Death is freedom from a miserable life

[FuneralCry]

The only thing that I find comforting is the thought of no longer being here. The fact that this life will end. How eventually I will be gone and be at peace. However I wish it was easier to get there. Everyday is just the same dread and hopelessness, the same thoughts, wishing I was not here. There is nothing really enjoyable about living and there is nothing to look forward too. Everyday is just the same. It is not living but existing, like I have already died.

In a way I used to like the night time, but now it is just sad, listening to the tinnitus. I always end up staying up too late and overthinking everything. I wake up the next day feeling ill. It will never change. I hear of people moving on with their lives and it just makes me feel empty. This is because I know that no matter what circumstances I was in, even if I could change many things, I would still not want to live. Nothing about life appeals to me in any way. I think coming to that realisation, I know the thing I must do is leave but I know I will only get the courage when things get worse.

Life is essentially just passing the time until death. It is mostly pointless suffering. Someone I know said they want to live until they are 100, I will never be able to understand that. Eventually I will be free. In death there is true peace and an end to all suffering. Maybe eternal nothingness is our reward for putting up with this life.
I know I have made many similar posts at this point, which are all very repetitive. I guess it is just a way to pass the time.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

The only thing that I find comforting is the thought of no longer being here. The fact that this life will end. How eventually I will be gone and be at peace.

Yeah this is the only solace I have. Knowing that even if I can't ctb by my own hands death will eventually come for me. I just hope it is sooner than later.

I know I have made many similar posts at this point, which are all very repetitive. I guess it is just a way to pass the time.

I am sure people are tired of seeing my posts. But like you said this is the only place you can talk about this stuff without being hauled off by the authorities or being told condescending and empty platitudes.

 

[Midgardsorm]

You are always thoughtful and kind to everyone.

It saddens me that you are suffering living a life you don't want. Many would be against your idea, like this acquaintance of yours who wants to live 1000 years.
What matters is what you want. The peace that only true nothingness can bring.

We are programmed to live, the body is made to survive at all costs, but our minds are different. We want to feel happiness, we want to feel love. But often, we want to simply feel nothing. This is one of the pleasures of sleep.

Our bodies prevent us from this. It is not unusual for the body to have a different reaction to what the mind wants.

One day we will be free of all this. Of course, you can be sure of that.

Be well, Our dear @FuneralCry

OBS: Never apologize for posting the same thing. You always have something to say, and we are always happy to hear you.

 

[suisuiforum]

Every single day, I am only passing the time, and I just wish I could fall asleep and never wake up. People around us don't understand the mental anguish and suffering that we endure every day simply from being alive--even if the world became a utopia, I would still choose to die. Your posts never fail to be relatable, and I always enjoy reading them. Although it would be better if none of us felt like this, it helps to know that I am not alone.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Yeah life is just full of suffering and pain, humans make it even worse because of their perverted personalities and desires- they love to make those vulnerable suffer even more than they already do- they mentally masturbate on this. This is why euthanasia isn't a thing yet. What I'm doing rn is just to suffer and survive (for what even?), maybe my luck comes one day and my salvation (death) will finally come to save me from this flesh prison. This life is the real hell.

 

[ClownMe]

It's sad that we never chose to be born into this life, yet we are forced to suffer the brunt of this life with no escape. Death is the only way to be free.

 

[toforigivelife]

You're a wonderful SS member FuneralCry, always there with a supportive response.

Post whenever you want to my friend.

 

[Chockles]

The only thing that I find comforting is the thought of no longer being here. The fact that this life will end. How eventually I will be gone and be at peace. However I wish it was easier to get there. Everyday is just the same dread and hopelessness, the same thoughts, wishing I was not here. There is nothing really enjoyable about living and there is nothing to look forward too. Everyday is just the same. It is not living but existing, like I have already died.

In a way I used to like the night time, but now it is just sad, listening to the tinnitus. I always end up staying up too late and overthinking everything. I wake up the next day feeling ill. It will never change. I hear of people moving on with their lives and it just makes me feel empty. This is because I know that no matter what circumstances I was in, even if I could change many things, I would still not want to live. Nothing about life appeals to me in any way. I think coming to that realisation, I know the thing I must do is leave but I know I will only get the courage when things get worse.

Life is essentially just passing the time until death. It is mostly pointless suffering. Someone I know said they want to live until they are 100, I will never be able to understand that. Eventually I will be free. In death there is true peace and an end to all suffering. Maybe eternal nothingness is our reward for putting up with this life.
I know I have made many similar posts at this point, which are all very repetitive. I guess it is just a way to pass the time.

im sure people are tired of reading my posts but i can assure you i never tire of reading yours. You offer so much support to almost everyome who posts & yet are suffering such extreme problems yourself. I hope you find the courage when things get worse to find the peace you are after.

 

[MeltedJello]

You explain my thoughts exactly. Life is just pointless for me too. Although I can't fully relate to the pain & suffering you go through daily, I really hope you can find the peace you're searching for someday. I find it relaxing when I read many of your posts, even if you think it's repetitive. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

 

[Sans]

Death is indeed freedom. Why do you think there are so many suicide prevention "lifelines"? Why do you think you send people to padded cells just on suspicion of being suicidal? Why do you think firefighters and jerkops forcefully "save" other people? It's because they don't want us to be free. The western world, or at least the United States, was never a "free" country. The "land of the free" part of the national anthem is a lie that is to the same effect as "war is peace, freedom is slavery, ignorance is strength" in Oceania.

