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fieryending

fieryending

FIRE! FIRE! FIRE!
Oct 3, 2019
92
I really don't like my guardian. She found journals of mine that I wrote when I was really sad and I talked about how I wanted to kill myself. She didn't just read them, I might have been able to deal with that. Shes sending fucking pictures of it people. She would never understand how doing that could make someone more suicidal than they already are. I have never been surer than now that I'm gonna do it. The absolute worst thing that could happen is being reborn in this exact life. I might be able to deal with a different one, but if I get sent back here I'll just go through the loop and kill myself again. The best thing that could happen is a total loss of consciousness forever. No more emotions, thoughts, pain, fears, not even boredom from a black abyss. That would be heaven.
 
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I'm un a mess

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I agree peace forever if there will be nothing
 
ChristopherWalken

ChristopherWalken

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Aug 15, 2019
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I really don't like my guardian. She found journals of mine that I wrote when I was really sad and I talked about how I wanted to kill myself. She didn't just read them, I might have been able to deal with that. Shes sending fucking pictures of it people. She would never understand how doing that could make someone more suicidal than they already are. I have never been surer than now that I'm gonna do it. The absolute worst thing that could happen is being reborn in this exact life. I might be able to deal with a different one, but if I get sent back here I'll just go through the loop and kill myself again. The best thing that could happen is a total loss of consciousness forever. No more emotions, thoughts, pain, fears, not even boredom from a black abyss. That would be heaven.
That was really shitty of her and if any of the people she sent it to have any sense they will think the same thing and ask her wtf was she thinking.
 
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ProlongedSentence

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Mar 14, 2019
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I really don't like my guardian. She found journals of mine that I wrote when I was really sad and I talked about how I wanted to kill myself. She didn't just read them, I might have been able to deal with that. Shes sending fucking pictures of it people. She would never understand how doing that could make someone more suicidal than they already are. I have never been surer than now that I'm gonna do it. The absolute worst thing that could happen is being reborn in this exact life. I might be able to deal with a different one, but if I get sent back here I'll just go through the loop and kill myself again. The best thing that could happen is a total loss of consciousness forever. No more emotions, thoughts, pain, fears, not even boredom from a black abyss. That would be heaven.
Yes.
I wanna go to the Place Before Heartbeat.
I believe it exists for souls.
My soul deserves to finally rest there.
This time on Earth has been a "life" sentence to Hell.
 
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