes. I have had massive depression all my life and most of the times it is ok, but there are times that the sun does not shine for me.

We are all the same, BUT also different in how we act, react and deal with aspects of life and other experiences. For me, I have tried various things through my life and for me, SS is a huge part of it, as everyone here is so kind, caring and UNDERSTANDING and I care about you a lot and want the best for you period.

I drink green tea, have a quit place for me to mediate. I have never smoked, nor do I drink, I cannot drink as I take so many prescription drugs. I take Celexa, have for almost 10 years and it works ok. I know towards the afternoon if I have not taken it as everything starts going haywire.

Hope you find the correct meds and/or dosage.

I am an ultra-firm believer in hand in hand, shoulder to shoulder and everyone here is like family to me and I want the best for you.

Please have a great Friday and an awesome weekend filled with sunny blue skies, soft warm breezes, good food and drink and all the loving souls here.

Walter
 
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NotSureToEndure

NotSureToEndure

Professor of not a lot
Aug 17, 2020
114
Anti depressants have made me more suicidal in the past before too, and have normally come with more side effects than problems that they 'cure'. I'm not saying to not try them, as for some people they can be life changing, however for me I don't think they are right.

You can try taking a smaller dose (speak to Dr first though). It may also be possible you are still adjusting to the drugs if you're new to them or have recently increased dose. I think they can take while to 'settle'.

Good luck, I hope you find something that works for you. Whatever you do always step up or down slowly with anti depressants because they are powerful things, whether for good or for worse.
 
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Imissyoumydarling

a very majestic chicken cat
May 7, 2022
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I got very lucky with my medication and the first SSRI I tried (escitalopram/Lexapro) helped calm all the fight/flight screaming voices in my head.

It never helped with depression, but it certainly helped calm the panic. I think a big part of it is because i desperately wanted it to work and placebos work well on me. However over the years it's been diminishing in effect.

I very recently discovered that taking some simple magnesium pills (5HTP free ones that don't interfere with SSRI) right after taking my Lexapro makes a huge huge huge difference. Apparently it's a thing, mixing those two. It works better than my frickin benzos. I feel calm... And nothing at the same time. Which is the best I can realistically ask for.

I'm sorry medication isn't working for you and the dark cloud is around but if by any chance you're on something similar and placebos affect you too, try it out.

Love.
 
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symphony

surving hour-by-hour
Mar 12, 2022
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I hear you. So sorry you have to fight through that. It's awful to be told over and over that "there is hope for your depression!!!" and then find none in practice.

So many people say antidepressants made things worse for them, but honestly I've never noticed anything from them at all.
 
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befree

Time to do more enjoyable things _____Goodbye_____
Mar 22, 2022
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If you want you can try the all natural amino acid "L-Phenylalanine" between meals and never with protein.
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
I'm in the same boat. I still haven't found a treatment that works on my depression. Medications may work for a short time and then the dark cloud comes right back over. I still can't get the suicidal thoughts out of my head. I truly feel like I'm crazy. Some of the other treatments are to expensive.
 
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PurpleBrownie

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May 19, 2022
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I feel your pain. I have treatment resistant depression. Went through about 4 years of trying one medication after another and nothing worked. Gave up after a terrible psychiatrist kept wanting to put me on Xanax after I told her I didn't want to because it's addictive and I don't suffer from anxiety. That was 10 years ago and haven't been on any treatment since. The depression keeps worsening, to the point where I finally registered on this site. I'm considering ketamine infusions, ECT, TMS. But part of me is afraid those won't work, either, that I'm doomed to feel this way.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,603
I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably. I know that it is dreadful when everything seems so hopeless. I can imagine that it must be so tiring to try and for nothing to help. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens, I wish you the best.
 
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