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Bulldogbitch
Lifes a bitch, so am I
- Feb 12, 2020
- 85
I tend to find myself with a sense of dread about my own death. Then there's the battle of wanting to die, so it's difficult for me to understand myself.
The worst time is when I first switch the light off, I can imagine myself in a coffin. It's when I wake in the night that this dread hits me worst. (It's nothing to do with being afraid of the dark).
The strange sense of nothingness for eternity after everything we've had, been through etc.
I try to rationalise that there was nothing before I was born, so don't be scared but it didn't help really.
I get the impression from a lot of fellow members that you believe in the other side or of a happier place?
Is this a religious belief? The certainty that it can't be any worse than living?
I don't think posting this will be of benefit to anyone. I hope I don't offend anyone.
Am I alone in these thoughts?
I can't explain how I feel in words, I think ultimately it's the fact that we all have to die, suicidal or not, we really don't have any say in it, maybe it's the inevitability that it will taken and there's no other choice.
Hope you're all doing OK.
The worst time is when I first switch the light off, I can imagine myself in a coffin. It's when I wake in the night that this dread hits me worst. (It's nothing to do with being afraid of the dark).
The strange sense of nothingness for eternity after everything we've had, been through etc.
I try to rationalise that there was nothing before I was born, so don't be scared but it didn't help really.
I get the impression from a lot of fellow members that you believe in the other side or of a happier place?
Is this a religious belief? The certainty that it can't be any worse than living?
I don't think posting this will be of benefit to anyone. I hope I don't offend anyone.
Am I alone in these thoughts?
I can't explain how I feel in words, I think ultimately it's the fact that we all have to die, suicidal or not, we really don't have any say in it, maybe it's the inevitability that it will taken and there's no other choice.
Hope you're all doing OK.