T^T
I’m dying today no matter the cost
- Jun 25, 2025
- 32
I'm tired of feeling this way. I don't know what else to do, I've tried talking to people, I've tried just thinking it over, I've tried recreational drugs, I've talked to my therapist over it. No matter what I do I can't get over him. I'm not going to kill myself over this because that'd be childish but at the same time I don't know what to do anymore. I'm stuck loving someone that will never love me back again and it fucking hurts, I know I'm the one that caused this and I'm getting what I deserve I just wish I didn't crumble this low this fast. And I messaged him about it just overall trying to tell him how I feel over it, I never asked for help on it. I don't want him to have feelings again because I don't want to harm what he's rebuilding in himself but I'm selfish and I want him to fall in love again and this constant back and forth is driving me insane. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I won't get him back I'm still partially hopeful that there's a small chance he'll come back. I'm so fucking tired of this. A huge part of me is yelling at me to just get it over with and ctb but as I already said, that's a childish thing to do. I can't control the way he feels towards me and I need to come to terms with that. It's so over for me.
