The Great Below
Fragile, she doesn't see her beauty š„
- May 19, 2022
- 7
It's this on and on Circle of not wanting to exist I can't leave my room I can't be around my kids I can't leave my bed I'm so scared of my husband I just wish that I could die I know I will never get that luxury I'm just so lonely I would say I had a family I wish I had a mom they didn't abuse me and the be sexually abused as a child and lie and abused me with medication my whole childhood I just wish I could have had somebody love me you're just lay in my room so lonely and scared of my husband he is such a dirty person all of the lying and cheating in the beginning of our relationship I don't even fucking care I just want to be loved I just wish I could feel some comfort. I'm an online sex worker and I have all these people saying nice things to me all day When they don't even know my real name And it just makes me feel Like a fake.. Nobody actually likes me Nobody has actually ever liked me in my 35 years of existence Nobody is actually ever cared what the fuck I have looked like enough to not cheat on me So who the fuck cares what I look like You just wish that I could be kidnapped and maimed Completely physically destroyed something nobody would say things about my body anymore because it really fucks me up I just wish I could be just as ugly as I am on the inside the inside of the people abandon me over the inside that nobody can stick around to love except my emotionally abusive husband it's just so manipulative and feeds on me being weak and beneath him.. I really wish I never thought that one day I could be loved once I got away from my mom I wish I had never had a home because it is becomes such a painful existence hoping for more hoping I could be loved being I can feel anything other than wanting to die everyday and being too weak to do it myself
