Dad has an enlarged heart valve

[Water-Lily]

He said he's going to get another test to see if he needs surgery or not, but its basically bad news

I can't, handle things like this very well

Considering how my mom died a few years ago, I am fearing losing my dad

Outside of him I have no parents and I'll basically be alone

My family is fucked up and I dont want to depend on my relatives

So if something bad happens to him, this might be my cue to CTB, which isn't a bad thing

I dont want to confide in anyone about this at all. I just want to keep it in and hope it kills me

 

[Sweet Tart]

I'm sorry you're dealing with medical stress- not knowing what is going to happen to a loved one is so scary. Sounds like you and your dad are close. I hope you are able to comfort each other.

 

[Water-Lily]

I'm sorry you're dealing with medical stress- not knowing what is going to happen to a loved one is so scary. Sounds like you and your dad are close. I hope you are able to comfort each other.

its not going to get better

I am considering taking my life in the near future. I cant take this

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence certainly is so cruel and to me it's understandable wishing to escape from all future suffering. But anyway I wish you the best.