Discussion Death acceptance & depression

[WhirlingMind]

At some point in my life I fully realised that I'll have to die anyway and accept this destiny.

I understood that, once I'm old, I have to consider myself capable to face and accept death.
Then I realised I can just accept it right now instead, and I can consider it as a solution for all problems that so far where unsolvable.

I believe this is what makes me depressed and apparently incurable, the lucid, conscious, rational awareness that death can be indeed a solution, and an infinitely effective one.

This is what distinguishes me from mentally healthy people, the awareness of the possibility of death.
Something that was previously repressed in my mind, and is still repressed for the sane people.
It's not the circumstances that make me depressed, it's this awareness.

What are your thoughts about this?

 

[sunny/omori]

I feel the same as you. It is not like I believe i would live forever. I am atheist from like 13 yo so I dont event think of afterlife. But i had a dream, life goals. That keep me alive when I feel so sad. That and fear of hanging.

What maked a turning point was reaching that final goal an event feel unsatisfaid. I realized suffering is part of life, the most part of it, and nothing can redeem what I suffered or sacriface. I dont want to work to death just to die of cancer or demencia. I know how people live in their last years. I know there is nothing in my future worth of the pain.

Have you read Inio Asano's Solanin? Sartre called this feeling nausea. The realization everything is pointless and futile. I feel nausea everyday.

 

[FuneralCry]

The thought of death is actually comforting to me, it does not make me feel depressed at all. For me, what is depressing instead is life and the fact that my suffering could get much worse. When I die, I will no longer exist and there will be no more me, there will simply be nothing. I see it as being like how before I was born, time passed but yet I was not aware of anything.

 

[WhirlingMind]

I feel the same as you. It is not like I believe i would live forever. I am atheist from like 13 yo so I dont event think of afterlife. But i had a dream, life goals. That keep me alive when I feel so sad. That and fear of hanging.

What maked a turning point was reaching that final goal an event feel unsatisfaid. I realized suffering is part of life, the most part of it, and nothing can redeem what I suffered or sacriface. I dont want to work to death just to die of cancer or demencia. I know how people live in their last years. I know there is nothing in my future worth of the pain.

Have you read Inio Asano's Solanin? Sartre called this feeling nausea. The realization everything is pointless and futile. I feel nausea everyday.

If you were able to suppress the idea of death like other people do you think that would make you feel better or worse?

The thought of death is actually comforting to me, it does not make me feel depressed at all. For me, what is depressing instead is life and the fact that my suffering could get much worse. When I die, I will no longer exist and there will be no more me, there will simply be nothing. I see it as being like how before I was born, time passed but yet I was not aware of anything.

I totally understand you. Yet, don't you feel this awareness makes it so harder to enjoy pleasures and hopes?

 

[FuneralCry]

I totally understand you. Yet, don't you feel this awareness makes it so harder to enjoy pleasures and hopes?

I do not enjoy anything anyway and there is no hope. I actually think the fact that we will all die one day makes life more bearable for me, as I tell myself that everything is temporary and the suffering will end one day no matter what.

 

[sunny/omori]

Some sad truths really certainly impact in my mental health. I am not afraid of death, just the agony of dying in a hospital or violently. What afraid to me the most is an long unhappy life.

 

[thedaywillcome]

At some point in my life I fully realised that I'll have to die anyway and accept this destiny.

I understood that, once I'm old, I have to consider myself capable to face and accept death.
Then I realised I can just accept it right now instead, and I can consider it as a solution for all problems that so far where unsolvable.

I believe this is what makes me depressed and apparently incurable, the lucid, conscious, rational awareness that death can be indeed a solution, and an infinitely effective one.

This is what distinguishes me from mentally healthy people, the awareness of the possibility of death.
Something that was previously repressed in my mind, and is still repressed for the sane people.
It's not the circumstances that make me depressed, it's this awareness.

What are your thoughts about this?

I do not share your attitude. I do not have the willpower to wait 40-50years until I get some vers serious medical issues and I can go to Exit for drinking Nembutal. No thanks.

 

[WhirlingMind]

I do not share your attitude. I do not have the willpower to wait 40-50years until I get some vers serious medical issues and I can go to Exit for drinking Nembutal. No thanks.

I didn't talk about waiting 50yrs...
I meant, once you know there's an easy solution, how much can you resist before taking it?

Some sad truths really certainly impact in my mental health. I am not afraid of death, just the agony of dying in a hospital or violently. What afraid to me the most is an long unhappy life.

The thought of death is actually comforting to me, it does not make me feel depressed at all. For me, what is depressing instead is life and the fact that my suffering could get much worse. When I die, I will no longer exist and there will be no more me, there will simply be nothing. I see it as being like how before I was born, time passed but yet I was not aware of anything.

Do you think you'll be better able to be happy if you weren't ready to accept death?

 

[FuneralCry]

Do you think you'll be better able to be happy if you weren't ready to accept death?

I do not think I would ever be happy no matter what, but I feel like if I was unable to accept death I would feel a lot worse. It does make my life a little bit more bearable knowing that someday no matter what I will eventually get what I want the most which is non existence.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Death is inevitable and if one does not enjoy living and is in constant turmoil, they shouldn't need to postpone it.