 

[demuic]

I understand. I always like to see your posts and your perspective and I can relate a lot. It's like you've taken the words out of my mouth.

People around us don't understand the mental anguish and suffering that we endure every day simply from being alive--even if the world became a utopia, I would still choose to die.

Exactly the same for me. Life and existence itself is the problem. I'm tired of this world. There's nothing here for me. I also feel that nothing is enjoyable and that there's nothing to look forward to. I am only just passing time until I CTB.

 

[Misfit72]

I feel the same way. I don't wake up happy to be alive, I wake up wondering why I still am. I have little to look back on and nothing to look forward to.

 

[CozyTime]

I've used this exact thought as a form of motivation for myself, at the end of it all my death is something I have welcomed for a long time and when I accepted that I realized I could use it to my advantage and push myself into a state of living that while I am not happy I can be content with and that further pushed me into my life right now where I can find joy in lots of things I could not before. An acceptance of sorts that I will always feel this pain and live with it allowing me to explore my life further.

I'm miserable still, death longing as always but I am not constantly begging myself to just end it. Of course we are all different but I hope that for some this thought and acceptance of a miserable life can lead you to a more enjoyable place in life even if still overall miserable.

 

[Bigpink]

Agreed. I'm just waiting for this all to end. I take some comfort when I think of all those years I wasn't here and all that time I won't be. This is a mere blip.

 

[yive]

death is our salvation

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yeah this is the only solace I have. Knowing that even if I can't ctb by my own hands death will eventually come for me. I just hope it is sooner than later.



I am sure people are tired of seeing my posts. But like you said this is the only place you can talk about this stuff without being hauled off by the authorities or being told condescending and empty platitudes.

i will never tire of reading your @FuneralCry and you @eternalmelancholy posts. I've never seen such clarity and truth expressed anywhere not in stupid facebook, other websites, TV , irl, work , etc.

Not only you 2 but most other posters on this website sanctioned suicide have i seen others say what validated my own thoughts.

All of my life i was alone with my thoughts watching all the rats compete in the rat race for a few scraps ,having children, wanting to "grow old gracefully", parrotting the mantra "life is a gift". i stood firm in my belief that life is a prison not a gift and that i will never have children and that i will never grow old because old age is the worst hell. They wanted to isolate me make me feel insane. But i stood alone against the world knowing i was right never wavering even against an onslaught of lecturing against my nihilistic philosophy. Only when i found this website was i saved with hope for a painless method and interacting with others that validated my thoughts and made me feel not insane.

This website is the only oasis of truth left in the world. Is what you read on instagram , facebook etc truth ? No that's bs.

 

[AnonymousS]

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The only thing that I find comforting is the thought of no longer being here. The fact that this life will end. How eventually I will be gone and be at peace. However I wish it was easier to get there. Everyday is just the same dread and hopelessness, the same thoughts, wishing I was not here. There is nothing really enjoyable about living and there is nothing to look forward too. Everyday is just the same. It is not living but existing, like I have already died.

In a way I used to like the night time, but now it is just sad, listening to the tinnitus. I always end up staying up too late and overthinking everything. I wake up the next day feeling ill. It will never change. I hear of people moving on with their lives and it just makes me feel empty. This is because I know that no matter what circumstances I was in, even if I could change many things, I would still not want to live. Nothing about life appeals to me in any way. I think coming to that realisation, I know the thing I must do is leave but I know I will only get the courage when things get worse.

Life is essentially just passing the time until death. It is mostly pointless suffering. Someone I know said they want to live until they are 100, I will never be able to understand that. Eventually I will be free. In death there is true peace and an end to all suffering. Maybe eternal nothingness is our reward for putting up with this life.
I know I have made many similar posts at this point, which are all very repetitive. I guess it is just a way to pass the time.

I truly understand the existence part, so many of us on here stopped living a very long time ago. Many, many more around the world too. To be born is a bit of a miracle, but luck often decides whether that turns out well or not.

 

[yive]

i will never tire of reading your @FuneralCry and you @eternalmelancholy posts. I've never seen such clarity and truth expressed anywhere not in stupid facebook, other websites, TV , irl, work , etc.

Not only you 2 but most other posters on this website sanctioned suicide have i seen others say what validated my own thoughts.

All of my life i was alone with my thoughts watching all the rats compete in the rat race for a few scraps ,having children, wanting to "grow old gracefully", parrotting the mantra "life is a gift". <...> They wanted to isolate me make me feel insane. <...>

This website is the only oasis of truth in left in the world. Is what you read on instagram, facebook etc truth ? No that's bs.

they want to make us "mentally insane", because we disagree with their system of exploitation and enslavement, but we know that the real problem is not with us. the problem is life itself

 

[back_to_oblivion]

Yes, death is really the only thing that makes life bearable. No matter who you are or what you did it will be swept away by death, gone and forgotten, like it never existed. Helps me take life less seriously because all of this bullshit is only temporary. Death will erase everything and when it comes I'll finally be able to let go of the burden of life and slip into nothingness.

 

[existtosuffer]

I hate myself for wanting to win a sperm race.

 

[Life sucks]

Life is a fundamentally wrong concept that shouldn't be experienced. A time wheel that kills and deteriorates everything. Even passing time is a form of ending and death, the previous second die without a way of retrieving. Don't worry about repeating the posts, life itself is just a loop.

 

[june]

there is maybe the release that stress can end