Dark Fantasies

[Trueform]

Does anyone here have dark fantasies about hurting others? And by others I don't mean random innocent people. I mean people that have wronged you or Hurt you mentally or physically (Bullies.. etc) It bothers me really hard that I'm suicidal and my life is fucked up and the people that have done wrong to me are living their best life.
Fuck this world and every single human. may the world burn to ashes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that others have treat you horribly. People are just so cruel. I used to have a lot of anger as I was bullied but that was many years ago. I did not exactly have thoughts of hurting people, but just extreme hate to the point that I would cry intensely. I just feel empty now. All I think about is ctb at this current moment. In general, life is just very unfair. When I think about the past, it is painful.

 

[motel rooms]

I mean people that have wronged you or Hurt you mentally or physically (Bullies.. etc)

Yes. I beat up my father & spit in his face twice in my 20s & I still fantasize about kicking his teeth in even though he's dead

 

[fox_wannabe]

Yeah, I mean I had and sometimes have those. I think it is called "Harm OCD".
I had simple intrusive thought like thinking about stabbing and punching but they can get more elaborate and dangerous... I do not act on those thoughts. I just ignore them as a part of my broken mentalscape (mental landscape or something XD).
Yeah people that harm others are usually getting away with It. Just leave them if you can. Delete all social media and break all contact so you do not see them and so you can forget about them. I have the same thing with my father, I hate him but love him at the same time. Weird.

Also fuck this earth and everybody who lives on it.

 

[Trueform]

I'm sorry that others have treat you horribly. People are just so cruel. I used to have a lot of anger as I was bullied but that was many years ago. I did not exactly have thoughts of hurting people, but just extreme hate to the point that I would cry intensely. I just feel empty now. All I think about is ctb at this current moment. In general, life is just very unfair. When I think about the past, it is painful.

It just bothers me that I was a good person all my life and have never bullied anyone or anything and I'm gonna kill myself in my dark room while these people get to live their life and start a Family and just enjoy it.

 

[deadverysoon]

Does anyone here have dark fantasies about hurting others? And by others I don't mean random innocent people. I mean people that have wronged you or Hurt you mentally or physically (Bullies.. etc) It bothers me really hard that I'm suicidal and my life is fucked up and the people that have done wrong to me are living their best life.
Fuck this world and every single human. may the world burn to ashes.

just in my mind - but here i am very bad to these persons.

i reallity i couldnt hurt anyone. the most brutal thing i could do would be yelling or say things that hurts the other person.

but immediately after that im sorry. and then sorry forever. thats sucks. i want to be a bad asshole with no conscience.

but in my head - here i am a brutal mf. and it helps sometimes to write it down.

 

[Trueform]

Yes. I beat up my father & spit in his face twice in my 20s & I still fantasize about kicking his teeth in even though

Awesome, my former teachers used to treat me like trash and never even cared about me having autism and Just made my whole school Time unbearable. I want them to suffer as much as I did.

 

[fox_wannabe]

Awesome, my former teachers used to treat me like trash and never even cared about me having autism and Just made my whole school Time unbearable. I want them to suffer as much as I did.

Yes. I beat up my father & spit in his face twice in my 20s & I still fantasize about kicking his teeth in even though he's dead

You two need to hold your horses, we are here to stop suffering not make it worse. He can end up in prison if he acts up. It would be true tragedy. How do you ctb in prison? I om on spectrum too and I was bullied, and I cannot change that. I suffer now and I deserve peace. That is why only life I am gonna take is mine.

 

[motel rooms]

You two need to hold your horses, we are here to stop suffering not make it worse. He can end up in prison if he acts up. It would be true tragedy. How do you ctb in prison? I om on spectrum too and I was bullied, and I cannot change that. I suffer now and I deserve peace. That is why only life I am gonna take is mine.

I'm not saying it's a good idea to physically hurt one's abusers. There are usually consequences. I got away with what I did because my twisted father was very afraid of the police. I used to send him postcards saying, "Looking forward to the next wrestling match, bud. I failed twice, but third time's the charm. Huge hugs!"

 

[fox_wannabe]

I'm not saying it's a good idea to physically hurt one's abusers. There are usually consequences. I got away with what I did because my twisted father was very afraid of the police. I used to send him postcards saying, "Looking forward to the next wrestling match, bud. I failed twice, but third time's the charm. Huge hugs!"

Thanks for clarifying. Damn that is absolutely brootal.

 

[stygal]

Yes. I beat up my father & spit in his face twice in my 20s & I still fantasize about kicking his teeth in even though he's dead

I think that's really brave and a good thing you stood up for yourself -
I wish I would have had the courage to do so...now it's too late but I fanatasize about beating my abuser(s) to death ever so often

 

[Mr2005]

Does anyone here have dark fantasies about hurting others? And by others I don't mean random innocent people. I mean people that have wronged you or Hurt you mentally or physically (Bullies.. etc) It bothers me really hard that I'm suicidal and my life is fucked up and the people that have done wrong to me are living their best life.
Fuck this world and every single human. may the world burn to ashes.

Welcome to Sanctioned Homicide

 

[arie]

I'm not saying it's a good idea to physically hurt one's abusers. There are usually consequences. I got away with what I did because my twisted father was very afraid of the police. I used to send him postcards saying, "Looking forward to the next wrestling match, bud. I failed twice, but third time's the charm. Huge hugs!"

