Daily visine ingestion and body so weak

[SVEN]

I can only admire your resolve,wish you success soon and bitterly regret that we are put in these positions.

 

[Davey36000]

I saw you work in a lab, why choose something like this? This seems very lengthy and potentially painful.

Also you have a cool job and I wish I knew chemistry, I could easily make stuff like DMT.

Is there anything in your life that makes you happy enough to continue living?

 

[mirzani]

I saw you work in a lab, why choose something like this? This seems very lengthy and potentially painful.

Also you have a cool job and I wish I knew chemistry, I could easily make stuff like DMT.

Is there anything in your life that makes you happy enough to continue living?

There's different kinds of labs. Mine is not something that has any peaceful way out. Unless i want messy ending, then yes i have access to lots of stuff. To make those peaceful substances it requires me to order stuff using company names as it is strictly regulated and I don't want to create any problems. Especially if it goes to the news that i made it myself,They'll feel guilty and stupid to not noticing, worst it could inspire my junior or students. I'm still a teacher though. I can't let people feel and do that.

No. I have nothing to live.

 

[ApparentlyNot]

No update since Saturday? Do we think Mirzani succeeded? Has anyone heard from them?

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I'm interested in this as I really wish I could "get sick" and die so my loved ones can make peace with it instead of dying suddenly and obviously by my own hand.

 

[jacrispy]

No update since Saturday? Do we think Mirzani succeeded? Has anyone heard from them?

he was last active on Tuesday

 

[jessisme]

No,, still the same symptoms but now it's starting disrupt my daily jobs.

Yeah still.. for each day it's depends. Sometimes half sometimes 2 bottles. It depends on what I'm doing that day. Or whether I'm gonna be decapitated or not. As i mentioned, I'm still doing my job everyday so it's hard for me to consistently taking 2 bottles each day.

I'm generally in good health. I was hiked so much back in the day and routinely jog and long distance bike (around 100km) and do some other physical activities. I think that's somehow affected how this substances working on me.

But it's started getting worst. 2 days ago, i have difficulty to climb the stairs at work from 2nd floor to 4th floor. I needed to hold the handle to help me going up in a really slow motion, and once i arrived in 4th floor, my heart were beating so fast that i can't bring myself to keep standing up and teach in front of the class.. i spent 2 hours teaching on my chair.
Oh i forgot to mention, that i read it somewhere that in one of the criminal case, the victim dies after 3 years of daily visine ingestion. The killer put 3 drops of visine in each day. I'm taking at the minimum half bottle each day, i hope it wont take me that long.

I'm contemplating another method while still taking it. But i have no idea what and how.I bought SN already but I saw some pictures of the bodies and it's all blue. it's obvious that CTB by SN will show it's a suicide. I'm still headed to the ctb that looks like natural cause. I really dont want my family or colleagues or students feel any negative feeling or affected negatively after I'm leaving. I live in a developing country where mental health still ignored and they'll just think it's all due to the lack of faith. And because I'm known as an atheist, i don't want my atheism is blamed for my ctb. That's 2 different things.

Hopefully if there's anyone who can help to find any method that will look like a natural cause, I'm very open to suggestions.

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If you will be gone why does it matter if your friends and family attribute your death to Atheism?

 

[glendaaa]

There's different kinds of labs. Mine is not something that has any peaceful way out. Unless i want messy ending, then yes i have access to lots of stuff. To make those peaceful substances it requires me to order stuff using company names as it is strictly regulated and I don't want to create any problems. Especially if it goes to the news that i made it myself,They'll feel guilty and stupid to not noticing, worst it could inspire my junior or students. I'm still a teacher though. I can't let people feel and do that.

No. I have nothing to live.

How are you feeling lately? Are you still taking half a bottle a day?

 

[mothercoin]

Falling off a cruise ship, eating 5-day old pasta...