Venting Delayed suicide

[DignifiedGrave]

Well, its Sunday, I said if probably hang myself this weekend. I dont know that's happening. It took me a little longer than I hoped to reinforce my door frame for my noose. Though technically a single 2x3 stud my have held my weight I wanted to be certain. I actually have finished it tonight. I took a sister stud, glued it with titebond and did 2 screws, staggered, to account for the narrow nature of the 2x3, so now once its dry tomorrow it should be like one laminated stuf. I hope. I know a bit about tools and how to use them, Im not skilled though. I just have what my dad taught me... to be honest, I probably could've done it better, use more glue, make use of clamps to eliminate all spaces. I have some spaces so it probably won't really act like on stud the way I hoped but it seems to be pretty stiff and sturdy. For certain the king stud is. So I feel incredibly certain now that my weight should likely hold. Now its basically just the dying part. Ive no excuses anymore. When my day comes, ill make a thread for it.

 

[PerfectVictory]

I hope whatever is left of your life is as pleasant as possible. I'm sorry that you have to go to these measures. What do you think happens after we die? I think oblivion personally. If I do it I'll use a gun I'm not handy and don't trust hanging.

 

[DignifiedGrave]

I honestly dont think anything happens but I do wish for there to be an afterlife. Like a second chance at happiness and adventure but in another world. A much freerer one. I definitely thought about using a gun. My home has plenty of guns but I just dont want to be found that way I guess so hanging gives me a comfort of knowing that ill be recognizable upon discovery.
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You know ive always thought a lot about reincarnation. Itd be cool to live as like a well spoiled doggo or something. Or as some space creature. People always assume reincarnation is restricted to earth but whos to say aliens isn't the next life after this?

 

[PerfectVictory]

I honestly dont think anything happens but I do wish for there to be an afterlife. Like a second chance at happiness and adventure but in another world. A much freerer one. I definitely thought about using a gun. My home has plenty of guns but I just dont want to be found that way I guess so hanging gives me a comfort of knowing that ill be recognizable upon discovery.
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You know ive always thought a lot about reincarnation. Itd be cool to live as like a well spoiled doggo or something. Or as some space creature. People always assume reincarnation is restricted to earth but whos to say aliens isn't the next life after this?

I've thought about reincarnation and I do desire it. I think there is some aspect of myself or of awareness of who I am that I would like to hold on to though. I really like the egg theory because I would like to experience what its like to be a famous singer or athlete but also just a normal person in foreign countries.

 

[DignifiedGrave]

I've thought about reincarnation and I do desire it. I think there is some aspect of myself or of awareness of who I am that I would like to hold on to though. I really like the egg theory because I would like to experience what its like to be a famous singer or athlete but also just a normal person in foreign countries.

That would be chill. I think i could be fine as whatever, but I totally understand wanting to hold part of yourself through it. I feel like for me id want to keep my unrelenting openness and sharpness is pointing my questions. My universal love sort of speak. I really wish even the worst people the chance for goodness and prosperity and I wouldnt want a life without these qualities I think.