That is, wow ... I thought me and my dad had a toxic relationship.

 

[forgotten15]

Awesome, my former teachers used to treat me like trash and never even cared about me having autism and Just made my whole school Time unbearable. I want them to suffer as much as I did.

I had that experience with a few teachers, if i had the opportunity I would scream in their faces what a piece of shit they were treating children like that and not giving a crap about their mental health.

It infuriates me seeing teachers treat their students like trash because i know how much that can affect them.

 

[ChobaniFlipSmores]

Actually, as soon as I became suicidal all the dark fantasies went away (which I rather preferred go away). Maybe it's because I realized all the problems I have are mainly due to me and not outside factors.

 

[patheticpartner]

Actually, as soon as I became suicidal all the dark fantasies went away (which I rather preferred go away). Maybe it's because I realized all the problems I have are mainly due to me and not outside factors.

I relate. When I wasn't suicidal, I was very spiteful and fantasized about torturing certain traitors and opportunists

 

[Darkover]

yes i'm hoping one day we will be able to destroy everything there is and be nothing forever, no way would i ever want to be alive here ever again but if this place does bring me alive again i can be certain i will do my best to find a way to be nothing forever, i reserve my right to be nothing forever even at the cost of destroying everything there is, one lifetime of misery in this hell hole is enough to last forever, i wouldn't let this evil hell hole exist at all i want no part of anything evil, one word to describe life [evil].

 

[TheHatedOne]

I share your sentiment. I wish I had enough power to make those who traumatized me suffer worse than I did. Fuck this unfair bullshit.

 

[stellabelle]

Does anyone here have dark fantasies about hurting others? And by others I don't mean random innocent people. I mean people that have wronged you or Hurt you mentally or physically (Bullies.. etc) It bothers me really hard that I'm suicidal and my life is fucked up and the people that have done wrong to me are living their best life.
Fuck this world and every single human. may the world burn to ashes.

I think this is normal.
unfortunately the government and police laugh and think it's totally fine. To provoke someone to the point that they snap repeatedly.
But they have to lock you up if you do something about it.
why they didn't lock up the lunatic that created this situation for me in the first place is an absolute shame.
At least she died miserable.

 

[hlynn95]

Yes I have some fantasies of getting "revenge" on those who have severely hurt me / done me wrong , but because of laws & jail time , we cannot do that. I've heard many stories of killers who felt hurt from their ex lovers and end up killing them, then themselves. A scary situation but it happens all too often. Heartbreak is a serious thing. Feeling bitterly rejected and wronged / injustices can be a strong motivator. However, most ppl don't act on these feelings due to potential prison time & the consequences of the legal system.

 

[summers]

Does anyone here have dark fantasies about hurting others? And by others I don't mean random innocent people. I mean people that have wronged you or Hurt you mentally or physically (Bullies.. etc) It bothers me really hard that I'm suicidal and my life is fucked up and the people that have done wrong to me are living their best life.
Fuck this world and every single human. may the world burn to ashes.

I wouldn't call these dark, or fantasies. They are thoughts that can lead to very fulfilling actions if planed and executed properly. Before all our bullshit laws, it was eye for an eye.

Yes. I beat up my father & spit in his face twice in my 20s & I still fantasize about kicking his teeth in even though he's dead

Thank you for this, and showing it's fine to not be afraid of one's abusers. Too bad you never got to fully realize what you wanted to do.

You two need to hold your horses, we are here to stop suffering not make it worse. He can end up in prison if he acts up. It would be true tragedy. How do you ctb in prison? I om on spectrum too and I was bullied, and I cannot change that. I suffer now and I deserve peace. That is why only life I am gonna take is mine.

No, you need to stop putting the idea that revenge is not attainable in the minds of ss members. Not everyone here is strong enough to do what @hotelbeneathground was able to, but direct physical action is only one of many forms of revenge that people can take.

I share your sentiment. I wish I had enough power to make those who traumatized me suffer worse than I did. Fuck this unfair bullshit.

You may not be physically powerful enough to directly attack them, but there are so many other ways to harm people, physically, monetarily, or reputationally. Your brain is your strongest muscle - that's what you need to use in this case.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I never let them go on for more than a split second, not trying to end up in an SN-free environment.

No one has ever wronged me, btw. Kind of weird.

 

[TheHatedOne]

You may not be physically powerful enough to directly attack them, but there are so many other ways to harm people, physically, monetarily, or reputationally. Your brain is your strongest muscle - that's what you need to use in this case.

That's it. I'm dumber than a second coat of paint, my brain can't do much.

 

[Trueform]

I wouldn't call these dark, or fantasies. They are thoughts that can lead to very fulfilling actions if planed and executed properly. Before all our bullshit laws, it was eye for an eye.


Thank you for this, and showing it's fine to not be afraid of one's abusers. Too bad you never got to fully realize what you wanted to do.


No, you need to stop putting the idea that revenge is not attainable in the minds of ss members. Not everyone here is strong enough to do what @hotelbeneathground was able to, but direct physical action is only one of many forms of revenge that people can take.


You may not be physically powerful enough to directly attack them, but there are so many other ways to harm people, physically, monetarily, or reputationally. Your brain is your strongest muscle - that's what you need to use in this case.

Really based, in Nature there is no forgiveness.