NSFW Dating life rant/vent

[kitkatt]

Well FUCK me and FUCK my life because WHY CANT I HAVE ANYTHING NICE met someone I like (oh good god I'm scared) and they about to have to fucking leave and omfg I would like to freak the fuck out ftw but oh fucking WELL. But like he's my type HE called me his girlfriend even?! He said he'd come and get my initials tattooed and did we also of course did spend da nights and fucked (he matched my freak and well it's been a minute felt like a century since I had some so) but anyway I wish I wasn't so fucking traumatized by people because then I wouldn't feel FUCKING INSANE WHEN I LIKE SOMEONE. (I don't feel crazy yet but fuck it can change super quickly) And oh of course life has fucking jokes because he's into all the same shit I am plus more. A fucking delight to be around, talks to my friends. Into cosplay (masks) and is just all around a freaky little creature. For the love of FUCKING god please let this one thing work out even though the government is RUINING my life right now.
Okay that's all for now will probably bitch and moan more one way or another

 

[Jamesbond]

Why are to seeking the love of someone else whilst you cant love yourself? I get desire for sex or feeling loved but from someone who is attempting actively and wants to die, why drag someone else into a loving relationship when you want to die? Or are you hoping that will fix you some how? Sadly i can tell you it doesn't.

 

[kitkatt]

Why are to seeking the love of someone else whilst you cant love yourself? I get desire for sex or feeling loved but from someone who is attempting actively and wants to die, why drag someone else into a loving relationship when you want to die? Or are you hoping that will fix you some how? Sadly i can tell you it doesn't.

I do love myself. Sometimes I love myself too much. Others not enough but it's an everyday thing. Being mentally ill doesn't mean I have to suffer alone though. I want to kill myself for reasons out of my hands so yes if I find someone who gets it why not try? Not everyone's wanna die reasons are the same. A partial reason for me not wanting to be topside is because this shits lame as fuck if I gotta do it alone while all my friends have loving partners I'm almost 30 I'm tired I'm bored and sick of capitalism. So in sum I wanna kill myself because America sucks and I'm poor and stuck here.

 

[Jamesbond]

I find that a bit selfish personally but each to their own i guess

 

[witchcraft]

I hope things work out for you!